Difficult
Gracie Abrams Lyrics


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My double vision
Is only amplifying everything he isn't
'Til I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen
It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition

And I've been thinkin' if I move out this year
I'll feel my parents slipping
Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult

To name this feeling
Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving
But over what I never had, so I've been speaking
To my therapist, I call her every weekend

I meant to tell you
How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?
Was it something that I said that colored you blue?

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Difficult (I)
Difficult

I've been drinking
And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult

Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?




Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
Line by Line Meaning

My double vision
My perception is distorted, making things seem different than they actually are


Is only amplifying everything he isn't
My distorted perception is making all of his flaws and shortcomings seem worse


'Til I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen
My distorted perception is making me feel less emotionally invested and even bored in the relationship


It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition
I recognize that the problem is not with the other person, but rather a condition that I have


And I've been thinkin' if I move out this year
I've been considering the idea of moving out of my parents' house this year


I'll feel my parents slipping
I'm afraid that if I move out, I'll lose my connection with my parents


Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment
In addition to the fear of losing my connection with my parents, I'm also scared of making the commitment of moving out


I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
I feel like there's something missing in my life, but I can't quite put my finger on it


To name this feeling
I can't quite identify or label this feeling


Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving
It would take an impossibly long amount of time and intense emotional experience to truly understand and define this feeling


But over what I never had, so I've been speaking
This feeling is tied to something I never had, which I've been talking about with my therapist


To my therapist, I call her every weekend
I seek support and guidance from my therapist on a weekly basis


I meant to tell you
I wanted to tell you something, but never got the chance


How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
I regret how things ended between us when our relationship didn't work out


'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?
You meant everything to me, but now I don't know where you are or what happened to you


Was it something that I said that colored you blue?
I wonder if something I said or did caused you pain or made you feel sad


I've been drinking
I've been using alcohol as a coping mechanism


And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
I've been staying up late, replaying and regretting past mistakes


I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
I hoped that if I vented and talked things out, it would help resolve my issues


Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I understand that constantly spiraling and feeling stuck is a painful experience


I should probably go back home
I realize that returning to my parents' house might be the best decision for me right now


Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Despite knowing that it might be the right choice, it still feels incredibly difficult to do so


Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I yearn for the ability to be non-existent or unnoticed


I'd be someone no one knows
I'd have a chance to start over and be a completely new person


I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
I'm starting to realize that I can be difficult and complicated to understand and deal with


Difficult (I)
I acknowledge that I can be difficult to handle, and it's something I'm working on


Difficult
Being difficult is a part of who I am, and I'm learning to accept and embrace it




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Gracie Abrams, Aaron Desner

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@codyseelye8352

My double vision
Is only amplifying everything he isn't
'Til I feel less attached and bored to death, but listen
It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition
And I've been thinkin' if I move out this year
I'll feel my parents slipping
Away and also I'm just scared of that commitment
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult
To name this feeling
Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving
But over what I never had, so I've been speaking
To my therapist, I call her every weekend
I meant to tell you
How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?
Was it something that I said that colored you blue?
Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
Difficult (I)
Difficult
I've been drinking
And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
Oh, I know spiraling is miserable
I should probably go back home
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
Oh, I hope I wake up invisible
I'd be someone no one knows
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult



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@caleya9523

“I hope I wake up invisible,I’d be someone no one knows” real.

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Same. Can relate to this song so much 😓

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This whole album is a masterpiece but this song is my fav so far!

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I DONT KNOW HOW A SONG THIS AMAZING COULD BE SO UNDERRATED

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those who are going to go through this listen and deny
those who have already gone through this listen and miss

@gion1888

Her smile is so contagious every time she smiles at the camera i smile with her

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