Grammatrain is a grunge rock band from Seattle, Washington from the mid 199… Read Full Bio ↴Grammatrain is a grunge rock band from Seattle, Washington from the mid 1990s. Their sound was heavily influenced by bands such as Soundgarden, Nirvana, Metallica, Pearl Jam, and Led Zeppelin, yet it was still distinctive in its own right, and certainly unique among bands marketed to Christians. The band recorded a self-titled demo containing mostly live acoustic numbers in 1994. After signing with Christian label Forefront Records, they quickly followed with their first studio album, Lonely House. Their second full length album, Flying, came in 1997. Around the same time, guitarist/vocalist Pete Stewart was contributing guitar tracks to dc Talk's Supernatural album. As touring was taking its toll on the lives of the band members, they broke up following their final live performance on 12/7/1998 in Germany, documented on the album aptly titled, Live 120798. Following the breakup of the band, Stewart released a self-titled solo album, and joined Michael Tait's band Tait, performing on their first album. He also played guitar on the first album for TobyMac. After this, he seemed to disappear for awhile, resurfacing with the new project The Accident Experiment in 2003; at this point, Stewart appeared to be questioning (or had outright rejected) his Christian faith, much like bandmate Marcos Curiel (who had left the band P.O.D., although he has since rejoined P.O.D.). Dalton Roraback has moved on to work in the I.T. industry and raising a family. He spends most of his time with wife, two sons, and posting on a small but popular website where he argues politics under the name Skinnyrumcakes.

Need
Grammatrain Lyrics

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Ooh, no more monsters to live in my head
And I'm blind to frustration in life beyond the dead
And I wait for the time that I see in my mind, now
And I awake from my eternal dream
And my humanity has died...
Ooh, what sleep is I know I never knew
And all my tears that used to drench me
Have faded into blue

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Grammatrain's song Need talks about the battle of overcoming inner demons, and how the singer has won that fight. The first line, "Ooh, no more monsters to live in my head" refers to the internal struggles that the singer has been fighting. These monsters can be interpreted as negative thoughts, self-doubt, or even fears of the unknown. Winning the battle against these inner demons, the singer is now free from their grip.

The next line, "And I'm blind to frustration in life beyond the dead" refers to the idea that once we overcome our inner demons, we can see life with a much clearer perspective. Frustrations that seemed overwhelming before may now appear trivial. The singer has reached a place where they're no longer confined by their mind, and they can now see beyond the limitations.

The chorus, "And I wait for the time that I see in my mind, now. And I awake from my eternal dream. And my humanity has died" is a reflection of the singer's journey towards self-discovery. They've been dreaming of a life where they're free from the monsters that once haunted them. The awakening signifies that the dream has become a reality. The final line, "And my humanity has died," is a realization that the singer no longer hangs onto the limitations of being human. They've transcended to a higher level of understanding.

Line by Line Meaning

Ooh, no more monsters to live in my head
I have finally gotten rid of the negative thoughts that used to control me and make me feel like I had monsters in my mind.

And I'm blind to frustration in life beyond the dead
I am unable to feel the frustration and pain that comes with living life, even beyond the point of death.

And I wait for the time that I see in my mind, now
I am waiting for the moment that I have been visualizing in my mind to come true.

And I awake from my eternal dream
I have finally woken up from a long-lasting dream that seemed like it was never going to end.

And my humanity has died...
I have lost the essence of being human and all that it represents.

Ooh, what sleep is I know I never knew
I didn't know what it was like to have peaceful sleep until I experienced it for the first time.

And all my tears that used to drench me
The sadness that used to overwhelm me and make me cry has faded away.

Have faded into blue
The pain and sadness that used to consume me have disappeared and been replaced with a sense of calmness and tranquility.

Lyrics © CAPITOL CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROUP, Capitol CMG Publishing

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

TheOldGuyPhil

Grammatrain - Need
I wear a face that seems to be
The image of maturity
The only eyes that see in me
Know my desperality

And I'm a man that’s found his way
By having not a lot to say
I wanna tell You that I need You

I know Your anything they see
An image of maturity
But if I was what I should be
Wouldn't I be on my knees?

And I'm a man that’s found his way
By having not a lot to say
I wanna tell You that I need You
And when I fall into Your hand
I see myself for what I am
It only shows me that I need You

I try so had to understand

All comments from YouTube:

Eliel Siqueira

7y↑3

Ouço essa banda a mais de 15 anos ou mais..Need é a minha música preferida! God Bless!

PrimitiveKat

13y

This cd has been playing in my car for days! Love their ballads!

Andres Huequelef

14y

Muy buena canción!!!!!

Yrrbnlylsw

14y↑1

Even their slower songs are incredible

1Peter47

14y

one of the best songs ever

Jhonatan Henrique Lopes Alves

14y↑5

My favorite part is from 0:00 until 6:39

Gary Eduardo Sanchez Osorio

Me too

Steven Bradley

Love the "stankface" at 4:30! I've loved this song since it came out.

Juno Fraga

I'm from Brazil, and I loved this performance, it doesn't here! beautifull letter! We need the Lord everydays!

Cheetah Thunders.

9y↑3

one of my favorite GT songs. I consider the Pete solo song "i don't need you" to be a sequel. AWESOME song if you never heard it... can't find it on YT (2018 update- it is on YT now). the mirror image of this- whereas this is "i need You but i have angst about that" ("i try so hard to understand"), the newer tune is "i don't need You but i also have angst about that" ("tell me what i'm supposed to do"). But that raises the question of him doing these older tunes since he's now, what, agnostic? I have absolutely nothing against them doing anything, but, it's at least.. weird no?

I am Christian, but a hopeless underground rock addict. so i can't listen to CCM. sometimes I try to,
but it usually grates on me quick. back in the day GT were a revelation. pete's obvious angst was completely relateable. when he retroverted, i was like "really sucks, but kinda figures". mike herrera from mxpx is another one. although that band plays upbeat music they were the rare Christian band I enjoyed, now he's out of the fold too. maybe Christianity and authentic rock can't mix :P

Robert Bondurant

@Rocinonte you definitely made the right choice! Family always should come first. I believe when you have kids it stops being about you, and what you want, and becomes about what they need. I think I'm you end you realize being with your family IS what you want. It's hard to balance a 9to5 and kids..I imagine it is almost impossible being in a band.
I'm the opposite...I play very little(not gifted)... but I like to write. I like the feeling that I created something.. plus sometimes it's like therapy.
That's one thing I like about a three piece, gives everyone space to do their own thing. I love it when you can actually hear the bassline cutting through. I'm going to have to go back and listen to the bass again to see what you mean..I forget.. who produced and mixed imperium?
I thought it should have received some love from radio... but I guess they push what they want. These days it doesn't seem to be about the quality...I guess good songs aren't enough.

Rocinonte

@Robert Bondurant Thanks for the kind words brother.

The truth behind the breakup (which isn't very well known) was that I left the band to try to salvage my marriage. I felt that if I chose my band over my marriage I would start down the slippery slope of selling out my faith for opportunity to live the dream. I'd rather walk in God's will than have worldly success. Sadly the marriage ended anyway but many years later and after my two amazing sons were born, so I would have missed out on meeting them had I chosen otherwise.

I wrote a smattering of lyrics but that isn't my skillset, so I left that to the other guys :)

I really enjoyed Imperium, although I am really upset at the mastering that was done. The bass cuts out in some songs but we were in a rush and didn't QA it enough.

Robert Bondurant

@Rocinonte Well if you want to be heard by anyone you have to sell it at some point. But I don't look at it as making money... its financing what you want to do, so you can continue to do that and not have to do stuff that you don't want to do. I've never understood the notion of people saying that their favorite band sold out. Selling out to me is not making money, it's changing your vision for money. I think any band that finds a way to make their art, and not be controlled is lucky. I understand why a lot of these newer groups take the route they do. They want to stay in the game....but at what cost? Most of the bands I end up liking don't have success. I love it for me because I believe that they are true artists. Thats selfish of me. But I hate it for them because most of the time it's hard for them to continue to make music. When I listen to grammatrain records and other bands that I like that don't have the success that I believe they deserve... it always amazes me that other people haven't discovered them like I have. Then I start questioning My taste in music and wondering is something wrong with it...lol. But then again I look at what's popular on the charts right now and I think my taste is not so bad. I think you and your brother are a damn good rhythm section and I don't know if you all wrote the lyrics or not, but I really identified with lot of stuff you guys wrote. I heard flying 1st back in the day went back and discovered lonely house... I hated it when you guys went on hiatus as I couldn't wait to hear more.. but, Imperium was worth the wait.. thought it was great

Rocinonte

@Robert Bondurant Thanks Robert, much appreciated! (I am Dalton the bass player fyi). We did ask a lot of questions and bucked the system somewhat...remember this was in the mid-90s and we were the first band like us on a major label. Many of the bands we liked were on Tooth and Nail and other indie labels. Honestly...Forefront had no idea what to do with us because we refused to let them tell us how to dress, what to say, etc.

The Christian music scene back then was about profit...but there were MANY good people who deeply cared about the message and bringing people to Christ as well. None of us are perfect, and I am just as hypocritical as everyone else. Didn't I sell my music for profit too? It's a hard line to identify sometimes ya know?

Robert Bondurant

4y↑1

@Cheetah Thunders. yeah, it is kinda just editing to a beat..the good ones usually write themselves...when it's flowing...i just have to write them down. I write to a melody in my head..the hard part is matching the melody to the lyric..good musicians can...unfortunately that's not me yet...I'd love to be as musical as Mccartney...but ...lol

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edwinmusic

10y

Great Song!

animusolus

13y

utterly. epic.

TheOldGuyPhil

Eric Wells

4y↑1

i was very surprised to see them do this song due to Pete's current stance on faith/religion. Such a great song though. Still captures the heart and soul

Wilson Wolverine

we love you brothers, from brazil

Greg Grisham

I looked up GRAMMATRAIN and I found CHIEF PRIESTS

Dolce Dolente

I wonder how many cycles of "Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica Pete was listening to when he wrote this. chuckles

Eric Wells

is he forgetting his own lyrics in the beginning?

I wear a face that seems to be
Confidentiality
The only eyes that see in me
Know my desperality

Rocinonte

Also, desperality is not a real word lol. It worked anyway

Rocinonte

Yup. What you don't see is when we started this song the first time it happened there too. He stopped the song and explained he got the lyrics wrong and we started the song again, only for him to do it twice. Hey man, it had been 10 years for us! :)

elojos7

It's great song, someone it's have a lirics than song, please

Eric Wells

https://genius.com/Grammatrain-need-lyrics

Austin Jones

I tried so hard to understand

apathyinsmalltowns

13y↑1

I read he finally found his way and shed christianity. Congratulations Pete!

jaychatz

Why congratulate his lost faith? Even if you're a pagan, you should realize he wrote his best stuff when motivated and influenced by his faith in Jesus. As a nothing but a music fan, you should rethink that. I will pray for Pete and for you as well my friend.

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