Re: Stacks
Gretta Ray Lyrics

This my excavation and to–
This is my exploration and at this moment, I feel like I'm in Kumran.

–day is Kumran
Today feels like I am in Kumran, the site of the famous Dead Sea Scrolls.

Everything that happens is from now on
I am living in the present moment, where everything that happens is new and unfolding now.

This is pouring rain, this is paralysed
The rain is falling heavily and I am frozen in place, unable to move or act.

I keep throwing it down two
I keep letting go of things that weigh me down and hold me back in my life, letting them fall away bit by bit.

Hundred at a time
I am making progress in small increments, letting go of just a few things at a time.

It's hard to find it when you knew it
Sometimes it can be difficult to rediscover something that you once knew well, but have since lost sight of or forgotten.

When your money's gone and you're drunk as hell
When you're broke and not feeling your best, it can be overwhelming and challenging to find your way forward.

On your back with the racks as the stacks of your load
Sometimes you might feel like you're carrying a heavy burden, with the weight of your challenges and responsibilities resting heavily on your shoulders.

In the back with the racks and the stacks are your load
The burdens you carry are piled up behind you, accompanying you wherever you go and making it difficult to move freely.

In the back with the racks and you're unstacking your load
Bit by bit, however, you are working to release the burden you carry by carefully unstacking it and letting go of each weight that you have been carrying for so long.

I've been twisting to the sun
I have been working hard to move towards the light and find hope and positivity, even amidst dark and challenging times.

I needed to replace
I had to let go of what was no longer serving me and replace it with something new, something better.

And the fountain in the front yard is rusted out
Even things that once brought me joy and light are now worn down and in need of repair or renewal.

All my love was down in a frozen ground
In the past, my ability to love and feel deeply was frozen, trapped by fear or doubt or trauma.

There's a black crow sitting across from me
I am confronted by dark and sinister elements that challenge me and make me feel small.

His wiry legs are crossed
The crow is mocking my struggle and showing me its power and control over me.

He's dangling my keys, he even fakes a toss
The crow is teasing me, playing with my vulnerabilities and dangling the keys to my life in front of me but never truly letting me grab them.

Whatever could it be that has brought me to this loss?
I am confused and uncertain about how I got to this point of pain and difficulty, and wonder what forces or actions led me down this path.

This is not the sound of a new man
I am not transformed or reborn, but I am changing and growing nonetheless.

Or a crispy realisation
I have not had a sudden epiphany or breakthrough, but I am beginning to understand myself and my world in new, clearer ways.

It's the sound of me unlocking and you lift away
I am beginning to free myself from the burdens and challenges that once held me back and make progress towards a more fulfilling life.

Your love will be safe with me
Although I am moving past pain and difficulty, I will always hold onto the love and support of those who care for me and help me through my struggles.