Kidding Me
Grieves Lyrics

Last time I wrote a song like this I was drunk off the last words out of your lips
The last time I expressed my feelings through music was when I was intoxicated by what you last said to me

And what a world
What an experience that was

You were always looking for attention,
You had an insatiable desire to be noticed

I was holding on to my abandonment obsession
I had a persistent fear of being left behind

In hindsight I was just as ignorant as you were,
Looking back, I realize that I was just as clueless as you were

Blinded by the 'you' word combined by the sutures
I was deceived by the power of the word 'you,' which held us together despite our flaws

Good-bye to the cruel world, you had to be out,
I had to say goodbye to the unforgiving world that we created

And I caught you with another dudes in your mouth
I witnessed you cheating on me with another man

Goddamn little lady, how'd you get so cold?
I can't believe how heartless and distant you've become

How'd life teach you all the little tricks you pulled on me?
Where did you learn all the manipulative tactics you used on me?

Hopelessly passionate, openly act as if everything is all my fault – no sacrifice
Despite my hopeless love for you, you constantly blamed me for everything without giving up anything yourself

Nah, I should've seen it from the start, you're bed-dress laying on the floor in the dark
I should have noticed the red flags from the beginning, like your messy bed and clothes on the floor

You were everything I wanted but nothing that I needed
You had all the qualities I desired, but none of the ones I truly needed

My sexy little piece of shit demon, leaving
You were my irresistible but toxic partner who is now gone

I used to say that I loved you
I used to proclaim my love for you

I used to act like a fool
I used to behave irrationally and foolishly because of my infatuation with you

But now I hear that you're wondering, if the girl I run with Is treating me cool
But now I hear that you're curious if my current partner is treating me well

You fucking gotta be kidding me, look at all that you did to me
You must be joking to ask such a question, considering all the harm you caused me

Why the hell would you be wondering who's kissing me now?
Why would you care who's with me now, after everything you did?

Last time I had a thought like this I was locked in my room with a bottle in my fist
The last time I had similar thoughts, I was alone in my room with a bottle of alcohol in my hand

I was trying to pick apart the pieces, even moved to Cali with you, living by the beaches
I was attempting to understand what went wrong, even relocating to California with you to live by the beach

Egregious, Made a dude want to find Jesus, huddled in bunker with nothing but canned peaches
It was a terrible situation that made me feel like I needed divine intervention, holed up in a bunker with only canned food

If I was a weaker man I would've broke down,
If I were less resilient, I would have crumbled under the weight of the situation

The second I caught you getting your sex around town
As soon as I discovered you were sleeping around with others

God-damn, what a hell of a ride, Cinderella got drunk and started spreading her thighs
What a tumultuous relationship it was, like a drunken Cinderella opening herself up to anyone

The fairy tale's over, after telling me lies Became a rock in the belly of the reason we fight
The fairytale romance has ended, after you lied to me and created a continuous source of conflict

Yeah, I should've seen it from the jump, I should've shut the door on your face and called you a
I should have recognized the warning signs from the beginning and rejected you from my life

Everything I wanted, but nothing that I needed
You seemed like the ideal partner, but you lacked the essential qualities I required

My sexy little piece of shit creampie, biatch
You were my alluring, yet undesirable ex-partner