Recluse
Grieves Lyrics

Yeah, I pushed the boat out, I'm floating on faith
I took a risk and now I'm relying on my belief to keep me afloat.

Got a I-don't-give-a-shit look stuck on my face
I'm trying to project a sense of indifference towards everything.

I guess that I've become a product of the castle gates
My upbringing has shaped me into someone who is guarded and keeps to themselves.

Dug a moat around my heart and filled it up with hate
I have isolated myself emotionally and filled that void with negative emotions.

I went and poured it on the rocks with my last album
I expressed these emotions in my last album.

So thick that a normal person would pass out from
It was so heavy and intense that it might be overwhelming.

Now something of which I used to confide in
Something that I used to find comfort in.

Got me sittin in silence, propping open my eyelids
Now it leaves me feeling empty and unable to sleep.

Stupid, I just want to listen to the music
I just want to zone out and listen to the music.

Fade in to the background and drink until the rooms spinnin'
I want to blend in and drink to the point where everything is blurry.

So move some, there ain't nothing left to see here
There's nothing interesting to observe here, so move along.

The only words I'm a pay attention to are 'free beer'
The only thing that interests me now is free alcohol.

So leave me here like a cricket in a matchbox
Just abandon me like something insignificant.

Cash in my good luck and spend it on a padlock
I'm going to take my luck and use it to lock myself away.

The bad thoughts and the whiskey are better company than bullshit
I'd rather be alone with my negative thoughts and whiskey than be around fake people.

So just leave it and go
Just forget about me and leave me alone.

I don't want to go outside today
I don't want to face the world today.

No, I want to be left alone
I want to be alone and not deal with anyone.

I don't want to put the mask on my face
I don't want to pretend to be someone I'm not.

Didn't hear a goddamn word you said
I didn't listen to anything you said.

Go home
Just leave me alone and go away.

I hit the still water; coasting on hope
I'm trying to stay positive and hope for the best even in calm waters.

Got a bunch of little daggers tattooed on my throat (ouch)
I have markings that symbolize my readiness to face verbal attacks.

What's the point of making friends when you grew up
Why bother making friends if your past made you cynical towards people.

With a devil and couple of pretend ones
With people who turned out to be fake and only pretended to be there for me.

I guess that I don't know the difference when it comes to space
I don't know how to differentiate between wanting to be alone and being lonely.

You're either leaving me alone or all up in my face
It's either one extreme or the other, there's no in-between.

And lately, with the way that things are going
Recently, things haven't been going well for me.

I don't taste the sugar in your words for me to give a shit about what you say
Your compliments and praise mean nothing to me because I feel empty inside.

Yup, I'm crazy and irrational
Yes, I admit that I may be acting irrationally and unpredictably.

Always tell the truth so that you can call me 'asshole'
I'm honest to a fault and that honesty may come across as rude or offensive.

I prefer the black hole over the sun
I find comfort in darkness rather than light.

Plant a seed up in the sound garden; watered with rum
I'm trying to create something meaningful through music and alcohol.

It's not the same when you're looking through the frame of a broken heart
When your heart is broken, you don't see the world in the same way.

The smoke blinds but also helps you look the part
The alcohol and drugs may cloud my vision but it also helps me fit in with the crowd.

So you can knock it 'til your knuckles get scars
You can criticize me all you want, it won't affect me.

I suggest you leave it and go
It's best for you to just forget about me and leave me be.