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Grimes (4) Lyrics

Dirt on your fingernails, blood on your knees
You've been through some tough times, maybe even some physically demanding or dangerous situations.

But did that ever make you happy?
Despite the struggles you've faced, it's unclear whether those experiences truly brought you joy or satisfaction.

I think you were my best friend, gentle, do not apprehend
I remember you as someone kind and close to me, please don't take what I'm about to say as an attack.

I know it hasn't been a dream, but if you pardon, I will mend
I'm aware that the past isn't going to change, but if you can forgive me for my role in whatever happened, maybe we can move forward and repair our relationship.

Drunk in a parking lot, just after three
We were both drinking at this place and time.

Tearin' out your hair like a banshee
You were acting really wild and emotional, like a banshee wailing and pulling out your hair.

Lighter and a safety pin, light the end, burn to skin
We were experimenting with self-harm, burning ourselves with a heated safety pin.

I'll stick to you forever, 'cause this scar, I think is permanent
Our bond goes beyond just that moment; the scars we inflicted on each other (mentally or physically) are lasting reminders of our connection.

Bite off your fingernails, cut off your skin
You were doing something self-destructive or compulsive, like biting your nails or self-harming in another way.

Tell me that it didn't happen
You're denying something that clearly happened, trying to forget or brush it off.

Running through the dark woods, falling, couldn't see straight
You were running through some dangerous or unfamiliar place, maybe feeling lost and disoriented.

I was only looking for a human to reciprocate
I was seeking someone who could understand me and empathize with what I was going through, maybe because I felt alone or misunderstood.

Baby it's a black hole, I need it to breathe
This thing we're doing, whether it's self-harm, addiction, or some other harmful behavior, feels all-consuming and necessary to me. It's like a black hole I can't escape from.

But does it really make you happy?
Again, even though this behavior has become ingrained in our lives, we have to question whether it's really bringing us any lasting fulfillment or satisfaction.

Kiss me with a big knife, bloody heart of paradise
We're engaging in some twisted, violent act of love or passion, perhaps even fetishizing or romanticizing the pain we inflict on each other.

Led him like a soldier, peace of mind, must be nice
Someone is acting like they're in control, leading others down a dangerous path. Meanwhile, those who are following are seeking some kind of comfort or escape from their problems.

Thought I had won, I thought I won til I lost
At some point I thought I was succeeding, getting better, or beating an addiction/struggle, but eventually I saw that I was losing.

I, fixing my fall, but for what cost?
I'm trying to pick myself up and improve my situation, but it's taking a serious toll on me.

And I see your reflection when I look in mine
When I see myself, I see traits or aspects of you reflected back at me, perhaps in a negative or distressing way.

And I say, I say (I say)
I'm repeating this statement, emphasizing its importance or desperation.

Baby, don’t look away
I'm pleading with you to pay attention to me and what I'm going through. Don't turn a blind eye to my struggles.

Falling off the edge with you, ahh ooh ooh ooh
We're both in this together, on the brink of something dangerous or destructive.

It was too good to be true
Despite the allure of whatever we're engaging in, it's not healthy or sustainable, and our downfall is inevitable.

Ooh, falling off the edge with you
We're both experiencing this sort of intoxicating, dangerous rush together.