demons in my orbit
Guardin Lyrics

They keep telling me to love myself
People keep telling me to have a positive self-image, but how can I do that when I don't even know who I am?

How the fuck do you love yourself
The singer is frustrated and doesn't know how to love themselves.

When you don't even know
The singer feels lost and doesn't know who they are anymore.

Who the fuck you are anymore?
The singer is struggling to find their identity.

Like you feel like you're reaching your breaking point
The singer is on the verge of a breakdown.

Every fucking day and it's just
The feeling of being overwhelmed is a daily struggle for the singer.

It's hard, man
The singer is expressing how difficult the situation is for them.

Lost in my head, lost in my mind
The singer is struggling with their thoughts and emotions, feeling like they are stuck in their head.

Telling myself that I'll be just fine
Even though things are hard right now, the singer is trying to stay positive and believe that things will get better.

Nothing's okay, nothing's alright
Despite trying to stay positive, the singer still feels overwhelmed and like nothing is going right.

Smoking all day, crying all night
The singer is trying to find ways to cope with their pain, through smoking and crying.

And what the fuck you expect from the kid
The singer is asking what people expect from them, given how difficult their situation is.

I got demons in my orbit that I'm tryin' to rid
The singer is dealing with inner demons that seem to be constantly present.

Of all the shit that I deal with, I act on a whim
The singer struggles to control their actions, reacting impulsively due to the overwhelming emotions they are dealing with.

I'm like a fish outta water trying to swim
The singer feels like they are struggling to navigate and cope with their situation.

The fucking voice inside my head is driving me insane
The singer's thoughts and negative self-talk are causing them distress and making things worse.

Silence kills me, lately it just hasn't been the same
The singer is struggling with the quiet and isolation, feeling like things have changed recently.

Bedroom dweller, I'm feelin' so fucking stellar
The singer spends a lot of time alone in their room, but sometimes feels good about themselves despite their struggles.

When I empty my clip into the chest of the teller
The singer feels a sense of release and control when they have violent thoughts.

Killed the man inside of me that's been lane switchin' better
The singer feels like they have lost a part of themselves, and no longer feel like they are in control of their life.

Grab the 9, grip the trigger, this my suicide letter
The singer is contemplating suicide, and has written this song as a suicide note.

They don't wanna talk, they don't wanna feel, The voices in my head saying, I don't think I'm real
The singer is feeling alone and overwhelmed due to the negative thoughts and self-talk in their head, which make them feel like they aren't real.

I don't think I'm real, I don't think I'm real, I don't think I'm real, I don't think I'm
The singer's thoughts and doubts repeat in their head, making it hard to escape their negative feelings.