Virus
Gurldoll Lyrics

I don't really know what it feels like
The singer is admitting that they don't understand how it feels to be mentally unwell.

But I wanna know what it feels like
The singer is expressing a desire to understand what it feels like to be mentally unwell.

This shit's fucked up, still get fucked up
The singer recognizes that their situation is messed up, but they still continue to engage in harmful behaviors.

I'm so fucked up every day
The singer is describing how they feel mentally unwell on a daily basis.

Scrapin' up my knees on the pavement
The singer is using physical harm as a coping mechanism for their mental state.

Falling over, wasted
The singer is describing how they feel drunk or high, to the point of losing balance.

Don't know what I said, it's amazing
The singer is acknowledging that they say things in their intoxicated state that they wouldn't normally say.

Living like this, constant crisis
The singer is describing their life as being in a constant state of crisis due to their mental state and the harmful behaviors they engage in.

Wipe my eyes, yeah, I can't see shit
The singer is describing the blurry vision that comes with being intoxicated.

My friends had to call my mom
The singer's friends were worried about their mental state and called their mother as a last resort to check on their well-being.

To make sure that I wasn't dead
The singer's friends were afraid that something bad had happened to the singer.

My dad cried his eyes out to me
The singer's father is emotional and upset about the singer's mental state and the dangerous behaviors they engage in.

Asking why I live like this
The singer's father is questioning why their child chooses to live in such a dangerous way.

I don't have solutions, execution
The singer doesn't have solutions to their problems, but they are willing to take extreme measures like ending their own life.

Throw my life away
The singer is considering ending their own life due to the pain they are experiencing.

Exit life, I'm fucking sorry
The singer is apologizing for considering ending their own life.

For all of the things I say
The singer is apologizing for the things they say to others while in a harmful state of mind.

Empty promises, I'm hollow
The singer is recognizing that they make promises they cannot keep, and they feel empty and shallow inside.

I might never see tomorrow
The singer is considering the possibility that they may not survive the pain they are currently experiencing.

I'm sorry for all the sorrow
The singer is apologizing for the pain their loved ones are experiencing due to the singer's mental state and harmful behaviors.

I don't wanna see tomorrow
The singer has so much pain that they don't want to face another day.

Bottle give it a kiss
The singer is using alcohol as a coping mechanism for their mental pain.

I swear that I'm really trying my best
The singer is trying their best to overcome their mental pain but is struggling to do so.

Give it a rest, everyone's stressed
The singer is telling people to stop adding to the stress and to give everyone a break.

I'm a virus
The singer is comparing themselves to a virus, spreading pain and harm to those around them.

A fucking virus
The singer is emphasizing that they are causing harm to those around them.