Bluebird
HÔTEL COSTES 9 ONE SELF Lyrics

When I walked up all you caught was the shade of my hat on my face
As I approached, all you saw was the brim of my hat, shielding my face from view.

My ways are in pain, from the strain of my ways
My choices and actions have caused me to suffer and feel anguish.

Chains engraved in my physical days, in physical waves
The burdens I bear are etched into my daily existence, like waves crashing down on me.

I get physical strength from my individual ways
Despite the pain, my unique path has given me the resilience to keep going.

Meanwhile I'm not fulfilled, this feeling shall not be stilled
Despite my strength, I still feel a deep sense of dissatisfaction that I cannot ignore.

Rewind time and rewrite lines for the kinds of you to feel
I wish I could go back and change the past, to make things better for everyone involved.

Docile if you so will, fragile and you go downhill
If you choose to be submissive and weak, then you will not be able to withstand life's challenges.

Drinking wine, forgetting time, now time to be refilled
Indulging in alcohol and distraction is only a temporary escape from the difficulties of life.

They say if you snooze you loose
The old saying implies that if you are not vigilant, you will miss opportunities and fall behind.

Well I spend my days, dazed and confused
Despite my efforts, I often feel lost and uncertain about what to do next.

Is it cause I blaze all day and fade, then that's old news
Perhaps my reliance on drugs has caused me to become numb and unresponsive to the world around me.

If it's new to you, this is Yarah rapping the blues
This is a song of lament, delivered by Yarah, expressing deep emotions of sadness and despair.

Don't get used to it, running mascara I refuse
I refuse to become accustomed to sadness and to let it wear me down to the point of tears.

Closed doors prevent outsiders from viewing
I keep my struggles hidden from others, not wanting anyone to see or know about my pain.

But struggling alone makes it tough for pursuing
Although I try to keep my struggles to myself, doing so can make it even harder to overcome them.

Dreams, but it seems all I get are sleepless nights
Despite my hopes and aspirations, I am plagued by insomnia and an inability to escape my worries.

Nightmares about losing loved ones and losing fights
My fears and anxieties manifest in dreams of losing those closest to me or failing in battles.

The bluebird flew over the fields of sorrow
The bluebird symbolizes a fleeting moment of beauty and hope amidst the surrounding pain and sadness.

As I left the scene and the dream watching the souls wallow
As I move on from my struggles, I observe others still grappling with their own pain and despair.

Left you for more, left the room hollow
Leaving behind the things that once brought comfort or joy has left me feeling empty and hollow inside.

Many will fall, a lot more will follow
Many people will succumb to their struggles, but even more will continue to grapple with their own burdens.

You take drugs to psyche your mind
Turning to drugs is a way to alter one's mental state and cope with difficult emotions.

You take wine, to forget about time
Drinking alcohol is a way to escape from the pressures of time and live in the moment (even if only temporarily).

You create a world of your own
By escaping into one's own mind or altered state, one creates a separate reality that can provide relief or escape.

Where the truth, will never be known
However, this alternate reality is based on illusions and cannot offer real solutions or answers to life's challenges.

I work when the work seems like play
When work feels effortless and enjoyable, I am able to devote myself fully to it and excel.

And hate to play when the work seems to work my way, I say
But when work becomes mundane or taxing, I find myself struggling and feeling frustrated with the drudgery of it all.

I work my way through everyday that I play my way
Regardless of the difficulty, I persevere and push through each day with my own unique approach and style.

Makes it all seem hopeless like impending cancellations
Despite my resilience, there are moments when everything seems bleak and hopeless, like everything is coming to an end.

The locks will open someday continued determination
But even in these moments, I hold onto the hope that things will eventually improve and persist with my unwavering resolve.

Restless infection destroys spiritual vaccinations
A sense of restlessness or dissatisfaction can erode one's sense of purpose and direction, damaging one's ability to find spiritual fulfillment.

And I will head for my destination
Despite the setbacks and challenges, I remain focused on my ultimate goal or destination in life.

I stand alone at the crossroads of death inhale the breath
In moments of crisis or despair, I feel isolated and alone, grappling with thoughts of mortality and the fragility of life.

Of lost souls that left in and out of consciousness
The souls of those who have passed away or lost their way in life exist in a state of limbo, caught between wakefulness and unconsciousness.

Drinking wine reminds me of what honest is
Indulging in alcohol helps me to feel more honest or truthful about my own emotions and experiences.

Making me wonder where the hell the logic is?
However, this honesty also forces me to confront the irrationality and illogic of some of my actions and decisions.

We're all lost, we're all tossed, at a lost cause
Regardless of our individual struggles or paths, we are all ultimately lost and aimless, drifting through life without a clear sense of purpose.

Fight between ourselves, relieve ourselves, and then we all fall
Our struggles often pit us against one another, causing further division and pain, until we ultimately all fall together.

Through the wall, through it all, who we are?
Despite our struggles and differences, we are all fundamentally the same, trying to navigate life's challenges as best we can.

No denying that at 5 foot I still stand tall
Despite my struggles and weaknesses, I remain resilient and determined, standing tall in the face of adversity.