Borderline
H.U.G.E Lyrics

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J'ai pas d'talent, j'suis un virtuose
Mais c'est clair, j'suis pas comme d'autres
Dans mes temps libres, j'fais des rituals
J'allume cinq black candles
Pas l'Nintendo
J'performe une danse
Surplus de conscience
Sri Aurobindo frôlerait l'overdose

Fuck prendre une pause, là, j'suis tanné d'être pauvre
J'suis tout le temps dispo
J'fais d'grands discours
Ghostwrite Obispo
Les gens m'disent cool, j'suis pt'être juste dope
C'est pas dur de nous distinguer, Frères d'âme
Ya des chances qu'on vire fou t'inquiète
Sainte-Anne, nous protège d'la démence infâme
Moi ya seulement les drogues qui m'empêchent d'être down
Assis dans un pentagramme, avec un pied dans l'crime
Ramène-moi de quoi de fort
J'fumerais pas du pot à graine
J'monte en grade
Fait toi pas d'à croire
La c'est marche ou crève
Pis, c'est chacun pour soi, tous sur les plus faibles
Juste pour être sûr d'avoir une place dans l'buffet
Ils seront tous bluffés, bande de boufons
Bientôt, c'est tous entre eux qu'ils vont s'bouffer
J'suis avisé
Ya des forces qui sont invisibles
Moi, j'essaye d'les canaliser, j'tente de t'ouvrir les yeux
Boy t'es scandalisé
Bienvenue chez Eleusis
C'est l'666
Crew de mystiques
We fresh as fuck pour les bitches, vicious

We just witches, et fier de l'être
Mais qu'est-ce qu'il y a, oui 'suis borderline

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to H.U.G.E's song Borderline are complex and layered, blending personal struggles with references to esoteric practices and spirituality. The opening lyrics introduce the artist as someone who may not have a natural talent for music but is a virtuoso nonetheless, defining themselves as different from others. In their free time, they engage in rituals, lighting black candles and performing a dance that draws on their heightened consciousness. There's a suggestion that even Sri Aurobindo, a famous spiritual leader, would be overwhelmed by their intensity.

The song continues to touch on themes of poverty, power, and greed. H.U.G.E contrasts their availability to others - always there to deliver speeches, ghostwrite for famous musicians like Pascal Obispo, and be a generally "cool" person - with their own struggle to be financially stable. They refer to themselves and their "Frères d'âme" (brothers in arms) as likely to go mad in the face of societal pressures, relying on drugs to keep them going. The artist's worldview is grim, believing that it's every person for themselves and that the weak will always be sacrificed, but they remain vigilant, hoping to channel invisible forces and open the eyes of others. In the end, they assert that they are borderline, hinting at a sense of unease and instability that undercuts their confidence.

Line by Line Meaning

J'ai pas d'talent, j'suis un virtuose
I may not have talent, but I'm a virtuoso nonetheless.

Mais c'est clair, j'suis pas comme d'autres
I stand out from the crowd; I'm not like everyone else.

Dans mes temps libres, j'fais des rituals
When I have free time, I perform rituals.

J'allume cinq black candles
I light five black candles.

Pas l'Nintendo
But not playing Nintendo.

J'performe une danse
I perform a dance.

Surplus de conscience
Overflowing with consciousness.

Sri Aurobindo frôlerait l'overdose
Sri Aurobindo would overdose from my level of consciousness.

Fuck prendre une pause, là, j'suis tanné d'être pauvre
Forget taking a break, I'm tired of being poor.

J'suis tout le temps dispo
I'm always available.

J'fais d'grands discours
I make grand speeches.

Ghostwrite Obispo
I ghostwrite for Obispo.

Les gens m'disent cool, j'suis pt'être juste dope
People say I'm cool, but I may just be dope.

C'est pas dur de nous distinguer, Frères d'âme
It's not hard to tell us apart; we're soul brothers.

Ya des chances qu'on vire fou t'inquiète
We may go crazy, but don't worry.

Sainte-Anne, nous protège d'la démence infâme
Saint Anne protects us from infamous insanity.

Moi ya seulement les drogues qui m'empêchent d'être down
Only drugs prevent me from feeling down.

Assis dans un pentagramme, avec un pied dans l'crime
Sitting in a pentagram, with one foot in the crime world.

Ramène-moi de quoi de fort
Bring me something strong.

J'fumerais pas du pot à graine
I won't smoke any weak weed.

J'monte en grade
I'm moving up in rank.

Fait toi pas d'à croire
Don't fool yourself.

La c'est marche ou crève
It's either succeed or die trying.

Pis, c'est chacun pour soi, tous sur les plus faibles
And it's every man for himself, preying on the weak.

Juste pour être sûr d'avoir une place dans l'buffet
Just to ensure I have a seat at the table.

Ils seront tous bluffés, bande de boufons
They will all be impressed, you bunch of idiots.

Bientôt, c'est tous entre eux qu'ils vont s'bouffer
Soon, they'll all turn on each other and devour themselves.

J'suis avisé
I'm wise.

Ya des forces qui sont invisibles
There are invisible forces at work.

Moi, j'essaye d'les canaliser, j'tente de t'ouvrir les yeux
I try to channel these forces and open your eyes.

Boy t'es scandalisé
Boy, you're scandalized.

Bienvenue chez Eleusis
Welcome to Eleusis.

C'est l'666
This is the 666.

Crew de mystiques
A crew of mystics.

We fresh as fuck pour les bitches, vicious
Looking fresh as hell for the ladies, vicious out here.

We just witches, et fier de l'être
We're just witches, and proud of it.

Mais qu'est-ce qu'il y a, oui 'suis borderline
But what's the big deal? Yes, I'm borderline.

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Written by: H3RMXS TRISMEGISTUS

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Comments from YouTube:

@Cl4rendon

11y↑3.4K

Having BPD feels like being a child in an adult body searching for a mother. Being permanently isolated from real life and lost by all friends who walked out on you...Lonely, disorientated & empty. Then intense emotions that get so extreme. As my last relationship walked out on me, it felt like physical pain. Not for weeks, but for months. Drunk, intoxicated by a cocktail of rapid changing emotions.

@greenrosetta

9y↑2.9K

Until I was diagnosed yesterday I thought I was alone in the world. Sitting here listening to these people has made me realise that I can get through this. I love you all xo

@TheLadyDiazepam

11y↑848

I read a very interesting article in the New York Times about a woman with BPD who had taken low-paying jobs for years because she thought her BPD would make it impossible to function in a high-powered job. She came to realise that it was important to consider not only whether she was a good fit for the job, but whether the job was a good fit for her. She now has a job that makes use of her considerable intelligence and talent, & is able to manage her BPD so it doesn't interfere with her work.

@DevyWevy749

11y↑485

I ended up using this video to try to inform my mother that I'd been diagnosed while away at University.. she said my behaviour finally made sense and apologized for the way she had treated me while I lived with her. Thank you so much for posting this- It's always a comfort to know that one is not alone.

@stelpan62

12y↑1.3K

Watching this has been a humbling experience for me. The next time I want to automatically label and judge someone as being a drama queen, emotionally unstable or just plain nuts ~ I will be thinking about it with compassion and understanding. I always thought that cutting and hurting yourself was completely insane but now I understand...

@esmithy89

11y↑296

Back from the hospital today diagnosed for a second time with BPD and I cannot express how much I want BPD to be made aware to people in the UK there is not enough attention on this disorder.

@lovewithlucifer

10y↑2.2K

I've gotten so much better and I am so proud of myself.

@PUARockstar

8y↑395

All the good things to fellow BPD sufferers.
Very good documentary.

@Godlim17

11y↑1.9K

I have BPD and I have a lot of empathy it is often what leads to my destructive behavior is the guilt I feel towards other people. Lack of empathy is not in the criteria for the diagnosis of Borderline so to assume that all of us have a narcissistic tendency is false.

@OrphanIzzy

11y↑132

This is most accurate info on BPD that I have ever found. On the Internet it is hard to find accurate and non-stigmatizing information, and easy to find misconceptions, warnings, and cruel comments such as "BPD sufferers are God's mistakes". I spent years overcoming the symptoms, and it kills me that some people never get help living intensely painful lives. We are good, loving people. We just have unique emotional needs that are almost impossible for others to meet, and for us to have met.

@Tracylindilou

8y↑192

20 years later and I still keep my DBT cards in my purse. It realy does help you cope.

@nyphospital

12y↑555

This seems to affect a number of people so you're not alone. We hope the video was some help to you. Best wishes. - NYP

@blueguitarblue

12y↑306

You are correct. I've read and heard first hand from sufferers that just the word "borderline" causes stereotyping and negative projecting straight away. A friend who went to the hospital overheard a nurse in the emergency room telling another nurse , as if rolling her eyes , "o great, borderline." It seems that sufferers are just seen as crying wolf. She was viewed as just being manipulative when she really needed help. It's not right.

@LarperLaura

11y↑606

I'm balling my eyes out. This video says so many things I haven't been able to say....

@Theforsakenmedia

10y↑329

I was misdiagnosed for 5 years by Psychiatry. They said I had depression, GAD, SAD, bi polar... finally my friend read about BPD in her psychology class. She told me about it, I told my psychiatrist about it and therapist about it. They "diagnosed me" with BPD. For some reason they don't like to diagnose someone with that disorder. That is what they told me. They told me most of the medications I had been on throughout my 5 different psychiatrists, most make BPD worse. I am glad I am ok now. :)

@risastars919

10y↑1.1K

BPD is a very serious mental disorder and my mom has one but she has never been treated. It affects not only the sufferers but also those who care about them and love them are also affected.

@cypresstwist

9y↑695

This is by far the best BPD documentary I have seen.

@amandaavery1704

10y↑405

When I first saw this video I cried because it described me perfectly but that's also when I decided I'm not going to feel like Shit because of a lousy personality disorder it sucks but I can still smile

@melissayates439

11y↑327

I can relate to what they're saying about people thinking that they have everything together. Most people I talk to don't believe that someone as nice and as intelligent as I am could have mental illness. If I say, "I have borderline personality disorder" they say, "No, I don't think so."

@TaylorandSaid

11y↑197

you're never too old to start learning about yourself :)

@badkneesone

11y↑1.4K

My wife has BPD. If it's your kid with BPD the dynamics of the relationship are different from it being your spouse. If it's a spouse, there is a certain unfairness to it. I do everything from cleaning to the bills and still I am person in the front row getting splattered with the watermelon guts. The rage always eventually gets directed at me for being a lousy husband. My days begin with prayer for patience, courage and a mindfulness of who I live with. A very hard road to travel.

@shinobidef

8y↑383

As someone with BPD, I found this very helpful - thank you

@moraldecay1

12y↑88

Hi, I'm a 25 year old female and I was diagnosed with BPD early this year. I have to say that although I am now able to understand why I had felt "alone", unhappy and useless from childhood to my current age, I have to disagree about feeling 'relieved" with the diagnoses. When my doctor told me I had BPD, it felt like that my life had just been confirmed as a dead end of being unhappy and unstable. I thought the diagnoses of what I had was worse than the anxiety/depression I had been living with

@anjilynn68

11y↑84

I am amazed with such gratitude with this video. I developed BPD at 14 after a major double trauma about 2 months apart. I've been in recovery since 2005. I know that it was DBT that saved my life. Prior to DBT, I was in the hospital every other month for chronic suicide tendancies and 2 over doses. This is awesome.. Thank you

@starcrafter13terran

11y↑181

I found walking to and from work has helped my depression lessen.

@Sinner1660

11y↑159

This video has made me find a least one hour's complete peace in my life. BPD is something that is actually still not taken seriously be many GP's and doctors and I know full well how hard it is to suffer with this condition for years and to be told that I'm not normal and I'm exaggerating how I feel for attention. I am just... so... SO relieved to think that out there, somewhere, are people like me who may one day be able to understand what it was like to be me, and visa versa.

@OrphanIzzy

11y↑325

I struggled with BPD in my teens, and spent years learning how to manage the symptoms. Sometimes I'd like to share things that have helped me if that's ok. *FIRST I had to accept that people weren't always being insensitive to me. I was acting on irrational, emotional needs that people just weren't able to meet. To expect them to was unfair. I had to change my behaviors and expectations of others in order that my needs might be met in life. Hope means having *HUMILITY*. (It's me, not you). ;0)

@romgtr

12y↑352

Yes not all BPDs are suicidal and cut themselves.

@MutteringUrchin

11y↑1K

It's very hard to have a relationship with those suffering from this; having it must be a nightmare.

@LeDiskoLove99

12y↑68

I have BPD, it's pure hell. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, but for some reason this is really hard to watch.

@ChihuahuaPuplum

10y↑1.4K

All my life I always had major problems making friends, I'm super shy, super clingy to any friends I do make, extremely emotional, I can hate someone one second and love them to death the next, I used to be suicidal and almost died, I'm turning into a hermit because I can't handle relationships, I can't hold a job, dropped out of highschool, get panic attacks, I always feel on edge, Anger and sadness are very high emotions for me, ...and I wish there was an off button for feeling this way all the time. It's hard for me to figure out if it's bipolar or BPD but BPD to me, sounds like me ...like when I watched this documentary it was like they were talking about me. Bipolar, not so much.

@LoreleiLoves

11y↑194

I just re-watched this video for the umpteenth time to reassure myself how much I've grown since beginning dbt. over a year ago... in life uncomfortable and painful situations will arise and i have self doubt and question if i'm handling myself effectively? I'M PROUD OF MYSELF TODAY ~ I HAVE THE SKILLS TO NOT ONLY REASSURE BUT "KNOW" I'VE MADE WISE CHOICES TODAY !!! SOO GRATEFUL FOR THIS VIDEO !!!

@Zeethirteen

11y↑93

The "lady" in this video is Dr Marsha Linehan, who in fact has BPD herself.

@TheRecoveringButterfly1

10y↑532

This documentary literally describes my life. This is perfect. Thank you for this.

@EekZombies

11y↑74

So nice to FINALLY figure out what was wrong after 32 yrs.

@Awreppe1

9y↑406

This was seriously a life-changing movie for me. Thank you.

@kassandramd

11y↑331

Maybe I'm just crazy, but I would love to see my childhood abusers go to jail, pay emotional damages, etc for child abuse. Its preposterous that sex abuse victims can prosecute an abuser from 20 years ago, yet if its any other form of child abuse you cannot have any justice, meanwhile living in a mental hellhole. I am a gorgeous woman reduced to paid companion due to this illness, and no justice for the one who caused it...

@boethius17

11y↑174

Never give up, ever.

@tiadeese

11y↑446

My mother has BPD. I have been left with NO CHOICE but to sever my relationship with her after years of begging her to get help. She refuses to seek ANY sort of treatment to this day. I've chosen to move on with my life and protect me and my family from her abusiveness. She will never change (she's getting worse) and I've accepted that. I suffer from complex PTSD, OCD and severe depression and it's due to the abuse I suffered at the hands of a BPD mother. If you have BPD-GET HELP!

@ZimbaZumba

11y↑82

I worked with a subsequently diagnosed Borderline. The social damage in the workplace, family, community at large and to himself was beyond description. This is serious disorder for those involved. Help only arrived when things got utterly dreadful and out of control. I was previously entirely unaware of this condition, more education is needed in this area.

@phoebedevereaux6139

10y↑297

I was diagnosed with BPD also, but anyone that knows me thinks it's a misdiagnosis. I was horribly abused all of my life, which makes me have a "skewed" (doctor's words, not mine) view of myself. Yes, I do view others as more important than I am, but seriously, what's wrong with that? No, I don't see myself as attractive, but is it so wrong compared to others who look into a mirror and say "I'm so beautiful!" all the time? I put others first because I was always taught that selfishness is wrong, and if I put others before myself, that maybe I can do something to help change the world.

@sarahpollard8023

10y↑1.9K

I'm so glad to have found this video. Its very encouraging to know that I'm not alone. We're not alone.

@JawalaWorld

11y↑125

I CANNOT tell you how much hope this presentation is giving me.

@tedoymisojos

8y↑251

This made me feel so much better. A little hope, a little smile in my heart. Thank you for making this and sharing it.

@jillknow

11y↑152

thank you to the brave individuals and their family members who shared their stories, and the professionals who understand this diagnosis. Marsha L. you are a ray of light in so many peoples lives all over the world.

@nyphospital

11y↑96

You're welcome. As we mentioned a few times before, this is the most watched video on our channel so you are certainly not alone. We're glad we could be some help to you. -NYP

@pbj1024

11y↑61

my dad has BPD. it has ruined his marriage and his relationship with my sister and i. we tried to send him to a doctor but he refused any help at all, and refused to admit that there was anything wrong with him. i love my dad but i find it very hard to talk to him. i hope one day that he can work through it and i can have a relation with him again.

@ktsprucetree

11y↑253

I am thanking God that I had a moment of clarity long enough to remember that I have BPD and I'm not just an asshole. So I youtubed BPD and I'm so glad I did. I finally have a way to explain to my fiance and the people who love me what this is, that is real, and how to accept me. For instance, When I say "I feel like I am on the edge, so please back off, you are hurting me not helping" for them to understand that I am not trying to be mean, I'm trying to spare them of my irrationality or rage.

@normalizedinsanity4873

11y↑290

Borderline is a disorder that where the sufferer suffers feelings of deep seeded worthlessness, self doubt and loathing due to childhood abuse, whereas bi polar is a biological disorder characterized by extreme mood swings that can vary from from deep depression to manic highs. I know one person with bi-polar and know or have met over 20 people with BPD. I think it is way under-diagnosed which is a shame because it is treatable. Really needs to be awareness campaign for this condition.

@nyphospital

12y↑157

This video is the most watched video on our channel. It also receives the most comments. You are certainly not alone. - NYP

@dieselstewart7

11y↑30

The single most important video to watch for anyone suffering from, or working with these people. I am a recovered bpd and now a student nurse, I struggle to explain this illness to others, now I direct them to this film! Fantastic! Ps for anyone who is suffering, get help but also search online for self help and learn more about the illness, you are so much stronger than you feel! X

@TheWaterlou25

10y↑235

I have this and it's nice to see a video like this. There isn't much information out there about BPD and not many people understand.

@iwillknifeya

8y↑232

This was very close to the bone and the best video on BPD that I have been able to find so far. Thank you very much for posting this.

@mixtamizer

11y↑50

mine was brought out by a lover as well. i don't have many problems dealing with it when i'm surrounded by healthy, mentally stable people.

@coolgymkids

12y↑32

I love the honesty of the interviewees.

@AngelxAdrizzle

11y↑30

I am so thankful for this video. It made me cry because of how much I could relate to it. I'm not currently diagnosed, but I have been thinking for a while that I have BPD. I don't want to self-diagnose myself, but I identify with these people's stories and the criteria so, so well. This just really makes me feel less alone and like there are people out there who can understand me. This video made me realize that I think it's time for me to take that first step in getting help, so thank you.

@melindamelissa4784

10y↑93

This was so enlightening, educational and very moving. It's just patients and doctors and other experts talking but in an informed, educated and very frank way. I learned and gained so much from this. Thank you.

@SAK122707

12y↑41

I suffer from BPD and you bringing up no childhood/parent emotion acknowledgment hit a string. I'll bring it up to my therapist since apparently she hasn't really touched the subject...

@kevinwishart8691

10y↑89

Awesome watch, I suffer or live with BPD-Dialetic therapy has helped but I still struggle with the willingness to keep on using it.I have been on that bridge, done the pill route and man does it suck.My family works with me, my children who also have disorders or sometimes called creative episodes.I thoroughly enjoyed the video and know there is hope.

@FMD-FullMetalDragon

11y↑165

What was really bad being a person with BPD was having parents who knew I had this and they still kept telling me things like "Shape up" and "Stop being so childish" and "Grow up and stop being a baby." It was rough... This video is great and it does a great job in laying the foundation of what BPD is. I have my own theory on people with BPD that goes beyond what science and medical profs say is BPD though that includes a lot of metaphysical and spiritual ideas.

@jooonlove

11y↑18

This is the most comforting and hopeful thing on the internet about BPD. Thank you.

@ambara81

11y↑64

thankyou so much. i still feel like such a burden to everyone in my life but im trying to get better. its not fair that the people who love me have to suffer and the people that wanted to love me couldnt because i cant regulate my emotions.

@50MOLE

11y↑316

FOR ME MY CHILDHOOD IS TOO BLAME

@LauraGilbertWereMaidWoman

11y↑41

I've gotten so much better, I used to be just like that. I just....became the person I needed.

@blessed923

11y↑40

This so describes me. I find myself taking on things people like, even if I don't like it. If I have an opinion, most likely I keep it to myself because I get knocked down for speaking up. If I show emotions for the most part I am told to grow up and be mature or that I can't cry because I don't have a reason to. Thanks for posting this. I was recently diagnosed with this and wanted to have a better understanding of this and it helps because it gives different examples and experiences.

@bloemsteve1

10y↑93

This is one of the best videos I have seen on borderline personality disorder. I studied under Marsha Linehan and her points are especially helpful. It also has good testimonials of what it feels like to have Borderline Personality Disorder.
Steve Bloem
Co-author Broken Minds.

@x.Avalance

11y↑455

I dated a guy with BPD once. It was nearly impossible to deal with him. On top of my own issues with Manic Depression, etc. We were like a pot of toxic mess and we couldn't stand eachother, yet we couldn't live without eachother. It sucks.

@PointingOutPsychos

12y↑21

Great vid. Helps me to be more empathetic about the devastation of a 12 year failed marriage/family. Her actions are "unforgivable" in the sense that she would NEVER forgive me for such transgressions, yet EXPECTS me to forgive & reconcile. It is SO hard. I loved her, she never believed it, sought validation elsewhere. I regret never KNOWING my ex after 20 years of dating/marriage. Dual life. BPDs: Pls let YOUrself to be known to your mate. You will find an ally. Don't then destroy that ally.

@AhmaraHoover

11y↑43

The only criteria I do not meet out of the nine is the anger. I hardly ever experience explosive anger. Infact‚ the fact my anger manifests as extreme despair or sadness worries me. I can't even seem to get angry when it is completely necessary and justified.

@thelanguageofthebirds

11y↑198

don't worry, I don't even fit into my DBT group which is a whole group of OTHER borderlines. you aren't alone :(

@chichifrogslegs

11y↑68

My mom has bpd and its a full time job dealing with her. This video helped to understand where she may be coming from.

@JAKEAWAKEOFFICIAL

10y↑46

Thank you for posting this. How useful for people suffering from this disorder.

@luunalavender

11y↑64

explained my entire existence. thank you for this.. now i just need to grow enough strength to find help.

@leeuwerikje

11y↑29

I am so grateful I found this video because, as A. says, it helps me not to feel so alone and completely, out of this world. I now live in Spain, and mental problems are 'not excepted here', and it is true that you need the right person, that understands this illness but that you can also feel comfortable with, and that is very difficult to find. Nevertheless, I am going to try very hard, because I think, after this hell, I deserve some healing and some peace, because I am tired to the bone.

@ChihuahuaPuplum

10y↑84

Cont: My dad might have had it too. People used to think he was bipolar, but he very well could have had this. I think a lot more people have this then science and doctors realize. It's just a newly discovered condition so I wonder if as the years go on, more and more people will realize they have this. Then maybe there will be more awareness and help. Sorry for the long posts. Thanks for this documentary, it was eye opening to me and I think I'll go in for therapy.

@DebbieTaylorpdx

10y↑107

Where do families of BPD people get help?

@pervypirates

11y↑42

I'm happy and terrified at the same time, because THIS is me. I've done all of the mentioned things.. but at least now I know why

@apseudonym

12y↑34

I do sometimes. I have to be really in the mood to go out. But I love them all so much regardless, I hope they know that. I just find solitude much more bearable.

@lanesejohnsonhu2259

9y↑105

Thank you for posting this. It helps me figure out why I am the way I am

@carial69

12y↑24

Great video. I'm 43 an been dealing with this my whole life. It's a wonder I'm still here. I've never been treated or diagnosed. On the outside, I've held it "together" enough. Towards my family and relationships, I've torn them to shreds. However, my parents are the only one's that have managed to somewhat convence me they love me, note that I said somewhat, so I still don't buy it 100%. Ha! I have noticed that the older I get the harder "it" is getting to manage myself. Resigned Outlier.

@PsychedeliaMinds

12y↑12

Wow, I cannot explain how helpful this was. Thank you so much for posting this. I have such a better understanding of this and I want to get help. For the longest time I felt as if I didn't exist as if I was constantly changing. I don't feel alone anymore...I hope others with BPD feel compelled like me to get help...no one deserves to live with this

@faithoffaith

11y↑40

Cont: BPD on the other hand is thought to have its underlying roots in early childhood often stemming from prolonged traumatic or difficult experiences (not always often the case) but causing the brain chemistry or biological processes that play key parts in emotional, behavioural and cognitive development to some how change than leading to a long-term pattern of maladaptive behaviours cont:

@courtneymcclelland7522

11y↑115

I believe myself to be a sufferer of BPD, and I will acknowledge that all of this information may be true, however, to TRULY felt more secure, I just stopped thinking about my emptiness, irritability and inability to be stable. I do things that make me happy, and instead of being anxious and doubting the happiness that an activity might bring me, I enveloped every bit of happiness I could squeeze from whatever I was doing. The trick isn't to focus on how unhappy you are, how happy you are.

@stibblemon

11y↑7

Astonishing video. To have this now, through this medium, is truly wonderful. 30 years ago you were lazy, moody, and disruptive--"unreasonable". We've come a long way...I'm still "unreasonable" but happier about it.

@shanerawson2792

11y↑16

thank u 2the people that made this programme..... 10yrs after being diagnosed n left 2deal with a situation i didnt understand i finaly c hope n realise im nt alone :) a HUGE thank you x

@h3arty

11y↑270

Yup. I'm a borderline. The "I don't fit in" disorder. Yup.

@8888-9

11y↑81

yes, I can be really happy, just as intensely as I can feel sadness, despair, and disconnected from all around me. This is a very dignity-honoring Documentary. Usually the up-loads are almost bullish of B.p.d. Where the Video makers attitude seems sensationalized. One such person on you tube, was in glee over how INTO sexual activity B.p.d sufferers can become. This Documentary portrays intelligently both the P.O.V of the sufferer, and the Psychology behind it, I like that they do not assume.

@4artemis4

12y↑9

Thank you so much for posting this. As someone living with BPD, I find this video informative and crucial to watch for anyone who wants to gain some insight into what it's like to be on the other side of the coin and just try to survive one day at a time. Watching this helps me feel a little less alone and puts my feelings into rational words. Thank you and bravo to all the speakers.

@Hipochacco

12y↑20

I am so tired of having BPD, this made me cry I just want relief... I am learning to cope and manage my emotions but every day is still a struggle. I am still only alive because my family wants me to be alive but I'd rather be dead. I went to NY Presbyterian 2 years ago and was diagnosed with BPD... I don't have every symptom though just a lot...

@psychsoul718

12y↑46

Thank you for this video, I've cried the entire time watching it because you're speaking about me. I would love to feel normal, whatever that is or at least not feel so out of control and overwhelmed all of the time, I was diagnosed in '98 and am still very much in pain, need help but am agoraphobic so i can't actually go to NYP as i'd love to be able to get help. Just feels hopeless.

@brandymaker

11y↑24

just been diagnosed with BPD...been living with this for about38 yrs...it makes sence now how i been for yrs ..

@QueenB816

12y↑14

Such a huge trigger! Been hospitalized 5 times, attempted suicide numerous times. Im uninsured & living w/ my family who thinks im lazy & spoiled. I just want to get back on my feet but Im having such a hard time finding help in NY to get the skills to finish school, find steady work & build lasting, healthy relationships. I dont want to talk about it anymore, I want to do something about it but dont know if its possible anymore. Its torture!

@Karunainstitute

12y↑6

This is simply an outstanding video. It is one of the first that I have seen that so clearly describes the experience of BPD, especially with what could be called a higher functioning BPD population. Combining the experiences of these courageous individuals, with commentary from these leading clinicians in the field, makes this an extraordinary video. Many thanks to Dr. Linehan, along with the other clinicians, and to the men and women in this video that explain so well the experience of BPD.

@livingasif

12y↑27

Really impressed, very nicely made. Good mix of carers, sufferers and professionals, seem's to get over everything really clearly.

@flaafeon

12y↑6

This hits very, very close to home. I can't even begin to describe how incredibly relevant this is to my life. On one hand, I'm very thankful that I'm not the only one that goes through this... on the other, it makes me question myself further. :/

@milicentjones2186

11y↑37

Tears...I have this- OMG great video !

@60Singing

11y↑5

Thank you, thank you. So many of us are in pain, and this is so comforting. If only those who cannot see this and need to, could see it also.

@HithierTexidor

12y↑69

i hate having bpd it messes with my mind too much. i feel crazy

@Frank1984ish

11y↑10

I went to to DBT therapy for two years in Seattle. It has saved my life. I Am so glad I found this video. I was Burning myself and slicing ...ready to die. DBT saved my life.