clementine
Halsey Lyrics

I'd like to tell you that my sky's not blue, it's violent rain
I want you to know that I'm going through a difficult time in my life and it's not just a little sadness, but it's like a violent rainstorm that seems to never end.

And in my world, the people on the street don't know my name
In my world, I feel alone and isolated from those around me, like nobody knows who I am or cares about what I'm going through.

In my world, I'm seven feet tall
In my world, I feel powerful and confident, like I can conquer anything in my path and nothing can stop me.

And the boys always call, and the girls do too
In my world, I feel desirable and attractive, like everyone wants to be around me and be with me.

Because in my world, I'm constantly, constantly havin' a breakthrough (hmm)
In my world, I'm always striving for success and finding ways to improve myself, like I'm on the verge of a breakthrough moment.

Or a breakdown, or a blackout
But sometimes, in my world, things fall apart and I feel like I'm on the brink of a breakdown or a blackout.

Would you make out with me underneath the shelter of the balcony?
In my world, I long for intimacy and being close to someone who loves and cares for me, maybe even in a private and romantic setting like under a balcony.

'Cause I don't need anyone
Despite my struggles and hardships in my world, I like to believe that I'm strong and independent enough to handle it all on my own without needing anyone else.

I just need everyone and then some
But even though I don't need anyone, deep down I still crave the love, acceptance, and attention of others, maybe even more than I care to admit.

Wish I could see what it's like to be the blood in my veins
Sometimes, I wish I could understand myself better and see things from my own perspective, like what it's truly like to feel the blood flowing through my own veins.

Do the insides of all of my fingers still look the same?
I wonder if, despite all the changes and struggles in my life, I'm still the same person deep down, with the same strengths and flaws that make me who I am.

And can you feel it too, when I am touchin' you?
When I'm close to someone and there's a real connection between us, I wonder if they can feel the same intense emotions and energy that I feel when we're together.

And when my hair stands on ends, it's saluting you
Sometimes when I'm with someone I really care about, I feel like my body is almost paying homage to them, like even my hair stands on end in excitement and anticipation of being with them.

The blush in your cheeks says that you bleed like me
I feel like the way someone blushes when they're around me is a sign that they have vulnerabilities and struggles just like I do, and we can connect on a deeper level because of it.

And the 808 beat sends your heart to your feet
Sometimes, music can connect people in ways that words can't, and in particular, the beats and rhythms of a song can bring people together on a deep emotional level.

Left my shoes in the street so you'd carry me
I want to trust someone so completely that I could let go of everything, even my shoes, and know that they'd be there to carry me through the tough times.

Through a breakdown or a blackout
Even though I want to trust someone enough to be there for me, I know that sometimes even the strongest of us will experience a breakdown or a blackout and need help getting through it.

Would you make out with me on the floor of the mezzanine?
In my world, I crave intimate moments with someone I care about, even if it's on the floor of a mezzanine or some other odd, unexpected place.

My face is full of spiderwebs, all tender yellow blue
Sometimes when I'm struggling in my world, I feel like my emotions and thoughts are thick, tangled spiderwebs that keep me trapped in my own mind.

And still with one eye open, well, all I see is you
Even as I struggle with my emotions and thoughts, you're the one thing that I can always see clearly, even if I only have one eye open.

I left my daydreams at the gate because I just can't take 'em too
Sometimes, I have big dreams and aspirations for my life, but I'm afraid to let myself fully embrace them because of the fear that they might never come true.