The band toured alongside Der Weg einer Freiheit and the Great Old Ones in March, 2016 and played Summer Breeze Open Air later that year. For live performances, J.J. and M.S. are joined by bassist Thomas Dornig, drummer Mischa Bruemmer and guitarist Marrok. In 2017 they were nominated for the "Hard & Heavy" category of the Amadeus Austrian Music Awards.
Heroin Waltz
Harakiri for the Sky Lyrics
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But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin
These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm
People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light
I feel so sad about the people
That never made it behind the bars of their hometown
That never saw these bottomless depths
Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul
For having been allowed to walk where I have walked
Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again
Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above…
My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion
As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days
Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving
But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all
So I’m lying in my bed, in my house
And all I want to do is to go home…
I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave
I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day
So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted
Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all
Nothing but anticipation
Nothing at all
And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me
Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead
For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry…
But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain
This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame
…I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends…
The lyrics of Harakiri for the Sky’s song Heroin Waltz reflect a profound sense of loneliness and the pain that comes with it. The singer of the song speaks about a “garden of everlasting love” within them, but acknowledges that all others can see are the scars that grace their skin. They express the fear that people only feel lonely in the dark, but the truth is, they feel lonely even in the light. They talk about walking through the depths and mires of life, going through hell and heaven on earth and back again, and how it’s worth all the pain that has burned and scarred their soul, just to have walked where they have walked.
The concept of “home” is something that the singer finds difficult to understand, as they can’t stay in one place for more than three days. They ponder on the idea that they might never find a true home without leaving it. They talk about wanting to go home, but they don’t know where home is. The song ends with the singer apologizing for how they’ve harmed someone dear to them, and saying that they will take the blame for the last autumn, and how it all ends.
Line by Line Meaning
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me
There is a place within me that holds the concept of everlasting love.
But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin
I am afraid that all you notice are the external scars on my body.
These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm
Walking in the dark feels uncomfortable, and sometimes the only comfort can be found in drug use.
People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light
Being alone is experienced in different ways; darkness and lightness doesn't matter.
I feel so sad about the people
I feel emotional distress for those who missed out.
That never made it behind the bars of their hometown
Those who have never left their hometown have missed out.
That never saw these bottomless depths
Those who haven't seen the depths of life have missed out.
That never walked these mires, I have walked
I have experienced the difficulties that others have not.
Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul
The pain and scars that I've endured are valuable.
For having been allowed to walk where I have walked
I am grateful for the experiences that I've had.
Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again
I have experienced the best and worst of life.
Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above…
I have gone through different levels of existence and emotions.
My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion
'Home' can mean different things to different people, and can be difficult to define.
As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days
I have a hard time staying in one place for longer periods.
Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving
You once said that leaving is necessary to find 'home.'
But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all
After seeing so many places, I have forgotten where 'home' is.
So I’m lying in my bed, in my house
I am resting in my physical residence.
And all I want to do is to go home…
I long to find 'home'.
I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave
I made a promise not to leave, but I still intend to leave.
I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day
I hope that they anticipated my departure.
So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted
My ultimate fate is not something I fear.
Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all
Death doesn't elicit an emotional response from me.
Nothing but anticipation
I am looking forward to it.
And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me
I don't regret the pain you've caused me.
Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead
I am willing to continue to endure pain to the point of destruction.
For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry…
I apologize for any harm I may have caused you.
But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain
I reached a point where the pain was unbearable.
This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame
I accept responsibility for the ending of our relationship/friendship.
…I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends…
I am deeply apologetic, but this is the conclusion.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
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Harakiri for the sky & Ghost Bath & Unreqvited NORTH AMERICA Tour 2022
10/27 Philadelphia PA Milkboy
10/28 Brooklyn NY The Meadows
10/29 Baltimore MD Metro Gallery
10/30 Atlanta GA Boggs Social
11/01 Nashville TN The End
11/02 Little Rock AR Vino's
11/04 Houston TX Acadia
11/05 Dallas TX Reno's
11/06 Austin TX Come and Take It Live
11/07 El Paso TX Rockhouse
11/10 Phoenix AZ Nile Underground
11/11 San Diego CA Brick By Brick
11/12 Los Angeles CA Jewels
11/13 San Jose CA Xbar
11/14 Portland OR High Water Mark
11/15 Seattle WA Funhouse
11/16 Boise ID Shredder
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11/18 Denver CO Roxy Theater
11/20 Chicago IL Reggies
11/21 Detroit MI Sanctuary
11/22 Pittsburgh PA Preserving Underground
11/23 Rochester NY Montage
11/24 Toronto ON Tail of The Junction
11/25 Ottawa ON Dominion Tavern
11/26 Montreal QC Theatre Paradox
11/27 Quebec City QC L'anti
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Ephemeral Eiswer
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me
But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin
These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm
People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light.
I feel so sad about the people
That never made it behind the bars of their hometown
That never saw these bottomless depths
That never walked these mires, I have walked.
Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul
For having been allowed to walk where I have walked
Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again
Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above…
My dear, the concept of "home" is such a vague notion
As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days
Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving
But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all
So I’m lying in my bed, in my house
And all I want to do is to go home…
I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless, I will leave
I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day
So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted
Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all
Nothing but anticipation
Nothing at all.
And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me
Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead.
For how I harmed you, my dear… …I am sorry…
But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain
This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame
…I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends…
Finn O Faman
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me
But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin
These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm
People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light
I feel so sad about the people
That never made it behind the bars of their hometown
That never saw these bottomless depths
That never walked these mires, I have walked
Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul
For having been allowed to walk where I have walked
Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again
Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above…
My dear, the concept of "home" is such a vague notion
As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days
Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving
But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all
So I’m lying in my bed, in my house
And all I want to do is to go home…
I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless, I will leave
I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day
So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted
Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all
Nothing but anticipation
Nothing at all
And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me
Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead
For how I harmed you, my dear… …I am sorry…
But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain
This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame
…I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends…
Addiction is a horrible demon... I think I have fought and beaten it pretty well but it always looms behind my mind waiting like a cancer to pull me down for good this time.
Keep strong people!!!
Greh Cat
Где-то во мне есть сад вечной любви
Но я боюсь, что все, что вы можете видеть, это шрамы, которые украшают мою кожу
Эти беспроблемные прогулки нас будут раздражать, и только наркотики держат нас в тепле
Люди чувствуют себя такими одинокими в темноте, я чувствую себя таким одиноким в свете
Мне так грустно о людях
Это никогда не делало это за решеткой их родного города
Никогда не видел этих бездонных глубин
Что никогда не ходило эти болота, я шел
Стоит боль, которая сожгла меня и шрапнула мою душу
Поскольку мне разрешили ходить, где я шел
Что было в аду на земле, небеса на земле и обратно
Под ним, внизу, через него, в нем ... ... и выше ...
Моя дорогая, понятие «дом» - такое неопределенное понятие
Поскольку я не могу оставаться там же более трех дней
Как только вы сказали мне, что я никогда не найду дом, не покидая
Но теперь я видел так много мест, я по крайней мере забыл их всех
Так что я лежу в своей постели, в моем доме
И все, что я хочу сделать, это вернуться домой ...
Я должен был пообещать им, что я не пойду, но, тем не менее, я уйду
Я хотел бы думать, что они, должно быть, знали, что я сделаю это однажды
Поэтому я надеюсь прийти к моему похорону поздно, психотическому и впустую
Потому что, когда речь идет о смерти, я ничего не чувствую
Ничего, кроме предвкушения
Ничего
И я никогда не пожалею всех ран, нанесенных мне
Потому что еще два из этих шрамов, и мир мертв
За то, как я причинил тебе вред, дорогая ... ... Прошу прощения ...
Но когда прошло это последнее лето, я больше не мог переносить боль
Это была наша последняя осень, и я возьму вину
... Я так чертовски извиняюсь ... ... но вот как все кончилось
AOP Records
Harakiri for the sky & Ghost Bath & Unreqvited NORTH AMERICA Tour 2022
10/27 Philadelphia PA Milkboy
10/28 Brooklyn NY The Meadows
10/29 Baltimore MD Metro Gallery
10/30 Atlanta GA Boggs Social
11/01 Nashville TN The End
11/02 Little Rock AR Vino's
11/04 Houston TX Acadia
11/05 Dallas TX Reno's
11/06 Austin TX Come and Take It Live
11/07 El Paso TX Rockhouse
11/10 Phoenix AZ Nile Underground
11/11 San Diego CA Brick By Brick
11/12 Los Angeles CA Jewels
11/13 San Jose CA Xbar
11/14 Portland OR High Water Mark
11/15 Seattle WA Funhouse
11/16 Boise ID Shredder
11/17 Salt Lake City UT Metro Music Hall
11/18 Denver CO Roxy Theater
11/20 Chicago IL Reggies
11/21 Detroit MI Sanctuary
11/22 Pittsburgh PA Preserving Underground
11/23 Rochester NY Montage
11/24 Toronto ON Tail of The Junction
11/25 Ottawa ON Dominion Tavern
11/26 Montreal QC Theatre Paradox
11/27 Quebec City QC L'anti
Tickets: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1SlrxcO7cdzKdHLqtmC2CX7dTAOS0N1FoFvrPHfbFsG4/edit#gid=0
TheEddard995
I just have no words to describe how I feel after listening to this song, your music is so unbelievably beautiful yet completely soul crushing.
Pagan of the North
While I have never done heroin myself, I understand self-destruction and self-sabotage all to well. Thanks for sharing these emotions, as it is good to know that I am not alone. Everyone seems to navigate life so easily, while every step I take is now a struggle.
Ephemeral Eiswer
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me
But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin
These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm
People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light.
I feel so sad about the people
That never made it behind the bars of their hometown
That never saw these bottomless depths
That never walked these mires, I have walked.
Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul
For having been allowed to walk where I have walked
Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again
Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above…
My dear, the concept of "home" is such a vague notion
As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days
Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving
But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all
So I’m lying in my bed, in my house
And all I want to do is to go home…
I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless, I will leave
I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day
So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted
Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all
Nothing but anticipation
Nothing at all.
And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me
Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead.
For how I harmed you, my dear… …I am sorry…
But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain
This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame
…I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends…
Finn O Faman
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me
But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin
These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm
People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light
I feel so sad about the people
That never made it behind the bars of their hometown
That never saw these bottomless depths
That never walked these mires, I have walked
Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul
For having been allowed to walk where I have walked
Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again
Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above…
My dear, the concept of "home" is such a vague notion
As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days
Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving
But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all
So I’m lying in my bed, in my house
And all I want to do is to go home…
I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless, I will leave
I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day
So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted
Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all
Nothing but anticipation
Nothing at all
And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me
Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead
For how I harmed you, my dear… …I am sorry…
But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain
This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame
…I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends…
Addiction is a horrible demon... I think I have fought and beaten it pretty well but it always looms behind my mind waiting like a cancer to pull me down for good this time.
Keep strong people!!!
Mr. Dooter
I don't mean to jack the comment thread but this has kept me sober two days now. Thank you to this amazing band I hope they get the recognition they deserve.
nowimhigh
I can't stay tf off this shit! I keep relapsing, this has been going on for over 15yrs. I may have to go back to methadone, I think the older I've gotten the worse the sickness gets. I've only been able to successfully kick cold turkey in jail. My longest clean time was 18 months and that was because I was in prison. I got out in 2018, managed to make it 4 months until I relapsed and violated my parole. I have 6 months left on parole and I'm still using. They haven't been giving us piss tests due to Covid. Here I am steadily fucking my life up. Wish I never ever tried opiates 19 yrs ago. Didn't get strung out on heroin until 2005. Crazy how a substance can possess such control over your life.
Dallin H.
How are you doing man? I’ve been clean ten years it’s possible!
markus laurila
I hope you're still keeping sober. You can do it and you can keep doing it. Don't choose death when you can be alive. For swim a sobering track was sunshine ward by amebix. "Should we carry this farce on just as before? Or start living for life's sake, away from the ward?"
edit: if you have troubles, take a little bit of pregabalin or gabapentin, dph and drink a couple beers. Works well for keeping sickness at bay
CyberChrist
Think about the freedom ;)