Hawthorne Heights developed a huge MySpace following that became a catalyst that would launch them from underground to international awareness. The band became regulars on MTV, their signature hit Ohio Is For Lovers the anthem for the new wave of “emo”. Their debut album The Silence In Black And White soon went Gold, and with their second album If Only You Were Lonely, the band scored Victory Records’ biggest ever debut, landing at #3 on the Billboard 200 in 2006. The band appeared on Conan O’Brien and Jimmy Kimmel, and became magazine cover stars, sending sales of The Silence… to Platinum status.
In November 2007, whilst in the midst of legal disputes, tragedy struck within the Hawthorne Heights family. Casey Calvert, the much loved guitarist and resident “screamer” of the band, lost his life while on tour, due to an accidental overdose of medications prescribed by his doctor and dentist, which proved to be lethal combination. The effects on the band were evident, both personally and musically.
On August 5 2008, Hawthorne Heights return with Fragile Future, a brand new album. Although the sound is still distinctly Hawthorne Heights, the music, as with the band, has understandably evolved.
“After spending the last 2 years in a deep dark place, we decided to try to find the bright lights again with Fragile Future,” noted singer J.T. Woodruff. “We, as a band, noticed that everyone has tremendous ups and downs, so we wanted this record to communicate that. We chose the title Fragile Future, because it sums up the current state of our band, as well as what is going on in the outside world. We must all make good choices to create a better situation in our lives.”
"With the loss of Casey, and no plans to replace him, we've had to make some obvious changes to our sound on this record,” added drummer Eron Bucciarelli. “Originally there were less screams planned for this record than the second one, but sadly we never got the chance to do even that. This forced us to take a creative approach to certain songs. We've beefed up the guitars in parts, added gang vocals, choirs and all sorts of effects to still capture some of the energy that Casey brought.”
Current Members
JT Woodruff: Vocals/Guitar
Mark McMillon: Guitar
Chris Popadak: Drums
Matt Ridenour: Bass
Previous Members:
Casey Calvert(deceased): Guitar/Backup Vocals
Eron Buciarelli: Drums
Micah Carli: Guitar
For more information, visit: http://www.hawthorneheights.com
Where Can I Stab Myself In The Ears
Hawthorne Heights Lyrics
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With words then meant more then updates on the phone
The signals fading fast and the ink is running out
The words repeating as I'm better from my mouth
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave this all behind
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave this all behind
Behind your back talking like knives
And I can hardly breathe
Sharpen your tongue the rest of your life
And I can not believe anything that you say
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave this all behind
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave this all behind
So your the fire and I'm the water
I am the balance and you are the color
I won't forget you when we're not together
This is the ending, it's my surrender
(So your the fire and I'm the water
I am the balance and you are the color
I won't forget you when we're not together
This is the ending, it's my surrender)
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave this all behind
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave
Where Can I Stab Myself In The Ears by Hawthorne Heights is a song that deals with the emotional turmoil of a broken relationship. The lyrics convey a sense of regret for not having expressed emotions earlier, before it is too late. The line "I guess I could've sent a letter from the womb, with words that meant more than updates on the phone" suggests that the singer feels like he should have opened up about his feelings earlier. The urgency of the situation, portrayed through the fading signal and the ink running out, indicates that the singer is aware that time is running out.
The chorus "Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight, forget these lungs, their jealousy, you're burning up, but I can't leave this all behind" conveys a sense of desperation and longing to remain close to the person they are addressing. The line "forget these lungs, their jealousy, you're burning up" suggests that their emotions are so intense that they feel like they are being consumed by them. The imagery of knives and sharp tongues combined with the difficulty in breathing conveys a sense of suffocation and the impression that there is no escape from the situation.
The final lines of the song "So you're the fire and I'm the water, I am the balance and you are the color, I won't forget you when we're not together, this is the ending, it's my surrender" suggest that the singer has come to terms with the inevitability of the relationship ending. The analogy of fire and water as well as the reference to balance and color reflect the notion that the relationship was passionate but ultimately could not be sustained. The phrase "this is the ending, it's my surrender" conveys a sense of acceptance and suggests that the singer is ready to let go.
Line by Line Meaning
I guess I could've sent a letter from the womb
I wish I could have communicated my sincere feelings before social media and the internet replaced human connection.
With words then meant more then updates on the phone
In the past, communication was more personal, and people had more meaningful interactions than what technology allows now.
The signals fading fast and the ink is running out
The connection that I shared with someone is slipping away, and I'm struggling to keep it alive.
The words repeating as I'm better from my mouth
I keep saying the same things, but they don't mean much anymore as my pain and desperation grow stronger.
Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight
I need someone to comfort me, and I don't mind sacrificing my own well-being for a moment of solace.
Forget these lungs their jealousy your burning up but I can't leave this all behind
I'm consumed by envy, and it's tearing me apart. Though I want to free myself, I'm unable to do so.
Behind your back talking like knives
Others are gossiping about me in negative ways, using hateful words like weapons to hurt me deeply.
And I can hardly breathe
The emotional pain is overwhelming and makes it hard for me to cope with the situation.
Sharpen your tongue the rest of your life
The person who is gossiping about me is so cruel and vindictive that it seems they will never stop abusing me with their words.
And I can not believe anything that you say
After being betrayed so many times, I've lost trust in the person who is gossiping about me and have difficulty believing anything they say.
So your the fire and I'm the water
You and I are complete opposites, with different personalities, approaches to life, and emotional responses.
I am the balance and you are the color
While I strive for peace and harmony, you add passion, intensity, and a touch of drama to everything.
I won't forget you when we're not together
Even if we go our separate ways, I will always cherish the moments we had together and the impact you had on my life.
This is the ending, it's my surrender
Despite my efforts to hold on to the past and reverse the course of events, it's time to accept that things are coming to an end and give up the fight.
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
Written by: Casey Calvert, Eron Bucciarelli-Tieger, James II Woodruff, Matthew Ridenour, Micah Carli
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