midnight
Hayley Jane Lyrics

I'm feeling wasted
I am tired and drained, physically and emotionally.

I feel abused
I feel like someone has been hurting me, whether physically, mentally or both.

I need everything
I need to have everything I want to make myself feel better, but I know it won't work.

I have to lose
I know that I need to let go of things to move on and heal.

I'm sick of being mad
I'm tired of being angry all the time, it's exhausting.

I'm sick of being sad
I'm tired of feeling sad constantly, it's taking a toll on me.

I'm ready for the rapture
I'm ready to move on to the next phase, whether it's death or something else.

I might as well be dead
I feel like I'm barely hanging on and that my life is not worth living.

Speak little dolly;
Addressing someone who might make them feel better.

Give me a clue
Looking for some help or guidance.

To the secret to be
To know how to be okay and not feel like this anymore.

Half as pretty as you
To be as beautiful, or have as much grace and elegance as someone else.

I need the porcelain
Referring to the beauty product, porcelain skin.

I need the gears
Referring to the beauty product, gears in a clock indicating turning back time.

Because I know that if I don't
If I don't have these beauty products or escape from my sadness, I'll continue to be in deep pain.

I will end up in tears
I will be consumed by my grief.

I don't care if you say I'm pretty
I don't care about compliments, they don't change how I feel inside.

I don't care if you say I'm nice
I don't care about compliments, they don't change how I feel inside.

All I know is when the clock strikes twelve;
When the day is over or when I lose track of time, I feel negative emotions creeping up on me.

Nothing is ever right-
No matter what happens, everything feels wrong.

Because it's midnight.
A metaphor for darkness, depression, and sadness.

Give me the needle
A reference to drug use to help numb the pain.

Give me the pills
A reference to drug use to help numb the pain.

I need her papers
Referring to prescription medication papers to access legal drugs.

I have no will
A lack of motivation to try and better themselves, they feel powerless.

I'm used to sickness
Used to feeling ill mentally and physically.

I'm used to pain
Used to feeling deep and intense pain mentally and physically.

I hate the sunshine;
Disliking things that others might find joyful or happy.

I love the rain.
Preferring things that are dark, gloomy and depressing.

My mind is recovering
Slowly healing from the effects of substance abuse or intense emotional trauma.

From an overdose
A reference to taking too much medication or drugs.

I know that if I blink,
They know how fragile their mental state is.

The stitches will show
The thin barrier keeping everything together is on the verge of falling apart.

I need the surgeon
Referring to someone who could help heal their emotional wounds.

I need the skin
Referring to the desire to have a fresh start and a new beginning.

The demons will win
The negative thoughts and emotions will consume them and take over their life.

Trapped between today and tomorrow
Feeling stuck in their current situation and uncertain about the future.

There is a place where strange things dwell
Referring to a place of fear and darkness.

There's no time
Feeling forever stuck in the present with no hope for the future.

There is no stopping
Nothing is preventing the constant flow of negative thoughts and emotions from taking over.

There is no Heaven 'cause it's Hell
Not seeing a way out of the misery. Heaven representing a blissful state of being, whereas Hell is the torment and suffering they are currently living through.