At the end of 2016, Hayley celebrated the release of her major-label debut EP CITRINE, which included pop confections "Pretty Girl" and "Palace", by launching her nationwide "One Bad Night Tour". The completely sold-out headline tour saw Hayley performing her new music for her passionate and devoted fans in cities throughout the US. According to Baeble, Hayley "managed to turn a sold out Studio at Webster Hall into an intimate dance party for everyone to feel free in a safe zone."
Following singles including "Sleepover", "Feelings", and "Curious" have been released to accompany her debut studio album Expectations, which was released on March 30, 2018. The album reached the top 20 of the charts in United States, Canada and Australia. She has also created a comic book, with the help of Naomi Franquiz and Marla Vazquez, based on her song "Gravel to Tempo".
Kiyoko was a founding member of The Stunners in 2007. The group supported Justin Bieber's My World Tour, before disbanding in 2011.
Kiyoko was born to figure skater/choreographer Sarah Kawahara and actor/comedian Jamie Alcroft. Her mother is from Canada and her father is from Ohio, USA.
Mercy / Gatekeeper
Hayley Kiyoko Lyrics
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Caught up in the dreams, I can't create
When the city sleeps, I'm awake
Locked up in my mind, I can't escape
There's nothing I could do but wait
I call you crying 'cause it's too much pain
I can tell you don't get it
'Cause you tell me that everything will be okay
All I wanna do is cry
That's all I wanna do
All I wanna do is cry
Bang my head, until I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Baby, I just dyed my hair
To make me feel like I don't care
It'll be my war paint
'Cause Lord knows I need strength, I need strength
Mondays might be alright
And Sundays will probably hurt
'Cause when your mouth starts moving with the noise
I don't hear a single word
All I wanna do is cry
That's all I wanna do
All I wanna do is cry
Bang my head, until I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
I watch the sky get brighter
The lights get higher now
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Stuck in the traffic that's racing in my mind
Blankets of wool just to cover up my eyes
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
And I know what I need, what I need is hiding
I'm just a face, someone passing on the street
Paint on a smile so that no one ever sees
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
And I know what I need, what I nees hiding
Talk to you, they all talk to you, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Talk to you, we all talk to you, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
It's easier for me to stay quiet (Talk to you, they all talk to you)
And not speak a word
For if I do, then the truth might emerge
They are my emotions to feel
Nobody can poison my feelings if they're never revealed
I'll watch others live in loudness
And I'll destroy the chaos in my way
I have the control
If I keep what's mine, I can have the purest soul
And live with content, free from fear
I choose my actions
I'm the gatekeeper
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Don't let me die with my soul in the air
Don't let me die when there's nobody here
The lyrics of Hayley Kiyoko’s song, “Mercy/Gatekeeper,” describe the singer’s struggles with anxiety and depression. The song speaks to the experience of feeling trapped by one's own thoughts, unable to escape one's mind, and desperately searching for someone to offer understanding and support. Kiyoko laments being unable to create new dreams, even in her sleep, and feeling lost and alone while the rest of the city sleeps. She reaches out for help but feels frustrated that no one seems to truly understand the extent of her pain.
Kiyoko then turns to a coping mechanism, having just dyed her hair as war paint to give her the strength she needs to face the world. She admits that she tries to block out noise and any distractions that mess with her emotions, but admits that staying quiet is not always the best solution. Despite all of her struggles, she asserts that she has the power to take control of her life and keep her soul pure. Kiyoko not only wants mercy, but she realizes that she needs to be the “gatekeeper” of her life in order to experience true freedom.
Line by Line Meaning
When the city sleeps, I'm awake
I struggle to sleep when the city is at rest
Caught up in the dreams, I can't create
I struggle to invent inspiring concepts when I am fixated with realities I despise
Locked up in my mind, I can't escape
I feel trapped by my own thoughts and don't know how to break free
There's nothing I could do but wait
I don't know how to change my current situation but hope things will get better over time
I call you crying 'cause it's too much pain
I reach out to you when I am in agony and need support
I can tell you don't get it
I sense that you can't fully understand what I'm going through
'Cause you tell me that everything will be okay
You try to comfort me with words of hope that don't ease my pain
All I wanna do is cry
My emotions are too much for me to handle, and all I can do is cry
Bang my head, until I start to fly
I try to distract myself from my pain by banging my head and losing myself in the moment
Baby, I just dyed my hair
I made a physical change to my appearance as a way to feel different and in control
To make me feel like I don't care
I want to create an outer appearance that reflects my inner emotions of not caring
It'll be my war paint
My new look is a way to prepare for battle and give me strength to face my struggles
'Cause Lord knows I need strength, I need strength
I need to feel empowered to overcome the obstacles I'm facing
Mondays might be alright
Certain days may be less challenging than others
And Sundays will probably hurt
Other days are likely to be more difficult emotionally
'Cause when your mouth starts moving with the noise
I get overwhelmed and can't process information when there is too much external stimulation
I don't hear a single word
I can't concentrate and miss the meaning behind what is being said
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
I'm in a lot of pain and need compassion
Stuck in the traffic that's racing in my mind
My thoughts are chaotic and overwhelming
Blankets of wool just to cover up my eyes
I want to hide from the reality of my situation by closing my eyes and shutting out the world
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
I need to find peace and stillness within myself
And I know what I need, what I need is hiding
I know where to find what I need within myself, but it's hard to access
I'm just a face, someone passing on the street
I feel insignificant and unnoticed by the world
Paint on a smile so that no one ever sees
I wear a facade of happiness to hide my inner pain from others
Talk to you, they all talk to you, oh, oh, oh
People try to offer advice to me, but it's not always helpful
It's easier for me to stay quiet (Talk to you, they all talk to you)
I'd rather keep my feelings to myself than risk being misunderstood or hurt by others' judgment
And not speak a word
I choose to stay silent instead of sharing my thoughts and feelings
For if I do, then the truth might emerge
I fear that speaking the truth will expose me and make me vulnerable
They are my emotions to feel
I own my own feelings and am responsible for processing them
Nobody can poison my feelings if they're never revealed
I protect myself from being hurt by keeping my feelings guarded
I'll watch others live in loudness
I observe others living their lives more boldly and outspokenly than I do
And I'll destroy the chaos in my way
I'll find a way to overcome the confusion and turmoil in my mind
I have the control
I choose how to react to and deal with my circumstances
If I keep what's mine, I can have the purest soul
If I hold onto my own emotions and thoughts, I can have more clarity and inner peace
And live with content, free from fear
I can find happiness and security by not allowing fear to dictate my actions and decisions
I choose my actions
I am responsible for the way I respond to my circumstances
I'm the gatekeeper
I have the power to control my own mind and emotions
Don't let me die with my soul in the air
I don't want to leave this world feeling incomplete or unfulfilled
Don't let me die when there's nobody here
I hope to have companionship and comfort to support me as I face life's challenges
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Songtrust Ave, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: Brandi Nicole Flores, Cecil Bernardy, Hayley Kiyoko Alcroft, Jonathan Dorr
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Reba Roy
While the city sleeps, I'm awake
Caught up in the dreams, I can't create
While the city sleeps, I'm awake
Locked up in my mind, I can't escape
There's nothing I can do but wait
I call you crying 'cause it's too much pain
I can tell you don't get it
'Cause you tell me that everything will be okay
All I wanna do is cry
That's all I wanna do
All I wanna do is cry
Band my head, until I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Baby, I just died my hair
To make me feel like I don't care
It'll be my war paint
'Cause Lord knows I need strength, I need strength
Mondays might be alright
And Sundays will probably hurt
'Cause when your mouth starts moving with the noise
I don't hear a single word
All I wanna do is cry
That's all I wanna do
All I wanna do is cry
Band my head, until I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
I watch the sky get brighter
The lights get higher now
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
[Gatekeeper:]
Stuck in the traffic that's racing in my mind
Blankets of woe just to cover up my eyes
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
And I know what I need, what I need is hiding
I'm just a face, someone passing in the street
Paint on a smile so that no one ever sees
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
And I know what I need, what I need is hiding
Talk to me, they all talk to me, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Talk to me, they all talk to me, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
It's easy for me to stay quiet
And not speak a word
But if I do, and the truth might emerge
The mind that choose to feel
Nobody can poison my feelings if they're never revealed
I watch others live and laugh
And I'll just destroy the chaos in my way
I have the control
So I keep what's mine, I can have with your soul
And live with contempt, free from fear
I choose my actions
I'm the gatekeeper
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Don't let me down with my soul in the air
Don't let me down when there's nobody here
Stella Luna
Lyrics:
When the city sleeps, I'm awake
Caught up in the dreams, I can't create
When the city sleeps, I'm awake
Locked up in my mind, I can't escape
There's nothing I could do but wait
I call you crying 'cause it's too much pain
I can tell you don't get it
'Cause you tell me that everything will be okay
All I wanna do is cry
That's all I wanna do
All I wanna do is cry
Bang my head, until I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Baby, I just dyed my hair
To make me feel like I don't care
It'll be my war paint
'Cause Lord knows I need strength, I need strength
Mondays might be alright
And Sundays will probably hurt
'Cause when your mouth starts moving with the noise
I don't hear a single word
All I wanna do is cry
That's all I wanna do
All I wanna do is cry
Bang my head, until I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
Bang, bang, I start to fly
I watch the sky get brighter
The lights get higher now
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Stuck in the traffic that's racing in my mind
Blankets of wool just to cover up my eyes
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
And I know what I need, what I need is hiding
I'm just a face, someone passing on the street
Paint on a smile so that no one ever sees
'Cause what I need, what I need is quiet
And I know what I need, what I nees hiding
Talk to you, they all talk to you, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Talk to you, we all talk to you, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
It's easier for me to stay quiet (Talk to you, they all talk to you)
And not speak a word
For if I do, then the truth might emerge
They are my emotions to feel
Nobody can poison my feelings if they're never revealed
I'll watch others live in loudness
And I'll destroy the chaos in my way
I have the control
If I keep what's mine, I can have the purest soul
And live with content, free from fear
I choose my actions
I'm the gatekeeper
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Just give me mercy 'cause I keep hurting, hurting
Hurting, hurting
Don't let me die with my soul in the air
Don't let me die when there's nobody here
iPerol
This is one of the best on the album 💜
Claudio Martinez
Te amo! ♥️
certified gay
"nobody can poison my feelings if they are never revealed"
korus
certified gay that hit hard
catherine sucher
"all I wanna do is cry" BITCH ME TOO THIS ALBUM REALLY GIT NE IN NY FEELINGS
Bingus34
@__ bang bang, I start to fly
Neinsmin
Protect Hayley at all costs please ever.
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ItsJasmin K shes too precious
Nigga No
If you do the math, Hayley Kiyoko is Jesus
Claire-Marie H
LEsbian Jesus!