me and my
Heavenly Lyrics


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I hear string in songs when they're not there
I see things in darkness when I'm scared
I feel cold out when it's sunny

Make a joke and laugh about it
Feel like you're a moving target
Wish all this had never started
Cut my hair and then I cut my skin
Hurt myself instead of hurting him
Feels like it's a nightmare I'm in

Say one thing and think another
Stay in bed 'cause you're not bothered
Pray that it will soon be over

He told you that he loved you he'd stay with you
Oh you're a fool
Don't believe what people say they never stay anyway

He kissed me and then he stayed the night
I can't see that things could work out right
Seems as if I'll mess up some way

Hold his hand the world seems all new
Understand things when he's near you
Now he's gone it all seems untrue

He left her he said he cared that he'd be there
When you're scared
(Dont believe what those people say it's lies anyway)

I don't think they will/ I just can't sit still
Funny kind of ill/ Idon't wanna think about it
Showed me that your love/ but it's not enough
I can't ever trust/ I don't wanna think about it
You're there by my side/ then I asked you why
Could it be you lied?/ I don't wanna think about it.

My phone rings but there's no one there (hello?)
All my dreams have vanished in thin air
Was it real when you said you'd care

Once you kissed or did you dream it?
Bought a gift but he's not seen it
How'd you know he didn't mean it?

When he's gone it all goes wrong
Smashed up your home now you're alone

All of what you said/ goes round in my head
When I lie in bed/ I don't wanna think about it
I'm too paranoid/ you could get annoyed/
So did other boys/ I don't wanna think about it.




Heard it all before/ gets to be a bore
God my head is sore/ I don't wanna think about it

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Heavenly's song Me and My Madness delve into the mind of someone struggling with their own thoughts and emotions. The references to hearing music strings where there are none and seeing things in darkness evoke a sense of surrealism and disorientation. The singer is plagued by a sense of malaise and detachment; they are cold when it's sunny and wish all of it never started.


The song then transitions to the singer's relationship struggles. They cut themselves instead of hurting their partner and feel like they're stuck in a nightmare. The singer oscillates between being in denial and being bitter - they make jokes about their situation while praying for it to be over. The singer expresses skepticism towards their partner's intentions and wonders if they really care about them.


The song's bridge contrasts the sense of security the singer feels when their partner is near with the emptiness they feel when they're gone, a feeling that is accentuated by the smashing of their home. The singer is left ruminating on their thoughts, wishing they didn't have to think about them but also paranoid that they might get annoyed if they voice their thoughts.


Overall, the song encapsulates the sense of being trapped in one's own thoughts and struggling with relationships. The surreal imagery and disjointed structure of the song lend to the sense of detachment and disorientation.


Line by Line Meaning

I hear string in songs when they're not there
I'm hallucinating and hearing things that aren't really there


I see things in darkness when I'm scared
When I get scared, my mind plays tricks on me and I see things that aren't really there


I feel cold out when it's sunny
I feel disconnected from reality and everything around me


Make a joke and laugh about it
I use humor to cope with difficult situations and pain


Feel like you're a moving target
I feel like I'm constantly being chased or attacked


Wish all this had never started
I regret the events that have led up to my current situation


Cut my hair and then I cut my skin
I hurt myself as a way to cope with emotional pain and distress


Hurt myself instead of hurting him
I hurt myself instead of lashing out at the person who caused me pain


Feels like it's a nightmare I'm in
My life feels like a bad dream that I can't escape


Say one thing and think another
I'm not always truthful about how I feel or what I think


Stay in bed 'cause you're not bothered
I feel apathetic and don't have the motivation to get out of bed


Pray that it will soon be over
I hope that my pain and suffering will come to an end soon


He told you that he loved you he'd stay with you
Someone promised to love and support me through difficult times


Oh you're a fool
But I was naive and foolish to believe them


Don't believe what people say they never stay anyway
I've been hurt before and I don't trust that people will keep their promises


He kissed me and then he stayed the night
I had an intimate moment with someone


I can't see that things could work out right
But I'm not sure if it will turn into a long-term, healthy relationship


Seems as if I'll mess up some way
I'm worried that I'll make a mistake and ruin everything


Hold his hand the world seems all new
Being in love makes everything feel different and magical


Understand things when he's near you
I feel like I have better clarity and perspective when I'm with him


Now he's gone it all seems untrue
But now that he's gone, everything seems like a lie


He left her he said he cared that he'd be there
The person who I trusted and relied on left me, even though they promised to be there for me


When you're scared
When I'm in need of help or support


(Dont believe what those people say it's lies anyway)
But I no longer trust anyone's words or promises


I don't think they will/ I just can't sit still
I don't think things will work out, and I'm too restless to sit still and wait for things to happen


Funny kind of ill/ Idon't wanna think about it
I'm struggling with my mental health, but I don't want to face it or talk about it


Showed me that your love/ but it's not enough
Someone expressed their love to me, but it doesn't feel like enough to heal my wounds


I can't ever trust/ I don't wanna think about it
I struggle to trust anyone and I don't want to think about being hurt again


You're there by my side/ then I asked you why
Someone was there to support me, and I questioned why they would bother


Could it be you lied?/ I don't wanna think about it.
I worry that they didn't actually mean what they said and I don't want to consider that possibility


My phone rings but there's no one there (hello?)
I feel like I'm being ignored or forgotten


All my dreams have vanished in thin air
The things I hoped for and dreamed of are no longer within reach


Was it real when you said you'd care
I question whether anyone truly cares about me


Once you kissed or did you dream it?
I'm not sure if the good moments I had were even real


Bought a gift but he's not seen it
I tried to do something nice for someone, but they didn't appreciate it


How'd you know he didn't mean it?
I question whether people's words and actions are authentic


When he's gone it all goes wrong
Without him, everything feels like it's falling apart


Smashed up your home now you're alone
I am left with nothing and no one, and my world feels destroyed


All of what you said/ goes round in my head
I can't stop thinking about all the things that were said and done


When I lie in bed/ I don't wanna think about it
It's hard to escape my thoughts, even when I try to sleep


I'm too paranoid/ you could get annoyed
I'm overly anxious and worried about pushing people away


So did other boys/ I don't wanna think about it.
I've been hurt before by other people, and I don't want to go through that again


Heard it all before/ gets to be a bore
I've been through similar experiences so many times that it's hard to find hope or motivation


God my head is sore/ I don't wanna think about it
All of these thoughts are overwhelming and causing me pain




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Comments from YouTube:

@traciesgoldenlife

I'm not a religious person Robert but let me say THIS just blessed my soul!!!!! I grew up in a Pentecostal household and my mom loved the Canton Spirituals. I truly thank you for bringing it this morning. I'm sending you and your dad an ABUNDANCE of peace, blessings, good health, wealth, success, love and happiness your way!!!! ๐ŸคŽโœจ๐Ÿ”ฅโ˜€

@stayon6657

Cherish those moments that your able to sing with your father. Can't get those days back once they're gone. My Dad is 94 years old and i still love to sing & harmonize with him every chance I get. Latruth whatever you are doing keep doing it, you're looking good sir ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ฏ

@brandydavis6782

What a blessing to have your dad at 94yrs old. I miss my dad, he passed at a 53yrs old. I was in my teens. Cherish the moments with your dadโ™ฅ๏ธ

@shelly6857

This is so touching and made me ๐Ÿ˜ขโคโคโค

@stayon6657

@Brandy Davis ๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ™๐ŸฝI'm so sorry for your loss ๐Ÿ’” thank you so much, everytime I see him my heart smiles over and over and over. He's a 2 time cancer survivor, had major surgery in his 80's
He kicked cancers butt, not a drop in site and he's been getting arround eversince, sometimes better than me lol๐Ÿ˜„ I love him soooo much. Thank you for your reply , Muchluv2u ๐Ÿ’•

@cathywalker5884

Wow your father hit that note, both of you have beautiful voicesโ€ผ๏ธYall did that๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

@RapFanatic4ever

We need them on a record together

@ninaedwards1557

Your father can absolutely sing I see where you get your singing talent from

@RapFanatic4ever

Like father like son

@joycemoses6214

Daddy has a beautiful voice...SIGN HIM

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