Complicated
Heavens to Betsy Lyrics

I don't know how to be good to you
I'm struggling with treating you the way you deserve.

You're too close and you know it too
Our relationship is too intense and we're both feeling overwhelmed.

Nobody has a good enough excuse
We both know we're not treating each other well, and there's no justification.

I'm just fucked up and so are you
We both have issues that make connecting difficult.

I love you so much you could hurt me
My feelings for you are so strong that you have the power to cause me pain.

So I do it first so you won't see me
To protect myself, I hurt you before you can hurt me.

Laugh it off and I don't feel it
I use humor to disguise how much your actions affect me.

Hard as rocks and nails underneath
My outward appearance is tough, but inside I'm hurting.

Hardly anyone is sincere
I have trouble believing that anyone truly cares about me.

All I know is anger that is real
My anger is one of the few emotions I feel strongly and believe is genuine.

I barely know how true goodness feels
I struggle to recognize and express genuine kindness and compassion.

I don't even know how to feel
I'm confused and overwhelmed by my emotions.

I know I built walls all around
I've put up emotional barriers to protect myself.

I'm begging you to knock them down
I want to let you in, but I need you to help me break down my defenses.

But yours are just as big and mean as mine
You're also guarded and defensive, which makes it difficult for us to connect.

Tight defenses and we draw the line
Our protective walls are preventing us from being vulnerable and truly connecting.

If you want to go, just go
I'm afraid of losing you, but I don't want to hold you back from finding happiness.

I'll watch you walk away
I'll have to accept the pain of watching you leave.

I don't care if you go
I'm trying to convince myself that I'll be okay if you leave, even though I know it's not true.

I'll die if you go
The thought of losing you is unbearable and I feel like I'll never recover.

Stop everything
Our current dynamic is unsustainable and we need to make a change.

Stop all these fucked up games
Our relationship has become toxic, and we need to stop playing manipulative mind games with each other.

Promise me we'll be good to each other
I want us to commit to treating each other with kindness and respect.

Promise me, I need it signed, sealed, delivered
I need reassurance that you're truly committed to making our relationship work.

Or my heart will break
If things don't change, I know I'll end up devastated and heartbroken.

My pride isn't worth it
I'm willing to set aside my ego and vulnerability to make this relationship work.

Help me this is hurting
I'm in pain and struggling, and I need your help to make things better.

Super girl
I've been trying to be strong and put on a brave face, but I know it's not sustainable.

She isn't real
The image of myself as a superhero is a facade, and I need to acknowledge my own vulnerability.

I can't fly all alone
I need support and connection from others to truly thrive.

I can't even get off the ground
I feel stuck and stagnant, unable to make progress on my own.

I don't know what else to say
I feel like I've reached the limit of my ability to communicate and express myself.

I don't want to push you away
I'm afraid that my own issues will drive you away, even though I don't want that to happen.

I need your help today
I'm reaching out and asking for your support and understanding right now.

I can't get off the ground today
Today is a particularly difficult day for me, and I need your assistance to help me rise above it.