In 2012 De Heidjeroosjes played their Farewell Tour. After the last show in De Melkweg the band stopped playing after 23 years
SUICIDE
Heideroosjes Lyrics
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From a boat, for a truck, out a plane
In your bed, in your room, under a tree
In a lake, in a bath, into sea
By a sword, by a rope or gasoline
By a knife, by a raiser or machine
Suicide is in the air I can commit it everywhere
Make sure I've nothing forgotten
I will leave a note behind
Maybe someone will remind
I'm down, depressed and I'm feeling alone
This pain inside hurts me till the bone
I'm scared to die, I wanna life forever
Asking questions but find the answer never
Behind the doors of death is no return
My soul is gone, my body will burn
I just like to sit and cry all day long
But I have work to do because now I'm young
Suicide, I think it's no alternative
Because I've a dream, a dream for which I live
But dreams can be broken or may not come true
That's the end of my story, nothing more to do
The lyrics to Heideroosjes's song Suicide delve into the topic of suicidal thoughts and the various means by which one can end their life. The song explores the pervasive nature of suicide, as it contemplates the possibility of taking one's own life from a bridge, a roof, a train, a boat, a truck, a plane, a bed, a room, a tree, a lake, a bath, or into the sea. It examines the different methods that can be used such as a sword, a rope, gas, a knife, a razor, or a machine.
The refrain "suicide is in the air, I can commit it everywhere" reflects the idea that suicide is prevalent and omnipresent, and the singer contemplates leaving a note behind for someone to find after they're gone. Despite the temptation to end their life, the singer is simultaneously struggling with depression and a fear of death. They acknowledge that death marks an irrevocable end, with no return from the metaphorical doors of death.
The song balances the desire to end one's life with the presence of a dream, one that the singer is living for, but with the acknowledgment that dreams can be shattered or left unfulfilled, so the end of one's story may come prematurely.
Line by Line Meaning
From a Bridge, from a roof, for a train
The first line describes various places and ways someone could commit suicide.
From a boat, for a truck, out a plane
More ways and places someone could commit suicide.
In your bed, in your room, under a tree
More potential locations for someone to take their life.
In a lake, in a bath, into sea
Various methods someone could use to take their life.
By a sword, by a rope or gasoline
Descriptions of different methods of suicide.
By a knife, by a raiser or machine
More descriptions of different methods of suicide.
Suicide is in the air I can commit it everywhere
The singer feels surrounded by death, and sees potential for suicide no matter where they go.
Leave this world that is totally rotten
The artist is unhappy with the current state of the world and wants to escape it.
Make sure I've nothing forgotten
The artist wants to tie up loose ends before they commit suicide.
I will leave a note behind
The artist plans to explain their reasons for taking their own life.
Maybe someone will remind
The singer hopes that someone might learn from their experience and be discouraged from committing suicide themselves.
I'm down, depressed and I'm feeling alone
The artist is struggling with mental health issues and feels isolated.
This pain inside hurts me till the bone
The emotional pain is overwhelming and all-consuming.
I'm scared to die, I wanna life forever
Despite the singer's pain, they are still afraid of death and wish they could live forever.
Asking questions but find the answer never
The singer is searching for answers or solutions, but feels like they can never find them.
Behind the doors of death is no return
Once someone takes their own life, they can never come back from it.
My soul is gone, my body will burn
The artist believes that after death, their soul will be gone and their body will be cremated.
I just like to sit and cry all day long
The singer is struggling with depression and spends a lot of time crying.
But I have work to do because now I'm young
Despite their struggles, the singer still has responsibilities and goals to work towards because they are young.
Suicide, I think it's no alternative
The artist believes that suicide is not a viable solution to their problems.
Because I've a dream, a dream for which I live
The artist has a dream or goal that gives them hope and motivation to keep going.
But dreams can be broken or may not come true
Despite their dream, the artist recognizes that it may not come to fruition, and this realization adds to their emotional pain.
That's the end of my story, nothing more to do
The singer feels hopeless and like there is no way out of their current situation.
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