Lost
Helena Mayer Lyrics
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They were feelin′ too strong
Was afraid of the ceilin'
At least the floor wasn′t wrong
And I tried to stuff em down, but that wasn't viable
But now I never can find 'em
Knockin′ down every door
Checkin under the mattress
Yea I tried to stuff em down but that ain′t advisable
I gave in to what you wanted me to be
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
Gonna make me spell it out
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
Oh, oh, oh, oh ooh
I kept on changing the meaning
Losing identity
In my head I was screaming
Cause I felt incomplete
Yea I tried to stuff em down now Im certifiable
Feelin' like I played a part and never noticed yea
Its like its time to cut it off the credits rolling yea
Can′t explain how I feel but the difference is sizable
I gave into what you wanted me to be
Oh what you wanted me to be
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
Gonna make me spell it out
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
Oh, oh, oh, oh ooh
I was, I was, I was lost yea
I was, I was, I was lost yea
I was, I was, I was lost yea, aye
I was, I was, I was lost yea
I was, I was, I was lost yea, I was lost yea
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost, i was, I was lost yea
I was lost yea, i was, I was lost yea
Helena Mayer's "Lost" is a song that delves into the struggles of self-identity and the fear of embracing one's emotions. In the beginning of the song, Mayer admits to being afraid of her feelings because they were becoming too strong to handle. She was also afraid of the ceiling, but at least the floor wasn't wrong. Though she tried to repress them, she ultimately cannot find them, causing her to feel lost and incomplete. She searches for her feelings everywhere, including under the mattress where she used to put them before. Mayer reveals that she gave in to what someone wanted her to be, losing her identity and constantly changing her meaning. This decision made her feel like she was playing a part in her life without ever noticing it.
The chorus of the song is a repetitive confession of her being lost. Mayer emphasizes her uncertainty and confusion by repeating the same phrase over and over again. She admits that she was lost in trying to be what someone else wanted her to be. In the later part of the song, Mayer expresses the feeling of being incomplete and screaming in her head. She explains that she tried to repress them, but now she can't. Mayer confesses that she was lost and the experience was powerful enough to make her question her ability to make decisions.
Interesting facts about Helena Mayer's "Lost" include:
Line by Line Meaning
Was afraid of my feelings
I was scared of my emotions
They were feelin' too strong
They were too intense for me to handle
Was afraid of the ceilin'
I was scared of the possibilities
At least the floor wasn't wrong
At least I had solid ground
And I tried to stuff em down, but that wasn't viable
I tried to suppress my feelings but it wasn't sustainable
But now I never can find 'em
Now I can't locate my emotions
Knockin' down every door
Searching everywhere
Checkin under the mattress
Looking in every possible place
Where I put them before
Where I thought I had hidden them
Yea I tried to stuff em down but that ain't advisable
I tried to suppress my emotions but it's not a good idea
I gave in to what you wanted me to be
I surrendered to your desires for me
I kept on changing the meaning
I continued altering my identity
Losing identity
Becoming unrecognizable to myself
In my head I was screaming
Internally I was shouting
Cause I felt incomplete
Because I felt like something was missing
Yea I tried to stuff em down now Im certifiable
I tried to suppress my emotions but now it's apparent I need help
Feelin' like I played a part and never noticed yea
Feeling like I was acting and it went unnoticed
Its like its time to cut it off the credits rolling yea
It feels like the end of a movie and time to wrap things up
Can't explain how I feel but the difference is sizable
I can't describe how I feel but the change is significant
Oh what you wanted me to be
Oh, who you wished for me to become
I was, I was, I was lost yea
I was directionless
I was lost yea, I was, I was lost yea
I was truly lost
Gonna make me spell it out
I need to be explicit
Oh, oh, oh, oh ooh
Vocalization
Writer(s): Helena Mayer
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