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HellHeart Lyrics

I tried moving forward...
I attempted to progress and leave my past behind...

But you keep pulling me back
However, you consistently drag me back into old patterns and memories.

You will never know what it took just to get to where I am
You can never comprehend the struggles and sacrifices I made to reach my current state.

I've learned from a world of mistakes to escape who I was back then
I have gained wisdom from numerous errors that helped me break free from my former self.

I never claimed to be a saint when all I am is built up from broken
I have never pretended to be perfect; my identity has been shaped by my past hardships.

There's too much at stake
There is a lot to risk and lose in this ongoing battle.

And no high road to take
There is no straightforward or honorable path available to navigate this situation.

So I'm swinging low again
So I am resorting to lower tactics to protect myself once more.

I tried to rise
I attempted to elevate myself above my circumstances.

While you're sinking low
While you are descending into negativity and maliciousness.

When it's all said and done
Ultimately, after everything has unfolded.

You'll be forgotten
You will fade into obscurity, lost in the past.

I never wanted to be
I had no desire to become.

That person ever again
The individual I used to be, which I abhor.

But just so you know
However, it's important for you to understand.

I've got no problem burying you
I am fully prepared to erase you and our history from my life.

Go ahead, keep running your mouth
Feel free to continue speaking negatively about me.

Let all that bile flow out
Allow all your bitterness and venom to be expressed.

Gonna tear apart every lie you've spread
I will dismantle and expose every falsehood you have told.

And see where your darkness comes from
And reveal the origins of your own negativity.

I really wish that I was the monster that you make me out to be
I almost wish I could fit the villainous image you project onto me.

Now it's time to wake
It is now the moment for realization and awareness.

What I once escaped
To confront the identity I previously fled from.

So lets this rage run free
I am ready to unleash my pent-up anger without restraint.

I wont
I refuse to.

Let you get the best of
Allow you to dominate or control.

Who I'm trying to be
The person I aspire to become.

Let's see the monster
Let's reveal the true creature within.

That you unleashed!
That you have provoked and brought forth in me!

I never wanted to be
Again, I lacked the desire to be.

That person ever again
The version of myself I detest.

But just so you know
Yet you should be aware.

I've got no problem burying you
I am very willing to remove you from memory.

Never wanted to be
I consistently did not wish to be.

That person ever again
The individual I used to embody.

But just so you know
However, it's crucial for you to realize.

I've got no problem burying you
I have no qualms about erasing you from existence.

I will bury every memory of you!
I will eradicate all traces of you from my mind!

I will bury every memory of you!
I am determined to eliminate every thought related to you!

I will bury every memory of you!
I will ensure that every recollection of you is erased!

I will bury every memory of you!
I intend to obliterate all memories of you!

I never wanted
I have never wished.

To be that person
To revert to that version of myself.

And now...
And at this moment...

I will bury every memory of you
I will decisively eradicate all memories associated with you.