SUICIDE
Hex Rated Lyrics

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I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in
I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this build up while it's coroded?
I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in
I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this build up while it's coroded?
I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless

I'm at the end of my road I got no hope left
This life is a test I failed with an F
Grab the rope, what's next?
Rigor mortis, I'm a corpse and I was born for this death
Born for this death
Slit veins, blood drips, my brain's sick shit
Everyday I wish that I didn't have this fucking kit
(?)
Suicide all the time, steady running throught my mind
Slit my wrists or stay alive?
I don't really know why I feel this way
Steady stuck in a maze like it's groundhogs day
No joy, no light, just dark like night
I'm killing everybody and I'm psych, I might write rhymes to the rhythm and end my life
End your life?
I think I might, think I might try suicide
Suicide?
Yeah that's tight, no more pain, no more life
I could end it all in just one night
With a razor blade or a shotgun blast

Shotgun blast?

Yeah that's right, 'ey yo Blizz record this shit
(Spoken)

Fuck this, fuck music, I'm out

Where's my fucking gun, fuck it!

(Cocks gun)

No! Holy- No! (Screams)

I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in

I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this build up while it's coroded?

I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in

I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this build up while it's coroded?
I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless

Is it really worth it to be staying alive?
Same question everyday when I open my eyes
I would rather sleep, than to summon great life
Lately I'm not even motivated to write
Not myself, locked away tight
Not so well, hate seeing the good die
Can't say that I've been having a good time
Everyday I wish that me and them could've traded sides

Time won't fix this, it won't take me away from the pain inside
But I got an idea, maybe drink an iodide
And go back to having bottles of formaldehyde

But there's one thing holding me back
How am I supposed to tell my friends and family goodbye?
Leave a rotting corpse in my closet for my homies to find? What a delight
Sobbing faces, reading some note explaining my suicide

Or should I just dissapear, and leave the explanation to the minds?
Ah fuck it, they probably wouldn't even notice I was gone for atleast five nights
I think sometimes Imma fall asleep and never wake up, the minute after I close my eyes

Well surprise, you're still here
Dammit Hex you're so right
Eat this razor have no fear

That's the spirit homie, bleed it out, split intestines
With hopes to die, mama don't cry
But I'm saying goodnight, cause I'll be gone before you can say a word
I'll be dead before this day turns to night

I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in
I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this build up while it's coroded?
I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in
I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
Why would I live with this build up while it's coroded?
I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
Yo, lately I've just been so fucking depressed that every night I have these fucked up dreams
I just go to the studio and then in the middle of the recording I just pull out a fucking shotgun and just blow my brains all over the roof
Yeah tha-that's pretty fucked up man
I know right? I should probably do something about it
I've been thinking of going to get some therapy, what do you think?
Yeah it might work, I got a counselour lately
Really?
Yeah, it's been doing really good

Fuck, all right Imma go and get some therapy, yo peace out
(Fade out from left to right)

Overall Meaning

The song "Suicide" by Hex Rated is a powerful expression of the artist's inner turmoil and struggle with the idea of taking his own life. The opening lines evoke a sense of numbness and despair, with the artist wishing to "breathe smoke" and take it all in, implying a desire to be consumed by this feeling. The repetition of the line "I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison" hints at the artist's loss of faith and increasing sense of hopelessness. The artist questions why he would continue to live with this inner corrosion, suggesting that suicide may seem like a viable option.

The second part of the song describes the artist's increasing fascination with self-harm and suicide, with references to self-harm methods such as slit veins and using a razor blade or shotgun blast. He questions whether he should choose to end his life or continue on in his pain, remarking that he could "end it all in just one night." The artist speaks of his fear of leaving his friends and family behind, but also acknowledges that he may simply choose to disappear and let them draw their own conclusions. The song ultimately ends on a somber note, with the artist expressing his deep sense of depression and his resolve to seek therapy in order to regain his mental health and stability.

Line by Line Meaning

I wanna breathe smoke and take it all in
I want to take a moment to indulge in all the darkness around me

I used to have hopes, now I'm filled with poison
I used to be optimistic, but now I'm consumed by toxic thoughts and feelings

Why would I live with this build up while it's corroded?
Why should I continue to live with all the mental and emotional damage that's eating away at me?

I stand with my head in my hands I'm thinking life is hopeless
I feel overwhelmed with despair and my life seems futile

Is it really worth it to be staying alive?
I question whether continuing to live is worthwhile

Same question everyday when I open my eyes
This thought plagues my mind every single day

I would rather sleep, than to summon great life
I'd rather be unconscious than face the harsh realities of life

Lately I'm not even motivated to write
I've lost all inspiration and have no desire to create

How am I supposed to tell my friends and family goodbye?
The thought of leaving my loved ones behind is too difficult to bear

Sobbing faces, reading some note explaining my suicide
I can't imagine the pain my family and friends would go through if I were to take my own life and leave a note behind

But there's one thing holding me back
The fear of leaving my loved ones behind is the only thing preventing me from ending my life

I think sometimes Imma fall asleep and never wake up
The idea of dying peacefully in my sleep appeals to me

With hopes to die, mama don't cry
I hope to die, but I don't want my mother to suffer because of it

Yeah tha-that's pretty fucked up man
Even the singer's friend agrees that their thoughts are disturbing

I've been thinking of going to get some therapy, what do you think?
The singer is considering seeking professional help for their mental health struggles

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