Lydia
HighlySuspect Lyrics

Black ocean, cold and dark
The singer describes a dark, cold ocean.

I am the hungry shark, fast and merciless
The singer compares themselves to a shark, aggressive and without mercy.

But the only girl that could talk to him just couldn't swim
The girl the singer loved was the only person who could understand them, but she was unable to survive in the ocean.

Tell me what's worse than this
The artist asks for something even worse than their current situation.

And it echoes in the halls
The memories of the lost love haunt the artist's mind.

They danced along the walls
The memories of the lost love are pervasive and impactful.

The memories of your ghost
The singer remembers their lost love as if they were a ghost.

You are the one that I used to love
The artist was once in love with the lost girl.

And I'm still in love, but I've never loved you the most
The artist remains in love with the lost girl, but they have never been their most important love.

I've seen better days
The artist has experienced happier times.

So unafraid in my youth
The singer was more confident and brave when they were younger.

I can't breathe, much less believe
The artist feels suffocated and unable to trust in their current circumstance.

You're getting everything you had
The lost girl is receiving all the things the singer once had.

Every little thing you had
The lost girl is even being given the small things that once belonged to the singer.

I'm gonna run repairs
The singer decides to fix themselves and move forward.

I've seen your fucking worst
The artist has seen the lost girl at their worst.

And at your worst, you're still the best
Even at their worst, the lost girl is still important to the artist.

But at my best, I am the worst
The singer acknowledges that they can be their own worst enemy even at their best.

It's a curse
The singer feels cursed or doomed to fail.

Your eyes are lined in pain
The lost girl's eyes show the pain they feel.

Black tears don't hide in rain
Tears of pain are visible even in the rain.

And I tied you to the tracks
The artist feels responsible for the lost girl's pain and struggles.

When I turned around, I heard the sound
The singer hears a sound that suggests something terrible has happened, likely because of their actions.

I hit the ground, I know there's no turning back
The artist understands that their actions have consequences and they cannot undo what has been done.

What's worse is all the coke
The singer is struggling with addiction to cocaine.

The ice that numbs my throat if only for the night
The cocaine briefly numbs the singer's pain and allows them to forget for a while.

My muscles will contract, your bones will crack
The singer is aggressive and violent while under the influence of cocaine.

It's just a fact cause I am here to win this fight
The artist is determined to overcome their struggles with addiction and emerge victorious.

I can't fucking breathe, much less believe the truth
The artist is overwhelmed by their situation and cannot even bring themselves to believe in the reality of it.

I pick up a mag, aim for this head, and shoot
The singer contemplates suicide as a way out of their struggles.

Your eyes are lined in pain
The lost girl's pain is still haunting the singer.

Black tears don't hide in rain
Tears of pain are still visible even now.

And I tied you to the tracks
The artist is still struggling with the guilt of their past actions.

When I turned around, I heard that sound
The lost girl may still be suffering because of the artist's past mistakes.