Chicago
Highly Suspect Lyrics

Why am I fucking up so bad?
The singer questions his actions and behavior, acknowledging that he is not doing the right thing.

What am I even doing?
The singer is unsure of his actions and decisions, not knowing if he is doing the right thing or not.

When am I ever gonna learn?
The singer acknowledges that he has made mistakes in the past and is wondering when he will be able to learn from them.

What it is she already knows
The artist is reflecting on what his partner already knows about him and his bad behavior.

Baby, I met you in downtown Chicago
The artist is recalling the moment when he met his partner.

But I, I had to drive away the very next day
Despite having a connection with his partner, the singer was forced to leave very soon after they met.

So I, flew your pretty ass to New York City
The singer reflects on a time when he flew his partner to NYC.

Then I, I left you in L.A
Despite having a connection with his partner, the artist left her in Los Angeles.

Was it love?
The artist wonders if what he felt for his partner was true love.

Or my fantasy?
The artist questions if his feelings were based on a fantasy or an unrealistic idea of love.

Was it real?
The singer questions the authenticity of their relationship.

Or just a dream?
The artist wonders if the connection he felt with his partner was simply a dream and not based in reality.

Remember one night getting too fucked up in the Hamptons at Tom's
The singer reminisces about a time when he got drunk with his partner in the Hamptons.

I fell off his bike, and girl, you laughed at me so hard
The singer recalls a particular instance when his partner laughed at him after he fell off a bike.

Spent a whole week getting drunk on the dunes of Cape Cod, that's when you met my father
The singer shares a memory of when his partner spent time with his father.

'Cause sometimes you get so angry
The artist acknowledges that his partner can get angry with him.

And I take it personal
The artist takes his partner's anger personally, feeling hurt by their words or actions.

And I should've known
The singer reflects on the fact that he should have known better.

That you were only hurting
The singer realizes that his partner's anger is a reflection of their own pain.

'Cause life can be uncertain
The artist acknowledges that life is unpredictable and can be difficult to navigate.

When you're only 19 years old
The artist reflects on the youth and inexperience of his partner.

So it's another late night out here in California
The artist is reflecting on his current state, being in California.

And I'm, I'm burying my pain into somebody else
The singer is engaging in self-destructive behavior.

And now you're back at home living with your mama
The artist acknowledges that his partner has moved back home with her mother.

Got my first record sitting on your shelf
Despite their separation, the singer's partner still has his first record.

Was it real?
The singer questions the authenticity of their relationship.

Or just a dream?
The singer wonders if the connection he felt with his partner was simply a dream and not based in reality.

Was it love?
The artist wonders if what he felt for his partner was true love.

Or my fantasy?
The artist questions if his feelings were based on a fantasy or an unrealistic idea of love.