How many times
Hill Jordan Lyrics

You used to tell you loved me
You used to express your love for me verbally

You used to show me you cared
You used to demonstrate your care for me through your actions

I used to be the one that you adored
I used to be the person who you loved and respected above everyone else

But lately I don't feel you love me anymore
Recently, I have sensed a lack of love from you towards me

See I don't understand
I am confused and frustrated

What's come over you
What has caused your change in behavior towards me

And I don't understand
I am still struggling to comprehend

Why I let you
Why I allowed you

Treat me so cruel, so tell me
To treat me with such harshness, please tell me

How many times, must I break down and cry
How many times do I have to feel heartbroken and cry over our relationship

I'm confused my understanding
I'm bewildered because I thought I had a true understanding of love

Was true love should never die
I thought genuine love should last forever

Will you kill me inside
Are you purposely harming and damaging my emotional well-being

Any kind of fool should see the light
Any intelligent person can see the signs that this isn't working

So why can't I
So why am I having such a hard time accepting and moving on from this

Time after time, I have tried and tried
Repeatedly, I have attempted to make this work

To give you some space, some time
To give you room to breathe and figure things out

But no matter what I do, it is never enough
Despite my efforts, they are never sufficient

You just refuse to try to do by me right
You are unwilling to make an effort to treat me fairly

Though I know I should leave
Although I am aware that leaving is the best option

There's something holding me
There's something preventing me from doing so

I can't seem to find the strength
I am struggling to gather the courage to move on

To set myself free
To break away from this toxic relationship

I gave my heart and soul
I put all of my emotions and efforts into this relationship

I gave my all you know
I put forth all of my energy, love and commitment

I deserve better baby, oh so much better baby
I merit a better relationship, one that is healthy and fulfilling, rather than being mistreated

You know it's just not fair
It is not just, or reasonable, for you to act this way towards me

For you to act like just don't care
For you to behave as if you do not care about me at all

For you to act like I've done something wrong
For you to put blame on me when I have not done anything

Boy how could you dare
How dare you treat me so poorly