Resurrection
Hodgy Lyrics

I need my support system
I rely on the people around me for help and encouragement

I need not to abort wisdom
I want to hold on to the lessons and knowledge I've gained

I need this distorted rhythm
I find comfort and solace in this chaotic and unpredictable music

What is my destiny lord?
I wonder about the path and purpose you have laid out for me, God

They say, prayer is the recipe lord
I've heard that prayer is the solution to life's challenges and problems, God

I be ready to send these niggas to visit you and they be pressing me lord
I feel prepared to confront my enemies and make them face the consequences, God

I got one goon he do it expertise lord
I have a trusted companion who can handle any task with great skill, God

I keep my son close at all times like he right next to me lord
I always protect and cherish my son, treating him as if he's right by my side, God

I gave up on you a while ago, and you still blessing me lord
I had lost faith in you in the past, but you continue to show me favor and bless me, God

You never questioned me lord
You have never doubted or interrogated my intentions and actions, God

I feel your energy lord
I sense your presence and power, God

You showed me how to forgive my family and enemies lord
You have taught me the importance of granting forgiveness to both my loved ones and those who have wronged me, God

(I hear the devil talking to me, he depend on me lord)
(I acknowledge the negative influence of the devil, who relies on me to do evil, God)

To spread evil, that's not the remedy lord
Promoting hatred and malice is not the solution, God

And it will never be lord
Spreading negativity and darkness will never bring about positive change, God

Pride I push aside and recognize the sensory, lord
I set aside my ego and acknowledge the importance of understanding and perception, God

I'm a slave to my own thoughts, no penitentiary lord
I am trapped by my own negative and self-destructive thinking, without any escape, God

We all gon' die and lie in the cemetery eventually lord
Death is inevitable for all of us, and we will end up buried in graves one day, God

You know my tendencies won't be the same when I'm 70 lord
You understand that I will change and grow as I age, God

I wanna spread positivity like it's leprosy lord
I aspire to share positivity and goodness as if it were highly contagious, God

And I thank you for the gift you've given me, that lives in me lord
I express gratitude to you for the talent and ability you have bestowed upon me, which resides within me, God

That's real
That is genuine and true

I'm thankful for my life
I appreciate and am grateful for my existence

I'm grateful
I feel thankful and appreciative

We all gon' die someday
Death is a common fate that awaits each and every one of us

That's how I've been feeling, I'll go when I'm willing
This is the current state of my emotions, I will face death on my own terms

I'm running through the building to get to the ceiling
I am determined and driven to achieve great heights and success

The devil coming and he killing my focal civilians
Evil forces are approaching and causing harm to the innocent people I care about

Praying for better days, put my hope in God willing
I am seeking and relying on God's intervention to bring about positive change and brighter future

You led me to places, thank you for taking me
You have guided and directed me to various experiences and locations, and I am grateful for that, God

I know I come off misunderstood, you haven't mistaken me
I am aware that I may appear to others as misunderstood, and I appreciate that you, God, still understand and know me

I'm already above, whether calm, collected or the crazy me
I am already elevated and superior in my thoughts and behavior, regardless of whether I am composed or acting wild

I don't wanna be a slave lord, the world is bathing in slavery
I refuse to be controlled and oppressed, God, as the world is immersed in various forms of oppression

I empty out my mental to this vacancy
I pour out my thoughts and thoughts to this empty space

My occupation's make sure my seed is taken care of and he's not hating me
My responsibility and job is to ensure the well-being of my child and make sure he doesn't grow to resent me

I was delayed for a second but never latent see
I may have experienced a temporary setback, but I am not dormant or inactive, you see

Pull up on them blatantly
I confront and approach them openly and boldly

(It's not, it's all part, it's all part of the process)
(It's not a mistake, it's all a necessary part of the journey and growth)

I know shit is getting to me
I am aware that the difficulties and challenges are affecting me emotionally

You say you hearing me out
You claim to listen and understand my perspective

But I don't believe that you hearing me fully
But I doubt if you truly grasp the depth of my feelings and thoughts

Belief, nigga sneak indiscreet
Faith and trust can sometimes deceive us, leading to careless actions

Between the sheets of life is where the beast sleep
Within the complexities and hidden aspects of life, lies the untamed and wild side of our nature

At the table of death is most likely where the beast eats
In the face of mortality, our darkest impulses and desires often emerge

Over-dosage on the beat 'til the beat no longer beats
I pour an excessive amount of myself and my emotions into this music until it becomes lifeless and loses its essence

Peskitarian fishing at an aquarium
I engage in a futile and absurd activity, like a pescetarian fishing in a confined space

Fishscale that Webster-Merriam
Words and lyrics that possess depth and meaning, like the quality of a fishscale, according to the dictionary

Deceasing bacterium on my back, that's where I carry 'em
The burdens and troubles weigh me down like harmful bacteria residing on my back

I'm letting go
I am releasing my attachments and surrendering to the flow of life

(I remember when I was your age, I wish I would've known what I know now
(I recall my younger days and wish that I had possessed the knowledge and wisdom I have acquired)

But this is just the that way life goes, it's meant for us to learn)
However, this is the natural course of life, where hardships and experiences are designed for our growth and understanding

Letting go of your promises
Releasing the expectations and commitments you made

Promises lead to consequence, when you commit to something and do the opposite
Making promises results in consequences when you go against your word and do the opposite

Sick to your stomach, you're vomiting, a Ramadan
Feeling nauseous and disgusted, like the fasting period of Ramadan

No food for children you're fathering
Failing to provide for and take care of the children you have brought into this world

The possibility of your family surviving this shit is kinda slim
The chances of your family overcoming these difficult circumstances are quite low

First place, the gold trophy, bitch I gotta win
I strive to achieve first place and win the ultimate prize, showing determination and competitiveness

Seems like that's what my only option is
It appears that winning is the only viable choice for me