Lost Boy
Hollow Front feat. Hunter Courtright of Sleep Waker Lyrics

I gave you everything
I gave you all of me

And you threw it all away
And you discarded it all

As if I meant nothing
As if I was unimportant

You're the cancer beneath my skin
You are the destructive force inside me

I swear that I'll never let you win
I promise to never let you overpower me

It just goes to show
It proves

Up is the only direction left to go
That there is only one way to go, and that is up

I've lost my mind
I am losing my sanity

Trying to find a moment in time
Trying to search for a specific time

A place where I can reconnect
A location where I can come together with myself

When I'm no longer held against my will
When I am no longer forced to stay somewhere I don't want to be

Shackled to these memories I have of you
Chained to the memories I have of you

I've lost my fucking mind
I am completely out of my mind

Searching for the reasons why I wasn't good enough
Looking for the causes of why I didn't meet your expectations

How could I be so blind?
Why couldn't I see this coming?

After all the fucking shit you put me through
Despite all the difficulties and suffering you have caused me

And now I'm six feet underground
And now I am buried in a grave

And I'm starting to drown
And I am beginning to suffocate

Beneath the weight of every mistake that I've ever made
Under the burden of every blunder I have committed

Struggling to pick up pieces
Finding it challenging to recover

As I claw my way back to the surface
As I struggle to make my way back up

Will I ever be myself again?
Will I ever go back to being the person I was?

So fucking tell me
So please tell me

Will I ever feel that safe again?
Will I ever be able to trust again?

You only have one life to live
You only get one chance to live

So make it count
So use it wisely

There's always room for second chances
You can always try again

Just gotta learn to pick yourself back up
Just need to learn to recover after getting knocked down

This is the path that I've chosen
This is the road that I have taken

And I refuse to be one of the broken
And I am unwilling to be one of the defeated

A generation of damaged souls
A group of people whose spirits are wounded

We are the lost
We are the ones who are lost

We are the broke and unsettled
We are the ones who are financially and emotionally unstable

Hide behind the words you won't say to me
Conceal the things you refuse to express to me

Try and erase memories I can't escape
Attempt to eliminate the memories I can't get rid of

The reason for all my hate?
The cause of all my anger?

Forgiveness is for the weak
Pardoning is for the feeble-minded

A plague planted within my mind
A disease that has taken root in my consciousness

The feeling hollows me
The emotion empties me

But I'll sleep soundly at night
But I will sleep peacefully

Knowing karma will be bittersweet
Understanding that retribution will ultimately be a mix of pain and pleasure

And now I know how it feels
And now I understand what it's like

To be so close to the edge
To be on the brink of collapse

I'm afraid that I'm never coming back
I fear I will not recover

Unless I can learn to forgive
Unless I can find it in me to pardon

But I can never forget
But I can never remove it from my mind

I tried to forgive you
I attempted to pardon you

I swear I've tried
I assure you I have made every effort

But I've got nothing left inside to give
But I am drained of all resources

Was I just another trophy on your shelf?
Was I simply another object to collect?