I Confess
Holly Palmer Lyrics

I've been really really bad
I have been poorly behaving

I said mean things just to get you mad
I spoke harshly with the intent of provoking you into anger

I've been really really glad To see you fight for me
I was exceedingly joyful to observe your efforts to defend me

I've been carrying around An awful lot of weight that holds me down
I have been burdened by a lot of emotional baggage which causes me to struggle

I've got a heavy, heavy heart That's making me too crazy
I am experiencing overwhelming emotions that are causing me to feel mentally unwell

I might explode or melt down from distress I'll never know 'til it gets off my chest
I fear that my inner turmoil could erupt in a detrimental way if I don't express it and release it

I confess to loving you too much Dying for your touch That never is enough to hold me
I hereby acknowledge that my love for you is excessive and my desire for physical affection from you is insatiable

Driving way too fast Living in the past And never knowing that I'm happy
I am recklessly rushing through life, constantly dwelling on bygone days, and unable to recognize when I am content

I keep shutting down when you get sad I don't really understand how to give to you
I tend to withdraw emotionally when you become upset and I struggle to know how to provide you with what you need

I've been known to jump the gun I'm the first to leave if it's not fun My heart is always on the run As soon as I'm confused
I have a tendency to act impulsively, to exit early if things aren't enjoyable, to be in a perpetual state of restlessness, and to immediately flee if I feel uncertain

It can't be good to make life the enemy If I could I'd tame what's inside me
It is detrimental to view existence as an adversary and if possible, I would like to gain control over my inner struggles

I confess I give you little tests I do not do my best Forgetting that I'm blessed and lucky
I acknowledge that I sometimes intentionally create small challenges for you, that I do not always perform at my highest level, and that I fail to recognize how fortunate I really am

Wasting too much time Pouring too much wine And tuning out sometimes when you fuck me
I spend excessive amounts of time unproductively, I consume more alcohol than I should, and I occasionally disconnect during intimate moments

Being self obsessed Too long getting dressed Take your tenderness for granted Getting negative I'm hyper-sensitive I come down on you heavy handed
I admit that I can be overly focused on myself, I highly prioritize personal appearance, I do not always appreciate your affection, I am prone to pessimism, I am easily affected by criticism, and I can attack you unfairly

They say that all things heal faster with the truth And confession is the way a soul finds its groove
There is a belief that honesty expedites healing and revealing one's deepest feelings is a way to establish a stable rhythm within the soul

Oh I know I gotta confess to Loving you too much Dying for your touch That never is enough to hold me Driving way too fast Living in the past And never knowing that I'm happy I give you little tests I do not do my best Forgetting that I'm blessed and lucky Wasting too much time Pouring too much wine And tuning out sometimes when you fuck me But I do love you
It is essential that I reveal my excessive love and lust for you, my reckless behavior, my tendency to dwell in nostalgia, my difficulty recognizing contentment, my creation of small trials for you, my failure to fully apply myself, my inability to appreciate my good fortune, my misuse of time and alcohol, and my occasional disconnection during intimacy. All of this declaration, however, should not diminish the fact that I truly love you.