Dirty Office Bongos
Hot Mulligan Lyrics


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Tried to answer the phone when you called
I feel ashamed that I put you off for this long
I know that you will forgive me but I can't
Started thinking, it's better if I just forget

I don't know why I'm anxious
It's hard to say, I know I fucked up again
I don't mean to neglect and
An invitation
An open hand to pull me out from this pit
I don't want to disappoint again

I know
That things changed when I left
I hope
When we talk you'll say you understand

I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent
It's hard to call home
You're waiting for days, dial and disconnect
Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone
I won't notice
Away in some state when I get the call

Seems I should grow
Replace me
A better family
He'll act his age
He'll know how to cope with what I've made

I know
That things changed when I left
Pick apart why I get nervous
Try to force my faults to surface
I hope
When we talk you'll understand
Try to change but I can't help it

I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent
It's hard to call home
You're waiting for days, dial and disconnect
Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone
I won't notice
Away in some state when I get the call
I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent
You've waited for days, dial and disconnect
I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent
I've waited for days, you're already gone

I wanted to notice
I wanted to know
But I can't change the way I am
It's harder to focus
My thoughts feel like static
You're gone and I wasn't there

I wanted to notice
I wanted to know
But I can't change the way I am
It's harder to focus




My thoughts feel like static
You're gone and I wasn't there

Overall Meaning

In "Dirty Office Bongos," Hot Mulligan sings about feeling ashamed for neglecting someone they care about. The song has a lot of regret and the lyrics speak to a desire to change and do better but an inability to do so. The lines "I know that you will forgive me but I can't" and "Try to change but I can't help it" show that the singer is aware of their flaws and wants to do better, but struggles to make changes.


The song also touches on the fear of missing out and the fear of losing someone. The line "Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone, I won't notice" shows that the singer is afraid of missing important moments or losing the person they care about. This fear is intensified by the realization that "things changed when I left" and the fear that they won't be able to cope with the changes.


Ultimately, "Dirty Office Bongos" is a song about regret, fear, and a desire for change. The singer wants to be better and do better but struggles with their own flaws and limitations.


Line by Line Meaning

Tried to answer the phone when you called
I attempted to respond to your phone call


I feel ashamed that I put you off for this long
I am experiencing remorse for delaying my response to you


I know that you will forgive me but I can't
Although I am aware of your potential for forgiveness, I cannot accept or believe it


Started thinking, it's better if I just forget
I concluded that it would be superior to completely forget about the situation


I don't know why I'm anxious
I am unaware of what has caused my feeling of anxiety


It's hard to say, I know I fucked up again
Although I am aware that I have made an error again, it is difficult to articulate my feelings about it


I don't mean to neglect and
My intentions are not to ignore or disregard


An invitation
An offer to extend help or assistance


An open hand to pull me out from this pit
A willingness to rescue or aid me from my negative state of mind


I don't want to disappoint again
I have a desire to avoid letting you down again


I know That things changed when I left
I am aware that circumstances were altered after my departure


I hope When we talk you'll say you understand
I aspire to receive your understanding when we have a conversation


I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent
I want you to be aware that I have retained every message that you have written to me


It's hard to call home You're waiting for days, dial and disconnect Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone
It is difficult for me to reach out to you You make repeated attempts to contact me without success My procrastination is a reflection of my fear of losing you forever


I won't notice Away in some state when I get the call
I will not recognize when you are gone I will be in a different location when I receive the news


Seems I should grow Replace me A better family He'll act his age He'll know how to cope with what I've made
It appears that I should mature and improve my behavior Someone else should take my place My family deserves better He will behave appropriately according to his age and will be capable of handling my mess


Pick apart why I get nervous Try to force my faults to surface
I dissect the reasons why I am anxious I attempt to identify flaws within me


Try to change but I can't help it
Although I attempt to transform myself, I am unable to achieve a different outcome


You've waited for days, dial and disconnect
You persistently called me but never spoke to me


I've waited for days, you're already gone
I awaited your return but you had already left


I wanted to notice I wanted to know But I can't change the way I am
I desired to pay attention and be aware I yearned for knowledge and understanding However, I am unable to alter my inherent nature


It's harder to focus My thoughts feel like static You're gone and I wasn't there
I find it more challenging to concentrate My mind is overloaded with noise and static You left, and I did not have an opportunity to be present




Writer(s): Brandon Blakeley, Chris Freeman, Garrett “sniff” Willig, Nathan “tades” Sanville, Ryan Malicsi

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