Hotel Books began in 2010. After the release of "Call Me Human," many demos were released online, which ultimately became "Everything We Could Have Done Differently." After extensive touring in the US and overseas, the band signed to InVogue Records, under which they released a double-packaged EP, "I'm Almost Happy Here, But I Never Feel At Home" as well as two full band records, "Run Wild, Young Beauty," and "Run Wild, Stay Alive," along with two albums in the "Equivalency" series and an experimental LP "I'll Leave the Light on Just in Case."
The band's InVogue Records debut, "I'm Almost Happy Here, But I Never Feel at Home" was released July 1, 2014, via InVogue Records. The album received mostly positive reviews, as well as earned the band their first Billboard chartings; No. 9 on Alternative New Artists and No. 20 on Heatseekers, for the album's debut week. Their next effort, "Run Wild, Young Beauty," was released on April 7, 2015, and spent three total weeks on the Billboard charts.
In 2016, Hotel Books released their second long-player "Run Wild, Stay Alive" to negative and mixed reviews. The album focused more on the rock elements and traditional song structure.
In October of 2017, Hotel Books released "Equivalency" via InVogue Records to critical acclaim.
Hotel Books has toured the United States, Europe, Asia, and Australia, playing with a variety of notable acts, including Defeater, Counterparts, and I Prevail.
i died with you
Hotel Books Lyrics
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Boast in the moments that leave a stable memory to scare away the remains of the devil.
Let that alcohol burn out the demons in your mouth, spitting venom on lovers, leaving them with doubt.
Just don't choke on communion or those emotions. Swallow down a staining memory before it's washed out.
My guilty conscience was a chaser for every broken rib, every shred of skin,
my selfish repentance, my need to feel clean just so I can copy and paste the same burden.
Rinsing cuts with alcoholic remedies to bury the pharisees, chasing my apathy with a need for attention.
A retention of amens to cover the blood drips and bloodshed of broken men
and that's why that I can't feel any of this.
If I didn't die with you, I don't think I've ever lived.
If I didn't try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
If I didn't die with you, I don't think I've ever lived.
If I didn't try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
Offer it to the serpents that listen to the end of this.
Always hide who you want to be until it's gone, I can see that I don't have anything at all.
The naked cannot clothe the poor in spirit with oxygen
and the wine I tasted reminded me of the night she took advantage of my advances
rather than the blood sacrifice that I can make a better decision.
A guilty conscience is better than no consideration I guess
but the rest is placed in a test of time versus how much I care about my own mess.
When I can't see the beauty in her scars but only the body in her dress,
how is this love when the scars paved the way to the truth in all of this?
The comfort of existence removed my need to chase love and I conformed to something fake
cause it's easier than turning to above rather than trusting
that I can make up my own ending, something I can break.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they're just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they're just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they're just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they're just stuck in my head.
Now this wine is a bitter sting rather than something sweet
and I have all I want but nothing that I need. I have nothing. Nothing.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they're just stuck in my head.
The lyrics to this song by Hotel Books are filled with introspective feelings of guilt, regret, and the consequences of self-destructive behavior. The opening lines, "break this bread like you broke his body and raise a glass above your eye level," is a reference to the Last Supper, where Jesus broke bread and shared it among his disciples, as well as wine representing his blood. The singer is urging the listeners to participate in a mock Last Supper to celebrate the moments that leave a lasting impression, to forget the past and find a way to deal with the devilish thoughts that linger in their minds. The lines "Just don't choke on communion or those emotions. Swallow down a staining memory before it's washed out" further emphasize the idea of burying feelings that may cause discomfort or pain in the present.
The second verse delves deeper into the singer's personal struggles with guilt and self-centered thoughts. They talk about how their guilty conscience became a chaser for their physical wounds and scars, seeking redemption to feel clean regardless of the burden they carry. The lines "when I can't see the beauty in her scars but only the body in her dress, how is this love when the scars paved the way to the truth in all of this", reveal how the singer is struggling to find meaning in their relationships and is unable to derive true love from those around them. The chorus, "If I didn't die with you, I don't think I've ever lived. If I didn't try to save you, it just shows my selfishness," highlights these struggles with feelings of inadequacy and trying to find purpose in life.
Overall, this song is a reflection of the complex emotions that come with dealing with guilt, shame, and personal demons. The lyrics showcase the frustrations and disillusionment that arise from trying to numb oneself with alcohol or other harmful coping mechanisms, rather than facing these emotions head-on.
Line by Line Meaning
Break this bread like you broke his body and raise a glass above your eye level.
Commune with those around you, symbolically breaking bread and raising a glass to celebrate life.
Boast in the moments that leave a stable memory to scare away the remains of the devil.
Treasure the moments that leave lasting memories to drive away any negative thoughts or feelings.
Let that alcohol burn out the demons in your mouth, spitting venom on lovers, leaving them with doubt.
Use alcohol to release pent up emotions and express them in a hurtful way towards loved ones, causing doubt in the relationship.
Just don't choke on communion or those emotions. Swallow down a staining memory before it's washed out.
Don't let your emotions overwhelm you to the point of choking during the symbolic act of communion. Swallow any painful memories and keep them with you instead of trying to forget them.
My guilty conscience was a chaser for every broken rib, every shred of skin, my selfish repentance, my need to feel clean just so I can copy and paste the same burden.
Feeling guilty and constantly trying to repent for past mistakes is like chasing a drink after a hurtful physical experience, only to later realize that the same burden remains.
Rinsing cuts with alcoholic remedies to bury the pharisees, chasing my apathy with a need for attention.
Using alcohol to numb emotional pain and bury any hypocritical thoughts, while also seeking attention to fill a void.
A retention of amens to cover the blood drips and bloodshed of broken men who put purpose to the regurgitated blood dripping from the mouth of me and my emotions, and that's why that I can't feel any of this.
The desire to sound faithful and religious, while also acknowledging the pain caused by others and the brokenness within oneself, causing a numbing to any emotions.
If I didn't die with you, I don't think I've ever lived. If I didn't try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
The only way to truly live and have purpose is to share in the pain and experiences of others, and not trying to help others demonstrates selfishness.
Offer it to the serpents that listen to the end of this. Always hide who you want to be until it's gone, I can see that I don't have anything at all.
Give the pain and struggle as an offering to those who are only there to cause harm, and always hide the true self until it's too late and nothing is left.
The naked cannot clothe the poor in spirit with oxygen and the wine I tasted reminded me of the night she took advantage of my advances rather than the blood sacrifice that I can make a better decision.
Those without anything to give cannot help lift up those who are struggling, and experiencing a bitter taste in wine reminds of a moment of being taken advantage of instead of focusing on the sacrifice that could bring better choices.
A guilty conscience is better than no consideration I guess but the rest is placed in a test of time versus how much I care about my own mess.
Feeling guilty for past mistakes is at least better than not considering them at all, but ultimately the struggle is between time passing and how much one cares about addressing their own problems.
When I can't see the beauty in her scars but only the body in her dress, how is this love when the scars paved the way to the truth in all of this?
Unable to appreciate the deeper emotional experiences and scars of a loved one, only seeing outward appearances, causes a questioning of whether this is true love when the past struggles are what led to discovering the greater truth.
The comfort of existence removed my need to chase love and I conformed to something fake cause it's easier than turning to above rather than trusting that I can make up my own ending, something I can break.
The complacency of living removes the desire to truly pursue love, and conforming to something fake is easier than turning to a higher power and trusting in one's own ability to make choices and break away from negative patterns.
Now this wine is a bitter sting rather than something sweet and I have all I want but nothing that I need. I have nothing. Nothing.
Experiencing bitterness in wine symbolizes a bitter and unfulfilling life, having everything but nothing that truly satisfies. Feeling empty and having nothing to hold onto.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said, I had so many words to say but now they're just stuck in my head.
Trusting in the love of another and listening intently, but unable to express oneself and having trapped thoughts.
Contributed by Katherine F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Ty
Break this bread like you broke his body and raise a glass above your eye level.
Boast in the moments that leave a stable memory to scare away the remains of the devil.
Let that alcohol burn out the demons in your mouth, spitting venom on lovers, leaving them with doubt.
Just don’t choke on communion or those emotions. Swallow down a staining memory before it’s washed out.
My guilty conscience was a chaser for every broken rib, every shred of skin,
my selfish repentance, my need to feel clean just so I can copy and paste the same burden.
Rinsing cuts with alcoholic remedies to bury the pharisees, chasing my apathy with a need for attention.
A retention of amens to cover the blood drips and bloodshed of broken men
who put purpose to the regurgitated blood dripping from the mouth of me and my emotions,
and that’s why that I can’t feel any of this.
If I didn’t die with you, I don’t think I’ve ever lived.
If I didn’t try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
If I didn’t die with you, I don’t think I’ve ever lived.
If I didn’t try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
Offer it to the serpents that listen to the end of this.
Always hide who you want to be until it’s gone, I can see that I don’t have anything at all.
The naked cannot clothe the poor in spirit with oxygen
and the wine I tasted reminded me of the night she took advantage of my advances
rather than the blood sacrifice that I can make a better decision.
A guilty conscience is better than no consideration I guess
but the rest is placed in a test of time versus how much I care about my own mess.
When I can’t see the beauty in her scars but only the body in her dress,
how is this love when the scars paved the way to the truth in all of this?
The comfort of existence removed my need to chase love and I conformed to something fake
cause it’s easier than turning to above rather than trusting
that I can make up my own ending, something I can break.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
Now this wine is a bitter sting rather than something sweet
and I have all I want but nothing that I need. I have nothing. Nothing.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
Abiskar joshi
"I Died With You"
Break this bread like you broke his body and raise a glass above your eye level.
Boast in the moments that leave a stable memory to scare away the remains of the devil.
Let that alcohol burn out the demons in your mouth, spitting venom on lovers, leaving them with doubt.
Just don’t choke on communion or those emotions. Swallow down a staining memory before it’s washed out.
My guilty conscience was a chaser for every broken rib, every shred of skin,
my selfish repentance, my need to feel clean just so I can copy and paste the same burden.
Rinsing cuts with alcoholic remedies to bury the pharisees, chasing my apathy with a need for attention.
A retention of amens to cover the blood drips and bloodshed of broken men
who put purpose to the regurgitated blood dripping from the mouth of me and my emotions,
and that’s why that I can’t feel any of this.
If I didn’t die with you, I don’t think I’ve ever lived.
If I didn’t try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
If I didn’t die with you, I don’t think I’ve ever lived.
If I didn’t try to save you, it just shows my selfishness.
Offer it to the serpents that listen to the end of this.
Always hide who you want to be until it’s gone, I can see that I don’t have anything at all.
The naked cannot clothe the poor in spirit with oxygen
and the wine I tasted reminded me of the night she took advantage of my advances
rather than the blood sacrifice that I can make a better decision.
A guilty conscience is better than no consideration I guess
but the rest is placed in a test of time versus how much I care about my own mess.
When I can’t see the beauty in her scars but only the body in her dress,
how is this love when the scars paved the way to the truth in all of this?
The comfort of existence removed my need to chase love and I conformed to something fake
cause it’s easier than turning to above rather than trusting
that I can make up my own ending, something I can break.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
Now this wine is a bitter sting rather than something sweet
and I have all I want but nothing that I need. I have nothing. Nothing.
I trusted your love and listened to every word that you said,
I had so many words to say but now they’re just stuck in my head.
Mason
This is the kind of music that you listen to after the ice cream man doesn't stop for you on a hot day
Midlife
Why am I laughing so hard?
Carré Sinistre
Mason Eldridge Made my day sir, thanks! Haha
Im Nyu
Mason Eldridge I shouldn't be laughing.
tyrone johnson
Mason Eldridge thank you sir i cannever take this song seriously again hahahahaha
Roy Guns
Mason Eldridge hahah seriously dude XD
Amanda Turner
I love how these lyrics sound so sad, but have so much more meaning than just sadness, they're inspiring and are a painted picture of getting over grief and burdens. I just found out about this band last night and dang, they're amazing
kaykay9725
I never thought I'd like music like this but damn all his songs are way too deep to not like them. I've downloaded tons of his songs and am listening to them on repeat.
Clarice B
Kayla Boo same asf🤔
Kruag Jazmine
Kayla Boo same my friends think this is weird but you can't escape the grasp of his music