Adderall Thoughts Pt. 2
Huey Mack Lyrics

These are all my adderall thoughts
The following lines are a collection of the artist's unfiltered thoughts while on Adderall

Afraid to write this sht for a second time
The artist feels reluctant to write about his personal experiences again

Cause there′s a whole lot of sht going on in my mind
The artist has a lot of thoughts and emotions that he's trying to process

Nowadays i feel like i'm so close
The artist feels like he's close to achieving his goals

Last year flopped
The artist's previous year was not successful

I went pop, okay, i know
The artist's music became popular and mainstream, and he acknowledges it

Had to go and get that out of my chest
The artist needed to express his feelings and thoughts

It′s okay, it's in the past now
The artist has moved on from his past mistakes

I made mistakes but i'm cool with saying i′m out loud
The artist is comfortable with admitting his mistakes

I′m tired of fronting like i'm perfect when i know i am not
The artist is tired of pretending to be perfect when he knows he's not

People hate me and they make me insecure a lot
The artist is insecure because of the hate he receives from others

Thinking back, making sht on my mac
The artist reflects on his humble beginnings of making music on his computer

Never thought i would be able to feed myself off rap
The artist never imagined that he could make a living off his music

Maybe that was fate
The artist believes that his success was meant to happen

Maybe that was luck
The artist acknowledges that luck may have played a role in his success

Cause i′m not the same kid that may wish me luck
The artist has grown and changed since his early days, and he no longer needs others to wish him luck

I want this sht
The artist is determined to achieve success in his music career

I need this sht
The artist feels that making music is essential to his well-being

Can't leave this sht
The artist cannot imagine giving up making music

I breath this sht
The artist's passion for making music is like breathing for him

That's the reason why i can′t never quit
The artist's passion for making music is what motivates him to never give up

Remember being a freshman in ...
The artist reminisces about his early days before his music career took off

Nbody ever thought my dream would really come true
The artist's success was unexpected by others

But it did, now i'm touring the country all year
The artist's dream of making music and touring has become a reality

You would never feel a rush
The artist describes the excitement of performing in front of a live audience

Like when you hear that crowd cheer
The artist loves the feeling of applause from his audience

My biggest flaws is that i know i'm flawed
The artist recognizes his flaws and imperfections

And i can′t really figure out why people applaud
The artist is unsure why others praise him despite his flaws

I guess a man in the mirror ain′t the one on the screen
The artist's public persona is different from his true self

I mean a person portray isn't the one that i see
The artist's public image does not match his self-perception

I′m tired of every girl i fcked
The artist is tired of being judged for his past sexual experiences

Telling about every girl i've fcked
The artist is frustrated that his past sexual history is a topic of discussion

Kinda make me think that i will never find love
The artist worries that his past mistakes will prevent him from finding love

Don′t know if i will love someone
The artist is unsure if he will ever find someone to love

Cause she heard this song i wrote and hated who i become
The artist regrets that a past love interest disapproved of his music and persona

Now it's 11 and 11 and 9
The time is 11:11 PM and the artist is feeling regretful about his past actions

Feeling bad for writing those rhymes
The artist feels guilty about expressing his emotions through music

But that′s what i get for letting my heart speak
The artist understands the risks of being vulnerable in his music

And bleeding out all over these beats
The artist pours his heart and soul into his music

Haven't wrote a song in two months
The artist has not written any music in two months

My head is all fcked up
The artist's thoughts and emotions are overwhelming him

Going through depression
The artist is currently experiencing depression

That can happen to anyone
The artist acknowledges that depression is a common issue

Too afraid to speak so i am writing it down
The artist finds it easier to express himself through writing

Cause the fans are the therapists now
The artist sees his fans as a source of comfort and support

Got an email from my dad on christmas
The artist received an email from his estranged father on Christmas Day

Don't even know how he got this sht to begin with
The artist is confused about how his father obtained his contact information

Maybe that′s what happens when you get a little fame and sht
The artist speculates that his father may have reached out to him because of his recent success

But how the fck are you gonna leave a kid
The artist is angry and hurt that his father abandoned him as a child

And hit him up
The artist is frustrated that his father contacted him out of the blue

No harm, no foul
The artist is willing to forgive his father

Where were you when me and mom were in a red brick house
The artist resents that his father was not present to help raise him and his mother

Like you really think i need you now?
The artist questions why his father thinks he needs him now after all these years

Me and my sis don′t speak
The artist's relationship with his sister is strained

I think i just remind her of him
The artist believes that his sister associates him with their absent father

Try to talk but i really don't know where to begin
The artist wants to repair his relationship with his sister but is unsure how to start

Maybe i′m just selfish
The artist recognizes that he may be thinking only of himself

Maybe i'm just scared
The artist is afraid of being vulnerable and opening up to others

That i might die and nbody would really care
The artist worries that he will die without anyone caring about him

Maybe i′m fine
The artist suggests that he may be overthinking and does not have any real issues

Maybe i'm just lost
The artist feels like he's lost and directionless in his life

Yeah
The artist ends the song with a simple affirmation