Cold
ILL-SUGI / NASTY ILL BROTHER S.U.G.I Lyrics

Already succumbing to the system
I feel like I'm already giving in to the societal norms and expectations.

I just want control but I've been turning to the victim
I desire autonomy, but I often find myself helpless and at the mercy of others.

I've been feeling cold I need to get that out my system
I've been struggling with emotional numbness and need to work through it.

Stuck between four walls it's like I'm trapped in my own prison
I feel trapped and confined both physically and mentally.

It's too cold to wait for you
I don't want to wait for someone who doesn't value me or my time.

Lost control don't wanna lose
I feel like I'm losing grip and don't want to be completely helpless.

Beat me up I'm black and blue
I've been hurt, physically or emotionally, and the scars remain.

But I still come back to you
Despite the pain, I keep returning to the source of it.

Feeling down I'm out my mind until the sun's up
I'm mentally exhausted and can't escape my negative thoughts until the morning.

Money coming in so run the funds up
I'm earning money and trying to make the most of it.

Something feeling wrong I need to cut you off
I sense that this relationship isn't healthy and I need to end it.

Don't wanna waist my time and you not fall in love
I don't want to invest time into someone who isn't willing to commit or reciprocate my feelings.

Don't get me wrong you did me wrong but that's the fun in it
I acknowledge that you hurt me, but part of me finds pleasure in the chaos and drama.

Once you break me out I break you off and that's the price you pay
If you try to use and manipulate me, I'll retaliate and make you pay the consequences.

Your words are like a weapon but I'm frozen right in front of it
Your words cut deep, but I'm too numb and unable to react.

I'm cold I'm cold oh
I feel emotionally distant and disconnected.

It's a long road to walk down
This journey is long and difficult.

A dark dark road we're in a ghost town
This path is bleak and desolate, and it feels like I'm alone.

I'm toe to toe my demons they fight now
I'm confronting my inner demons and they're putting up a fight.

What are they saying to me
I'm unsure of the messages my thoughts and emotions are sending me.

Imma shine in the spotlight
Despite the hardships, I'll persevere and succeed in my own way.

My past is in the rear view
I'm trying to move forward and leave my past behind me.

Still feel like it ain't mine
I don't feel like I fully own or understand my experiences.

But your demons gonna tempt you
Despite my own struggles, others will try to bring me down or lead me astray.

I froze up when you hit my line
When you contacted me, I was paralyzed with fear or indecision.

I'm lying if I said I missed you
I don't actually miss you, although part of me might wish I did.

It's too cold to wait for you (Too cold)
I won't wait around for someone who doesn't appreciate me.

Lost control don't wanna lose (I don't wanna lose)
I'm scared of losing complete control and being powerless.

Beat me up I'm black and blue (I'm still black and blue)
You've hurt me before, and the scars remain.

But I still come back to you (And I'll still come back to you)
Despite everything, I can't help but be drawn back to you.