The Curse
I AS ONE Lyrics

Another day that she been giving me the run around
She has been avoiding me again, just like she does every other day

The stormed eye is closed
I am trying to hide my emotions and pretend everything is okay, even though I am hurting inside

The rain is coming down
My tears are falling down as I am struggling to deal with the pain

I put my pain into these words and cry without a sound
I am expressing my feelings through this song, even though I am unable to vocalize them in person

But you keep on arguing w me
Instead of acknowledging my pain, you keep pushing me away and arguing with me instead of offering comfort

Defending yourself baby I'm not the middle man
You are trying to justify your actions instead of acknowledging the pain you have caused me. I am not a mediator, but I need some resolution to this pain

Hermes, Hermes, Hermes
I kept buying you material possessions, but they do not compare to genuine love and attentiveness

That's all that I bought you
Beyond material trappings, those are the only gifts of love I can offer you

I would call you perfect, perfect, perfect
In spite of your flaws, I still think of you as perfect, ideal and complete

Even though that's not true
But deep down, I realize you are not perfect and no one is

I don't know if that pain is really worth it
I am not sure if this heartache is worth the love and companionship you bring into my life

But I know I gotchu
Despite everything, I am not going to abandon you in your time of need

And I don't wanna go in without you
I do not want to move on and face life's challenges without you by my side

So imma write this one about you
This song is a testament of my love and the emotional turmoil that I am currently experiencing because of you

Feelings blowing thru the wind of my ceiling fan
My emotions are in turmoil and are scattered everywhere, just like the cool breeze flowing from my ceiling fan

Don't think that I'm ever falling in love again
I am hesitant to ever let my guard down and open myself to someone again after what you did to me

Double cupping while I'm rolling the blunt again
I am indulging in distractions like drugs and alcohol to numb the pain

Pour up the tussin I'm getting fucked up again
I am drinking cough syrup, I am getting wasted again

Got my mental running and gunning so fuck I'm popping a whole and another one
My mind is racing and I am taking more and more drugs just to escape the pain I am in

Say that your hurting and can't find your purpose but you're still blinded by the love
You are hurting inside and feeling lost, but you are unwilling to let go of love and make a change. It's hard for you to be objective and honest with yourself

Now our lives flying high above
We were once elated and felt unbeatable in our love

Or maybe it's burning down below
But now, it feels like our love is slowly disintegrating and falling apart

Cuz you was a witch and I was a demon baby we do not have no halos
Our love was dark and tumultuous, and there were no signs of divine intervention or guidance in our relationship

Got my love erupting volcano
My love for you is intense and explosive like a volcanic eruption

I think about her every day tho
I still can't stop thinking about you and the love we shared

And I know she did this to me cause
I know that the pain I am feeling is because of what you did to me

It's a curse
My love for you has turned into a curse, causing me immense and unbearable pain

Shawty had to go and do me the worst
You hurt me in the worst possible way, by not showing me the love and respect I deserved in our relationship

Wish she called the damn doctor first
I wish you had sought help and support from someone other than me, like a doctor or therapist, before causing me this immense pain

Before she went and put my heart in a hurst
Before ruining and breaking my heart, and causing me irreparable damage

I always thought you'd be the one
I believed you were my soulmate and the person I would spend the rest of my life with

I still love you more than I ever done
Despite everything, I still love you more than I ever have before

But everything i worked for
Everything we built together, every effort I made, has now crumbled and fallen apart

Gone with a blink of eye
It feels like everything vanished suddenly and without warning

How come i be that dumb
I feel like a fool for having given so much of myself to someone who did not deserve it

I wasted all my time on you
I spent all of my time and energy on you, only to be left with nothing but pain and anguish

Gave you my heart gave you my soul too
I gave you everything I had, my heart and my soul, and you took it all for granted

Remember when i bought you sneakers for your birthday
I remember all the little things I did for you to make you happy and show you my love and appreciation

I can't forget that handshake from you
I cannot forget the moment when you shook my hand and severed our intimate bond

Remember our conversation we had
I remember our last conversation together, and how it marked the end of our relationship

But i didn't know what i was getting myself into
I was unaware of the extent of pain that I would face in our relationship

Now i'm lost
I am lost without you and struggling to find my way forward

You left me all alone and I feel i've been stoned
You abandoned me in my time of need, leaving me feeling numb and unable to function

And now my mind is gone
My mind is consumed by thoughts of you, and I am unable to focus on anything else

I cannot stand the pain
The pain I am feeling is unbearable and I am struggling to keep going

I'm hurt like motherfucka that's why i don't wanna see you again
The hurt I am feeling is overwhelming, and I cannot bear to see you again

Fuck u fuck love fuck life i'm out of this bitch
I am filled with anger and despair, and I just want to run away from everything

Pain on my body I turned into a zombie
The pain has taken over my entire being, and I feel like a shell of my former self

No emotions a lot of feelings my brain like tsunami
I am conflicted and confused, and my mind is in constant flux like the raging waters of a tsunami

I can't stop loving you
Despite everything, I am unable to stop loving you and letting go of our relationship

Cause I'm still in love with you
The love I have for you runs deep and is still alive, despite everything we have been through

I can't let you go
I am finding it difficult to let go of the love we shared, even though it is causing me so much pain

But i have to let you go
I know that I need to move on and let go of the past in order to heal

Why can't u leave me alone
It is hard for me to move on and let go of the past when you keep appearing in my thoughts and memories

Now i have to move on
I know that I need to put the past behind me and focus on building a better future for myself