Everyday Apocalypse
Iamjakehill Lyrics

I should've been dead like 17 times
I have lived through so many close calls that it feels like I should have died multiple times in the past.

It seems like it
This fact is so apparent to me that it seems undeniable.

I got a lump in my throat and a heavy chest oh god I feel like shit
The stress and anxiety that I experience on a regular basis is so intense that it physically affects me, causing me to feel nauseous and burdened.

Another day wasted stuck inside my fragile mind
I often feel like my own thoughts and emotions trap me, preventing me from being productive and living my life to the fullest.

Picking at my bones with a rusty knife
I am constantly self-destructive, unable to resist the urge to harm myself both physically and emotionally.

All the fucking time
This is a constant struggle that I face every day, with no break or rest from my internal struggles.

But I'll be alright
Despite all of these difficulties, I still hold onto the hope that things will eventually get better.

I'll be just fine if I can manage to get over this everyday apocalypse
If I am able to overcome the challenges I face on a daily basis, I believe that I can find a way to be happy and at peace with myself and the world around me.

Running from the radiation I can't find no shelter
No matter how hard I try to escape my problems, they always seem to follow me, just like radiation that cannot be avoided.

I've never been afraid to disappoint
I am used to letting people down or failing to meet their expectations, so I no longer feel scared of this outcome.

I used to pray but what's the point
I used to rely on religion or spirituality to help me cope with my struggles, but now I feel disillusioned and see no value in these practices.

I lost my faith at 21
At a relatively young age, I stopped believing in the things I once held as sacred or important.

Can't feel the rays from a blacken sun
Even the things that used to bring light or joy into my life no longer have the same effect, as if they are coming from a source of darkness rather than radiance.

Yeah I got a little older man I feel so pessimistic
As I have grown older, my outlook on life has become increasingly negative and defeatist.

My mind is fucking with me I'm just waiting for the next trick
My own thoughts and feelings are constantly tricking me or playing games with me, causing me to be distrustful of myself and the world around me.

I never thought I'd hate myself but let's get realistic
Despite my attempts to be optimistic, I cannot deny the fact that I often feel a profound sense of dislike or even hatred for myself.

I will never change until I get muster up ambitions
In order to make progress or improvements in my life, I need to find the motivation or drive to pursue my goals and dreams.

To be something different than who I am now
I am not satisfied with the person I currently am, and I desire to become someone better or different.

One day I'll make it to the top and finally see through the clouds
With hard work and perseverance, I believe that I can achieve success and happiness, and reach a place where everything is clear and beautiful.

But until then this building I'm in is a wreck
My current situation and mental state are not ideal, and need to be repaired or fixed in order for me to move forward.

It tips and it crumbles 'til there's not much left but
My life often feels unsteady and chaotic, with one problem after another leaving little stability or comfort.

I'll be alright
Despite these hardships, I still hold onto the hope that I will make it through and come out stronger on the other side.

If i can manage to get over this everyday apocalypse
If I can overcome my daily struggles and hardships, I believe that I can find peace and happiness in my life.

Running from the radiation I can't find no shelter
No matter how hard I try to escape my problems, they always seem to follow me, just like radiation that cannot be avoided.