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Phobetor
Iamjakehill Lyrics
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Searching for a fantasy
Only terror in my dreams
I swear I always see them creep
I wake up gasping for air
Reach to the left for the pistol
I swear that somebody's there
It always seems I just missed 'em
Breathe deeply
Keep the peace
The ceiling creaking
Keep the secret
Hard to tell it
Last night think I saw where Hell is
It ain't below me
It's right inside of my mind
If this is what its like to know me
Then I'd rather be blind
Call me a criminal
Subliminal
Messages in my conscience
Paranoia in the story
Always feel like someone's watching
I'm an open book
Hide the chapter
Please don't look
Just skip right past it
If you ask me how I'm feelin
You're the hero I'm the villain
Damn
Take my soul for what it's worth
From the soil I was birthed
Never blessed I'm only cursed
Another lesson never learned
Take my soul for what it's worth
From the soil I was birthed
Never blessed I'm only cursed
Another lesson never learned
I'm a killer when I'm paralyzed
Wake me up I'm terrified
Only seem to terrorize
Can't wake up I'm scared to die
Killer when I'm paralyzed
Wake me up I'm terrified
Only seem to terrorize
Can't wake up I'm scared to die
Drifting off to sleep
Searching for a fantasy
Only terror in my dreams
I swear I always see them creep
I wake up gasping for air
Reach to the left for the pistol
I swear that somebody's there
It always seems I just missed 'em
I cannot sleep easy
Breathe deeply
Keep the peace
The ceiling creaking
Keep the secret
Hard to tell it
Last night think I saw where Hell is
It ain't below me
It's right inside of my mind
If this is what its like to know me
Then I'd rather be blind
The lyrics of Iamjakehill's song "Phobetor" are all about the singer's fears and his phobias. The song starts with the singer drifting off to sleep, searching for a fantasy that can help him escape his fears. Unfortunately, all he finds are terrifying things that make him gasp for air and reach for the pistol beside him. He always senses someone's presence and feels like he just missed seeing them. He shares that he cannot sleep easy and that he keeps a secret about something he saw last night that made him feel like he saw where hell is. The singer admits to being paranoid and feeling like someone is always watching him, but he doesn't want anyone to see what lies beneath.
He ends the song by saying that if this is what it is to know him, he would rather be blind. The song portrays the struggles that one with phobias and paranoia may go through daily. The singer describes his constant state of alarm and the need to reach for a weapon due to his paranoia. The song reminds listeners that everyone has their struggles, and it is okay to acknowledge and seek help when dealing with such fears.
Overall, "Phobetor" is a powerful song that gives listeners a glimpse into the mind of those living with phobias and paranoia. It encourages empathy and understanding of those who constantly live in fear.
Line by Line Meaning
Drifting off to sleep
Beginning to fall asleep
Searching for a fantasy
Looking for a pleasant dream
Only terror in my dreams
Experiencing only fear in dreams
I swear I always see them creep
The fear manifests in the form of things creeping in the dream
I wake up gasping for air
Waking up suddenly and struggling to breathe normally
Reach to the left for the pistol
Feeling the need to defend oneself from the fear
I swear that somebody's there
Feeling like there is an actual entity present
It always seems I just missed 'em
Feeling like the entity was there and disappeared just before waking up
I cannot sleep easy
Not being able to sleep without fear or disturbance
Breathe deeply
Attempting to calm oneself down through deep breathing
Keep the peace
Trying to maintain calm and peace of mind
The ceiling creaking
Hearing sounds that add to the fear and paranoia
Keep the secret
Keeping the fear to oneself
Hard to tell it
Finding it difficult to share the fear with others
Last night think I saw where Hell is
Feeling like the fear is hellish and unbearable
It ain't below me
Realizing that the fear is within oneself
It's right inside of my mind
Understanding that the fear is a product of one's own thoughts
If this is what its like to know me
If this is what kind of person I am
Then I'd rather be blind
Preferring not to know oneself if it means living with such fear and paranoia
Call me a criminal
Seeing oneself as guilty or wrong for having such fear
Subliminal
Suggestive and hidden, like the fear one has
Messages in my conscience
A constant nagging voice in one's head exacerbating the fear
Paranoia in the story
The fear being like a story one is constantly telling oneself
Always feel like someone's watching
Feeling like there is a constant presence or threat
I'm an open book
Feeling vulnerable and exposed
Hide the chapter
Trying to hide part of oneself that is causing fear and paranoia
Please don't look
Requesting others not to look or investigate
Just skip right past it
Asking others to ignore or avoid the fear-inducing part of oneself
If you ask me how I'm feelin
If you inquire about my emotional state
You're the hero I'm the villain
Seeing oneself as the bad guy, and others as the good guys
Take my soul for what it's worth
Understanding the value of oneself, despite the fear and paranoia
From the soil I was birthed
Origins rooted in nature and the earth
Never blessed I'm only cursed
Feeling unlucky and burdened with the fear and paranoia
Another lesson never learned
Continuing to experience the same fear and not having learned how to overcome it
I'm a killer when I'm paralyzed
Feeling like the fear is overpowering and debilitating
Wake me up I'm terrified
Asking for help to deal with the fear
Only seem to terrorize
Feeling like the fear is taking over one's life
Can't wake up I'm scared to die
Feeling like one cannot escape the fear and is constantly in danger
Contributed by Luke K. Suggest a correction in the comments below.