I'm Not Happy '94
Ill Bill Lyrics


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I'm getting between your nerves like leprosy
Using mental telepathy, my treachery, treacherous over centuries
I never meant to be reincarnated
Matter of fact if it was up to me I wish that I had never been created
Them swinging swords hoards up in physical fords walking through forbidden
Doors hidden withinside of the morgue
People grimace when they witness business of the bloody instance
So keep your distance, the smell of bodies is covered by incense
I show no mercy blood splats up on my hockey jersey
Similar to physicians in rooms of emergency
So fuck the gats I'd rather hit you with the axe
Laugh while your skull cracks but I'm still not happy

(Chorus X2)

All I really want is to be happy
To find a love that's mine would be so sweet

I'm turning red blood cells into dead blood cells
Using microscopic utensils within your entrails
Pushing the limit of your chromosomes
Sitting on the throne made of human bones organize up into foam
I walk alone into pandemonium utilizing plutonium
To build a bigger better stronger weapon
I sense the presence of great evil
So I erase and drain every bit of the power source conceivable
Bringing about the beginning of ending
I'm sending the crucifier tending to your so called messiah
Within the fire I eulogise planetary demise
Feeling energized as another planet dies
And nothing could ever really make me give a fuck about
Anything you care about so why even bother
The blood I spill could fill the entire New York harbour
So hang the Holy Father and light the candelabra
(Chorus X2)
I'm slowly killing myself to live infact
I couldn't even begin to explain the effects of the drugs on my brain
Nothing positive could influence the trip I take
I'm drivin by the negativity I instigate
Without a doubt the bloody body count increases, you fall to pieces
My mouth releases terminal diseases
And everywhere you look there's another dead fucking schnook
Hanging from a bloody meat hook
I always keep a smile on my face
So I can hide what's really going on inside of my mind
I feel nothing and therefore I am nothing




I thrive upon your suffering and there's nothing that makes you feel happy
(Chorus X2)

Overall Meaning

"I'm Not Happy '94" by Ill Bill is a song that delves deep into the singer's psyche and innermost thoughts. The lyrics are gruesome, and showcase the artist's fascination with violence and death. The first verse talks about how the singer's mental telepathy is his treachery over centuries. He then talks about how he wishes he was never created, and how he walks through forbidden doors hidden within the morgue. The second verse talks about how he turns blood cells into dead blood cells, and his microscopic utensils within the entrails of his victims. He talks about sitting on the throne made of human bones and walking into pandemonium to build a bigger and better weapon using plutonium.


The chorus of the song repeats the phrase "All I really want is to be happy, to find a love that's mine would be so sweet," showing a stark contrast between the violent, aggressive lyrics of the verses and the hopes and dreams of the artist.


The third verse talks about how the singer is slowly killing himself with drugs, and how he thrives upon the suffering of others. He talks about the bloody body count increasing and how he releases terminal diseases from his mouth. The song ends with the singer professing that he feels nothing and therefore is nothing.


Overall, "I'm Not Happy '94" is an intense and unsettling song. It showcases the artist's obsession with violence and death, while also hinting at a deep-seated desire to find happiness and love.


Line by Line Meaning

I'm getting between your nerves like leprosy
I am irritating and bothering you like a contagious skin disease.


Using mental telepathy, my treachery, treacherous over centuries
I am deceitful and cunning, using my sixth sense to manipulate and harm others for hundreds of years.


I never meant to be reincarnated
I did not choose or desire to be reborn into this existence.


Matter of fact if it was up to me I wish that I had never been created
In reality, I would rather not exist at all.


Them swinging swords hoards up in physical fords walking through forbidden
Those armed with weapons are crossing obstacles and barriers.


Doors hidden withinside of the morgue
Secret passages are concealed within the place where dead bodies are kept.


People grimace when they witness business of the bloody instance
Onlookers express disgust when they see the violent and gory act taking place.


So keep your distance, the smell of bodies is covered by incense
Stay away, the odor of decaying corpses is masked by a pleasant scent.


I show no mercy blood splats up on my hockey jersey
I am ruthless and unrelenting, leaving a bloodstain on my clothing.


Similar to physicians in rooms of emergency
Like a doctor in an emergency room, I act quickly and decisively under pressure.


So fuck the gats I'd rather hit you with the axe
I prefer using a handheld weapon, such as an axe, over a gun.


Laugh while your skull cracks but I'm still not happy
I find pleasure in causing physical harm, but it does not bring me happiness.


All I really want is to be happy
Despite my violent tendencies, my ultimate goal is happiness and fulfillment.


To find a love that's mine would be so sweet
I long to experience a romantic connection that is unique to me.


I'm turning red blood cells into dead blood cells
I am destroying healthy blood cells and causing bodily harm.


Using microscopic utensils within your entrails
With precision tools, I am harming your internal organs.


Pushing the limit of your chromosomes
I am pushing the limit of your genetic makeup.


Sitting on the throne made of human bones organize up into foam
I sit on a throne composed of bones, arranged in a specific pattern.


I walk alone into pandemonium utilizing plutonium
I am walking into chaos and destruction, with the use of radioactive material.


To build a bigger better stronger weapon
My goal is to create a weapon that is even more powerful and devastating.


I sense the presence of great evil
I detect the existence of a malevolent force.


So I erase and drain every bit of the power source conceivable
I eliminate and exhaust every possible source of power.


Bringing about the beginning of ending
I am initiating the start of the end of something.


I'm sending the crucifier tending to your so called messiah
I am causing harm to both those who crucify and believe in a savior figure.


Within the fire I eulogise planetary demise
Amidst the destruction, I am giving a funeral speech for the downfall of an entire planet.


Feeling energized as another planet dies
The destruction of a planet gives me a sense of energy and excitement.


And nothing could ever really make me give a fuck about
I am indifferent and care about nothing.


Anything you care about so why even bother
I have no interest in what you care about, so why even try?


The blood I spill could fill the entire New York harbour
The amount of blood I shed is immense and overwhelming.


So hang the Holy Father and light the candelabra
I advocate for the death of religious leaders and ceremonial practices.


I'm slowly killing myself to live infact
My lifestyle and actions are slowly leading to my physical and emotional demise.


I couldn't even begin to explain the effects of the drugs on my brain
The drugs I consume have a profound impact on my mental state.


Nothing positive could influence the trip I take
There is nothing joyful or uplifting about the experience I am pursuing.


I'm drivin by the negativity I instigate
I am fueled by the negativity and chaos that I create.


Without a doubt the bloody body count increases, you fall to pieces
The number of dead bodies grows, and your mental and physical state deteriorates.


My mouth releases terminal diseases
I spread deadly diseases through my words and actions.


And everywhere you look there's another dead fucking schnook
Dead bodies are everywhere you look, brought on by my violent behavior.


Hanging from a bloody meat hook
The dead bodies are hanging from hooks, covered in blood.


I always keep a smile on my face
I outwardly appear happy and content.


So I can hide what's really going on inside of my mind
I am concealing my true thoughts and emotions.


I feel nothing and therefore I am nothing
I am devoid of any emotion or meaning.


I thrive upon your suffering and there's nothing that makes you feel happy
I gain strength and satisfaction from causing you pain and misery, and nothing brings you joy.




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