Current band members:
Marcos Leal – vocals (2019–present)
Dave Chavarri – drums (1998–present)
Daniel Couto – percussion (2003–present)
Jes De Hoyos – lead guitar (2019–present)
Sal Dominguez – rhythm guitar (2019–present)
Lazaro Pina – bass (1999–present)
Former band members:
Cristian Machado – vocals (1999–2019)
Jorge Rosado – vocals (1998–1999)
Ahrue Luster – lead guitar (2003–2019)
Marc Rizzo – lead guitar (1998–2003)
Diego Verduzco – rhythm guitar (2006–2019)
Jardel Paisante – rhythm guitar (1999–2006)
Daniel Gomez – rhythm guitar (1998)
Roger Vasquez – percussion (1999–2003)
Omar Clavijo – turntables (2003–2004)
If You Still Hate Me
Ill Niño Lyrics
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Are feelings I was faking
My eyes begin to shut, my life's a bitch
Want me to cut you up?
Your life is one big shout out
You think I'm fake, you are a snake
These are my fears
I fear
If you still hate me, you're thinking of me
I'm here
And I still don't know, I feel so low now
You make my life so aching
My every thought you're breaking
My ears begin to bleed, words you're riffing
I'm here to shut you up
Your life is one big fuck up
You think I'm fake, you're a snake
These are my fears
I fear
If you still hate me, you're thinking of me
I'm here
And I still don't know, I feel so low now
Now
I cannot see how
You can be so fucking hateful
Of my ways from all these thoughts I
Will not stray the hate I feel today
My life is not
Something you think you can run
You should have learned
This is the reason we're done
I hate your ways
And everything that you say
I wish you dead
Ill Niño's song "If You Still Hate Me" is a reflection on the emotional turmoil that comes with being in a toxic relationship. The lyrics depict the singer's fear of the consequences of the hatred that his partner holds towards him. He admits to faking his feelings and being afraid to show his true emotions, as his partner's reactions have been overwhelmingly negative. The singer feels trapped and hopeless, as his partner's words and actions are destructive and painful, causing him to withdraw into himself.
The chorus reveals just how deeply the hatred has affected the singer, as he begs to know why his partner still hates him and how he can make it stop. He is alone and lost, grappling with the exhaustion and overwhelming sadness that comes from a toxic relationship. The repeated call for death at the end of the song is the ultimate reflection of the despair and misery that the singer is experiencing.
Overall, "If You Still Hate Me" is a powerful and raw portrayal of the pain that comes with being stuck in a toxic relationship, and the desperation that comes with trying to escape it.
Line by Line Meaning
The feelings you are breaking
You are hurting the emotions I have towards you
Are feelings I was faking
The love and care I showed you was not genuine and true
My eyes begin to shut, my life's a bitch
I'm tired of dealing with the pain and hardships you cause me
Want me to cut you up?
Do you want me to harm you physically?
Your life is one big shout out
You're always trying to make yourself heard, without considering others
You think I'm fake, you are a snake
You accuse me of being dishonest, but you're the one who's untrustworthy
These are my fears
These are the thoughts that terrify me
If you still hate me, you're thinking of me
Your continued hatred towards me shows that I'm still on your mind
I'm here
I'm still present, even if it hurts to be here
And I still don't know, I feel so low now
I'm lost and confused, and my self-esteem has hit rock bottom
You make my life so aching
You cause me so much pain and discomfort
My every thought you're breaking
Your negative influence is destroying my every idea and plan
My ears begin to bleed, words you're riffing
The things you say are so hurtful and harsh, they physically pain me
I'm here to shut you up
I'm going to make you stop talking, one way or another
Your life is one big fuck up
You're not doing well in life and you're using me as a punching bag to feel better about yourself
These are my fears
These are the things I'm scared of
I fear
I'm afraid
Now
Right now
I cannot see how
I don't understand
You can be so fucking hateful
Why are you so full of hate?
Of my ways from all these thoughts I
You hate the way I am, and why I think the way I do
Will not stray the hate I feel today
I won't let go of the anger I have towards you, because of how you make me feel
My life is not
My existence is not
Something you think you can run
Something you can control or manipulate
You should have learned
You should have known by now
This is the reason we're done
This is why our relationship is over
I hate your ways
I can't stand the way you act
And everything that you say
I disagree with everything that comes out of your mouth
I wish you dead
I have so much animosity towards you that I would prefer it if you were no longer alive
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Cristian Machado, Dave Chavarri, Marc Rizzo
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