Black Out
Imion - Curl Up And Die Lyrics

These thoughts can't be mine.
I am feeling disconnected from my own thoughts and struggling to make sense of them.

But they're the only thoughts I have.
Despite feeling unsettled, these are the only thoughts that occupy my mind.

In this city of imitation, dying to survive.
Living in an unoriginal and oppressive environment, where survival itself is a daily struggle.

And when the night comes it's spent on.
When night falls, people resort to engaging in unhealthy behaviors.

Getting drunk and taking drugs.
Some people turn to substance abuse to cope with the difficulties of life.

Or letting one thing be enough to love someone.
In some cases, people cling to a single person or thing for comfort and affection.

But then by day I'm a stomach ache that won't go away.
Despite trying to find solace at night, the struggles and pain persist into the day and cannot be ignored.

We set patterns that become our balance.
We establish routines and habits that act as stabilizers in our lives.

Taking things in secret. Keeping ourselves clean.
We hide things from others and try to maintain an image of cleanliness and purity, despite imperfections.

And we keep moving with these same mistakes.
Despite acknowledging our errors, we continue to repeat them.

Rearranging chemicals in our brains.
Drugs and other substances alter the physical composition of our brains.

Nightmares of never remembering anything.
Fears of forgetting important details or events haunt us.

'Til we're not around anymore.
These patterns and struggles will continue until we no longer exist.

And there is this hum in our heads,
We are plagued by a constant, distracting noise in our minds.

And we're exhausted again.
The challenges of life wear us down and drain our energy.

Screaming sound that goes on and on and on and...
The constant noise in our minds can be overwhelming and unbearable.

Like steady medication wearing out.
The effects of our coping mechanisms and vices eventually wear off.

The shit that we forget.
We often forget or ignore the negative consequences our actions may have.

Nothing ever happens. Nothing happens here.
Life can feel mundane and uneventful in this place.

And nothing will ever happen. Nothing matters here.
The environment feels hopeless and devoid of meaning.

Why do we forget the things we thought we figured out?
Despite learning from past mistakes, we sometimes still fall into the same patterns and forget the lessons we've learned.