Half Life
Imogen Heap Lyrics


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I knew that I'd get like this again
That's why I try to keep at bay
Be a hundred percent when I'm with you and then
A perfect hearts length away

The stickler is you've played not one beat wrong
You never promised me anything
Even sat me down, warned me just how they fall
And I knew the odds were I'd never win
And here I am

It's a half life
With you as my courtier man
A daft life

Myself worth mentioning a text back tempo
It's been two days late minutes to slow
There may well be others but I still like to pretend
That I'm the one you really want to grow old with

Ive got scheduled stick, to guard a world keeps sweet
Its so much to everyone all the time
Will you ever slow down will I ever come first
The universe contracts decide

It's a half life
With you as my quarter back
A tough life
It's a half life
With you as my courtier man
A tough life

You know you'll never be lonely
No you'll always be loved
And maybe you'll never need more than that
Of the sad place that love, is whats to become of us
Does it even register on your conscience

Long for one last showdown, from a box in a crowd
Air compressed tight to explode
I'm clenching my ticket to the only way out
To disappear in a puff of smoke

It's a half life




With you as my courtier man
Its a tough life.

Overall Meaning

In the opening lines of Imogen Heap’s song “Half Life,” the singer acknowledges a self-destructive tendency that she has when it comes to relationships. She recognizes that she has the capacity to become too attached and too invested too quickly, and she always ends up getting hurt. To protect herself, she tries to keep a healthy distance from her romantic interests. The song’s title is based on the concept of a half-life, which is the time it takes for half of the atoms in a radioactive substance to decay. In other words, it’s a measure of how unstable something is, and how quickly it’s likely to change or break down. This concept is a metaphor for the singer's state of mind and emotional resilience.


The second verse of the song continues to explore the singer's internal struggle. She refers to herself as a "daft life" and mentions feeling like she's not good enough for her partner. She then goes on to question whether her partner will ever prioritize her needs, and whether she will ever truly come first. She feels like she's constantly juggling multiple commitments and people, and doesn't know how to slow down. The lyrics suggest that the relationship is not a healthy one: the singer says that the man in question is a "quarterback" and a "courtier", which could be interpreted as someone who's using her for their own gain.


Despite everything, the singer still loves the man, and wishes for a closer relationship with him. The chorus repeats the phrase, "It's a half life, with you as my courtier man / A tough life." This seems to sum up the contradictions within the singer's view of the relationship: it's half-alive, half-dead, and her partner is simultaneously her protector and her tormentor.


Line by Line Meaning

I knew that I'd get like this again
I am aware of my tendency to fall in love easily and get attached, despite knowing the potential pain that may come with it.


That's why I try to keep at bay
I try to hold myself back and not let myself get too close to someone too quickly.


Be a hundred percent when I'm with you and then
When I am in your company, I try to be fully present and give you my all.


A perfect hearts length away
However, I still keep myself emotionally distant to avoid getting hurt.


The stickler is you've played not one beat wrong
You have done nothing wrong, and have been a great partner so far.


You never promised me anything
You have not made any commitments or given me any false expectations.


Even sat me down, warned me just how they fall
You have even cautioned me about the risks of falling in love and getting attached.


And I knew the odds were I'd never win
Despite knowing the risks, I still chose to take the chance and get close to you.


And here I am
And now, here I am, feeling conflicted and vulnerable.


It's a half life
My life feels incomplete and uncertain without you by my side.


With you as my courtier man
You are the one I am devoted to and consider my partner.


A daft life
Despite my uncertainties, I cannot help but seek you out and continue this relationship.


Myself worth mentioning a text back tempo
I measure my self-worth by how quickly you respond to my messages.


It's been two days late minutes to slow
Even a slight delay in your response makes me feel insecure and neglected.


There may well be others but I still like to pretend
I am aware that there may be other potential partners around, but I still choose to believe that I am the only one for you.


That I'm the one you really want to grow old with
I hope to be the one you choose to spend the rest of your life with.


Ive got scheduled stick, to guard a world keeps sweet
I have responsibilities and commitments that take up my time, which I use to maintain order and harmony in my life.


Its so much to everyone all the time
It can be overwhelming to juggle all these responsibilities while also being in a relationship.


Will you ever slow down will I ever come first
I wonder if you will ever prioritize me and our relationship over everything else in your life.


The universe contracts decide
Ultimately, fate will determine whether we can make this relationship work or not.


With you as my quarter back
You are the one who leads and guides me in this relationship.


A tough life
Despite the difficulties and uncertainties of this relationship, I still cannot let go of you.


You know you'll never be lonely
I will always be there for you, and you will never have to feel alone.


No you'll always be loved
I will always love you and cherish our relationship, no matter what happens.


And maybe you'll never need more than that
Perhaps our love is enough for you and you do not require any more commitment or future plans.


Of the sad place that love, is whats to become of us
I fear that the uncertainty and complexities of love may eventually pull us apart and leave us in a sad place.


Does it even register on your conscience
Do you even think about the impact your actions have on me and our relationship?


Long for one last showdown, from a box in a crowd
I hope for a chance to confront you and express my feelings, even if it means doing it in public.


Air compressed tight to explode
The tension and pressure I feel regarding our relationship is building up and needs to be released.


I'm clenching my ticket to the only way out
I hold onto the idea that leaving this relationship is the only escape from my emotional turmoil.


To disappear in a puff of smoke
I want to end this relationship abruptly and without any explanation, as if vanishing into thin air.




Lyrics © Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: IMOGEN JENNIFER JANE HEAP

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