As If
Indica Lyrics


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As if, as if
As if, as if

As if, as if, as if it matters
Ain't it, ain't it, ‘what happens, happens’?
As if as if’s were enough

Is it, is it a fit of angst we see?
Is it a bit the fear of failure?
It is as if we gave up

It’s like, it's like we lack nothing
Kind, kind and so mind-numbing
It’s kind of like losing touch

And I can’t find me inside, I hide in an empty smile
And I have left me behind, in words that aren’t mine

The scene, the scene, the screen’s endless
In style, in style, check out my new stress
I’ve seen this stream, did I ditto that?
Like I really care

Pretend, pretend life’s a bluescreen, upload dreams in your B-movie
It's kinda like life, but not

And I can’t find me inside, I hide in an empty smile
And I have left me behind, in words that aren’t mine




And I can’t, I can't find me inside, I hide in an empty smile
And I have left me behind, in words that aren’t mine

Overall Meaning

Indica's song "As If" explores the themes of apathy, isolation, and the search for identity. The repeated use of the phrase "as if" highlights the singer's detachment from reality and her indifference towards the events happening around her. The opening lines "as if, as if, as if it matters" suggests that the singer believes that nothing truly matters in life. She seems to have given up on finding any meaning or purpose in life and has become jaded towards it all. The line in the chorus, "ain't it, ain't it, 'what happens, happens'?" reinforces this idea that the singer has become complacent and indifferent towards her own life and the world around her.


The second verse explores the singer's fear of failure and how it has led to her detachment. She questions whether her lack of motivation is a result of her fear of not succeeding. The line "it's like we lack nothing" suggests that the singer has everything she needs in life but still feels unfulfilled. The line "kind, kind and so mind-numbing" reflects her belief that her life is too comfortable and has become boring. The line "it's kind of like losing touch" highlights the singer's sense of disconnection from both herself and the world around her.


The bridge brings forth the idea of pretending, suggesting that life is like a "bluescreen" and that people often upload their dreams in their "B-movie." This implies that people tend to create alternate realities for themselves as they try to escape the mundanity of their everyday lives. However, this form of escapism is temporary and ultimately unfulfilling. The final lines of the song, "And I can’t find me inside, I hide in an empty smile / And I have left me behind, in words that aren’t mine," highlight the singer's sense of losing herself and her true identity. She has become so detached from reality that she doesn't recognize herself anymore.


Overall, "As If" is a poignant commentary on the struggles of modern-day existence, particularly the tendency for people to become indifferent and isolated in a world that is increasingly changing and complicated.


Line by Line Meaning

As if, as if
Repeating the phrase to emphasize a sense of disbelief or incredulity.


As if, as if, as if it matters
Questioning the relevance or importance of the situation or outcome.


Ain't it, ain't it, ‘what happens, happens’?
Acknowledging the fact that some things are out of our control and accepting the consequences.


As if as if’s were enough
Expressing doubt that mere wishful thinking or pretending can solve our problems.


Is it, is it a fit of angst we see?
Wondering if the apparent distress or anxiety is genuine or just a show.


Is it a bit the fear of failure?
Considering the possibility that fear of not succeeding or meeting expectations could be underlying the distress.


It is as if we gave up
Conveying a sense of resignation, apathy, or hopelessness towards the situation.


It’s like, it's like we lack nothing
Contrasting the appearance of abundance or comfort with a feeling of emptiness or dissatisfaction.


Kind, kind and so mind-numbing
Describing something that might seem pleasant or harmless, but has a dulling or deadening effect on the mind or emotions.


It’s kind of like losing touch
Comparing the situation to a gradual or sudden disconnection from oneself or reality.


And I can’t find me inside, I hide in an empty smile
Admitting a sense of detachment or dissociation from one's true feelings, identity, or purpose.


And I have left me behind, in words that aren’t mine
Recognizing the influence of external pressures or expectations that lead to a sense of alienation from oneself or one's true desires.


The scene, the scene, the screen’s endless
Referring to the constant stimulation or distraction provided by technology or media.


In style, in style, check out my new stress
Ironically commenting on the trend of glamorizing or showcasing one's problems or insecurities.


I’ve seen this stream, did I ditto that?
Reflecting on the repetitive or unoriginal nature of trends or patterns in culture or society.


Like I really care
Expressing a lack of interest, concern, or investment in the subject or situation.


Pretend, pretend life’s a bluescreen, upload dreams in your B-movie
Proposing the idea of creating a fictional, idealized version of one's life or self as a way of coping or escaping from reality.


It's kinda like life, but not
Admitting the limitations or flaws of this strategy, while acknowledging its appeal or temporary effectiveness.


And I can’t, I can't find me inside, I hide in an empty smile
Reiterating the feeling of disconnection or detachment from oneself, and the coping mechanisms used to deal with it.


And I have left me behind, in words that aren’t mine
Emphasizing the alienation or discordance between one's true identity or feelings, and the persona or image presented to others.




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