Indigo De Souza is an American singer-songwriter from Asheville, North Caro… Read Full Bio ↴Indigo De Souza is an American singer-songwriter from Asheville, North Carolina. Her most recent album, All of This Will End, was released in April 2023. She has been noted for creating "intimate, anxious indie rock songs [that] wrangle with disappointment and relationship challenges," with personal and confessional lyrics.

De Souza grew up in the conservative small town of Spruce Pine, North Carolina, where she and her artist mother, Kimberly Oberhammer, faced difficulty fitting in. De Souza's father is a Brazilian guitarist who was absent during much of her childhood. Her family moved to Asheville during her teen years.

With encouragement from her mother, De Souza started making music at age 9 and began self-producing her own recordings in 2016. Her first release was an EP titled Boys which was recorded in a friend's garage, followed by another EP titled Don't Cry Just Do in 2017. She self-released her first full-length album, I Love My Mom, in June 2018. Saddle Creek Records discovered the album and gave it a proper release in 2021. The album gained notice from journalists for De Souza's lyrics on taboo topics.

De Souza co-produced her second album, Any Shape You Take, with Brad Cook, who has also produced for Bon Iver and Waxahatchee. The album was released in August 2021 and was noted for De Souza's emotional singing and mastery of several different musical styles. De Souza toured with a full band featuring Dexter Webb (guitar), Zack Kardon (bass), and Avery Sullivan (drums). She also formed a neo-soul side project called Icky Bricketts with Ethan Baechtold.

In February 2023, De Souza announced via social media that her next album All of This Will End would release in April of that year. The announcement was paired with the release of a single called "Younger & Dumber" that same day.

Home Team
Indigo De Souza Lyrics

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Don′t you blame me if I get carried away
I don't like fucking boys who need to know what to say
When there′s silence in the room
We're all pining for that modern day man
He's really a star, got the crowd going wild in the stands
On a Saturday night, at the home field

I won′t feel anything when you leave me for dead

I won′t do anything, like that hole in your goddamn head
I knew I was ready to stop going steady
When the home team was losing twenty to one
I don't really give a shit about the score on the scoreboard
Please Lord, please Lord, please Lord

Don′t you blame me if I don't answer my phone
I don′t like fucking boys who need to know what to do
When there's no one else home
We′re all pining for that modern day girl
She's really a star, got the crowd just jumping for joy
On a Saturday night, at the home field

I won't feel anything when you leave me for dead
I won′t do anything, like that hole in your goddamn head
I knew I was ready to stop going steady
When the home team was losing twenty to one
I don′t really give a shit about the score on the scoreboard
Please lord, please lord, please lord

I don't wanna talk about love
I don′t wanna talk about us
I don't wanna sit at the kitchen table

You talk and I listen
To the news on the cable tv

Overall Meaning

The song “Home Team” by Indigo De Souza is a punk rock/pop inspired song that speaks about relationships and the vulnerability that comes with it. The lyrics “Don't you blame me if I get carried away. I don't like fucking boys who need to know what to say. When there's silence in the room, We're all pining for that modern day man” seem to suggest a dissatisfaction with the male partners she’s been with. It’s striking that she doesn’t want to be blamed for speaking up and getting emotional about things instead of being calm and collect. Her disdain for men who need to know what to say in a quiet room can be interpreted as a desire for genuine connection and attraction that isn’t just based on expectations.

The singer also talks about being numb to pain and less affected by a breakup with the lines “I won't feel anything when you leave me for dead, I won't do anything, like that hole in your goddamn head”. This suggests a certain numbness to emotional pain, possibly from previous experiences. In the same vein, the singer suggests a lack of interest in staying in a relationship that isn’t working even if it’s considered standard by saying, “I knew I was ready to stop going steady. When the home team was losing twenty to one, I don't really give a shit about the score on the scoreboard”. The metaphor of “home team” can also suggest a feeling of being trapped or obligated to stay in a situation even when it’s not ideal.

Line by Line Meaning

Don't you blame me if I get carried away
I am warning you ahead of time that I have a tendency to get caught up in the moment and express myself with enthusiasm

I don't like fucking boys who need to know what to say
I am not interested in men who are dependent on phrases and scripted lines when having a conversation

When there's silence in the room
During a pause in the conversation or activity, the tension or anticipation is palpable

We're all pining for that modern day man
Collectively, we are yearning for a man who embodies contemporary standards of desirability

He's really a star, got the crowd going wild in the stands
This man is magnetic, and his presence has the power to elicit a frenzy of excitement from those around him

On a Saturday night, at the home field
The setting is at a sports arena, presumably watching a game or event on a weekend evening

I won't feel anything when you leave me for dead
Despite the callousness of the action, I will not allow myself to be affected by your abandonment

I won't do anything, like that hole in your goddamn head
I refuse to stoop to the level of physical harm, like the hypothetical gunshot wound you may receive

I knew I was ready to stop going steady
I came to the realization that the relationship had run its course and it was time to move on

When the home team was losing twenty to one
The memory or experience that caused this realization was the despair of witnessing such a lopsided and hopeless defeat by the local team

I don't really give a shit about the score on the scoreboard
The actual numerical outcome of the game is not of great importance to me

Please lord, please lord, please lord
I am appealing to a higher power for guidance or reassurance

Don't you blame me if I don't answer my phone
Similar to the earlier line, I am making it clear that I may not always be available and am not responsible for others' expectations of me

I don't like fucking boys who need to know what to do
I am not interested in sexual partners who require explicit direction or instruction

When there's no one else home
During times of solitude, the need for companionship or intimacy may become more acute

We're all pining for that modern day girl
In a similar way as before, the collective longing is for a woman who embodies certain attributes or ideals

She's really a star, got the crowd just jumping for joy
This woman has a magnetic energy and captivates those around her with her dynamism

On a Saturday night, at the home field
The scenario is basically the same as earlier, at a sports arena on a weekend evening

I don't wanna talk about love
I am not interested in discussing or exploring romantic feelings or emotions

I don't wanna talk about us
Similarly, I am hesitant to engage in introspection or discussion about the nature of our relationship

I don't wanna sit at the kitchen table
This common image of domesticity and family life is one that I actively seek to avoid

You talk and I listen
Our communication patterns are perhaps unbalanced or unsatisfactory, with me being more of a passive listener than active participant

To the news on the cable tv
The superficial and often negative news cycle is a source of passive distraction, for better or for worse

Writer(s): Brock Berryhill

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