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Forgive Me First
Infantree Lyrics

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Maybe I'm reaching, but all I ever hear now correlates to you and me
Don't call it preaching, babe, if you're the choir, maybe you could set me free
Sing far from churches, though I've never been, I know what they all want to say
When this life hurts, it's a sin to try and fight, you'll thank them on a distant day
But we know better, working for no man if he doesn't promise pay
Rapture and then glory, when you get to heaven, maybe you won't want to stay
'Cause it's difficult to live with, perfect in every way

I'll admit the Holy Ghost is not a part of me
'Cause I split, now I know he don't want no part of me
And I know he won't forgive me first
So I'm sorry, and I never meant to hurt
I'm sorry, and I never meant one word

I take up serpents and drinking my salvation, waiting for the blessed to come
I don't think it's Jesus, a worldly companion will show me that my life has begun
But she ain't surfaced, so I'll be a little fisherman, live where the salmon run

I know my purpose, I make friends with the moon because someone's got to welcome the sun
Say it's difficult to live with, hoping it will soon be done

Overall Meaning

The opening verse of Infantree's "Forgive Me First" seems to describe a person who constantly hears reminders of their past relationship with someone. This could mean that they are constantly reminded of the good times they shared or the mistakes they made that led to the relationship's demise. The singer admits to feeling like they're preaching to the choir, as if their audience already knows the message they're trying to convey. They suggest that trying to fight against the painful memories is a sin, and that others around them may try to convince them to accept the pain rather than moving on. The singer, however, knows that they are stronger than that and that they won't let anyone dictate how they feel about their own life.

Moving on to the second verse, the singer again references religion, saying that they don't feel like they have faith in the Holy Ghost. They recognize that they made some mistakes which have led to them feeling spiritually empty. They apologize for their actions and offer an apology to the people they may have hurt. The singer then reveals that they are looking for salvation in other places, such as drinking, serpent handling, and seeking companionship in worldly things. They suggest that maybe one day a person will come into their life who can show them that they truly belong in the world, rather than relying on an unattainable and perhaps unreliable source of spiritual guidance.

Overall, "Forgive Me First" seems to be a song about the struggle to move on from a past relationship and find purpose and meaning in life. It highlights the difficulty of letting go of the past, as well as the challenges of finding one's own path in the world when it seems like everyone else has their own set of beliefs and expectations.

Line by Line Meaning

Maybe I'm reaching, but all I ever hear now correlates to you and me
I feel like everything around me is a reminder of our past relationship.

Don't call it preaching, babe, if you're the choir, maybe you could set me free
Don't lecture me on how I should feel or act, perhaps you can help me move on from this.

Sing far from churches, though I've never been, I know what they all want to say
I never go to church, but I know they would tell me to forgive and move on.

When this life hurts, it's a sin to try and fight, you'll thank them on a distant day
If you don't accept your pain and move on, it's a sin. However, later on, you'll be grateful for the lesson learned.

But we know better, working for no man if he doesn't promise pay
We don't have to accept anything that doesn't benefit us in some way.

Rapture and then glory, when you get to heaven, maybe you won't want to stay
People say heaven is wonderful, but once you get there, it might not be everything you thought it would be.

'Cause it's difficult to live with, perfect in every way
Perfection is impossible to achieve and living with it is challenging.

I'll admit the Holy Ghost is not a part of me
I don't necessarily believe in Holy Ghost.

'Cause I split, now I know he don't want no part of me
Since I left, I don't think Holy Ghost wants anything to do with me.

And I know he won't forgive me first
I don't think Holy Ghost will be the first one to forgive me.

So I'm sorry, and I never meant to hurt
I'm sorry for any pain I caused.

I'm sorry, and I never meant one word
I'm sorry for anything I said.

I take up serpents and drinking my salvation, waiting for the blessed to come
I do things that are supposed to bring me salvation but I'm just waiting for something to happen.

I don't think it's Jesus, a worldly companion will show me that my life has begun
I don't think Jesus is the answer, maybe a friend from this world can help me start a new life.

But she ain't surfaced, so I'll be a little fisherman, live where the salmon run
I haven't found that friend yet, so I'll just focus on my own life and live in a place where I'm comfortable.

I know my purpose, I make friends with the moon because someone's got to welcome the sun
I know what I'm meant to do, and if no one else will greet the sun, I'll make sure to do it myself.

Say it's difficult to live with, hoping it will soon be done
Living with my mistakes is challenging, but I hope it won't be forever.

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