Elizabeth
Isaac Russell Lyrics

I held my sparkler as I walked
As I walked, holding onto this sparkler, I realize that death was inevitable, and it made me feel isolated; no one talked about it.

We'd just forget love and we'd strike the match
To distract ourselves from the inevitability of death, we decided to forget about love and numb ourselves with something we could control.

And the fuse was life and the light was death
The fuse representing life and the light representing death - the two components that make up the entirety of our existence, like the sparkler I am holding.

And they gave you pills that made you swell (oh no)
The pills they gave you made you sick and changed your appearance, making you lose your self-image and confidence.

You lost the hair on your head, self-image, shot to hell
Your hair fell out and it impacted you psychologically, making you feel worthless and without a sense of identity.

And we spent some time at the beach to my surprise
We went to the beach and spent some time together, which was surprising given the circumstances of your illness.

We would walk and watch the waves
Despite the heavy burden we both carried, we found joy in appreciating the beauty of the ocean and its waves.

Synthetic hair in your eyes
Even as we enjoyed our time together, I couldn't help but notice the synthetic hair getting in your eyes, reminding me of your illness.

Time didn't wear away my feelings for you love
Despite time passing, my love for you never diminished but instead rusted due to the weight of the situation.

Just rusted them and
Life’s struggles put a considerable amount of strain on our relationship.

Made them hard to find
As time passed, it became more difficult to express my love and understand my feelings for you.

But yes I love you, Elizabeth, you're mine.
But regardless of how difficult it became, my love for you remained strong as it was always.

Oh I try my best, dear love, but when I don't succeed
I do try my best to be there for you and love you, but sometimes I don't succeed - and I find that deeply troubling.

Please come visit me in hell 'cause that's where I'll be.
If I'm unable to love you the way you deserve, I fear that I will end up in a bad place, and I may want you to join me.

But if I do love, will you have the time?
But even if I do love you the way you deserve, I question whether I am worthy of your time, given the other people in your life.

Oh no, there are a million other people that deserve you more than I
As much as I love you, I feel that there are so many others who deserve you more than I do, who could love you more than I ever could.

Now it's been two years since the day you've past
It's been two years since the day you left this world, and I find it difficult to accept that you're no longer here.

And lord I'm starting to forget the time I kissed you last
Sometimes, I find myself forgetting even little aspects of our time together, like the last time I kissed you.

And I feel scared 'cause I love you more
This realization makes me feel scared; all the moments lost in time when I could have expressed my love, I find that I love you more each day when you're no longer here.

Yes I love you more (Oh no no no)
Despite everything, my love for you remains, ever-growing - deeper and stronger than ever before.

And yes I love you, Elizabeth, you're mine.
I will never forget you, and regardless of where or how we are, you will always be, and forever mine.