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J.C Lyrics

You know what
I have come to a realization

I'm glad its over
I am relieved that a certain period or situation has ended

Been thinkin I need to get sober
I have been reflecting on the need to stop using substances and regain clarity

Been thinkin I need rethink about everything
I have been contemplating the need to reevaluate every aspect of my life

Hopefully keepin composure
I strive to maintain control over my emotions

I know that I'm right
I am confident in my beliefs or decisions

I know that ive lost in this fight
I acknowledge that I have not emerged victorious in this battle

I'm done wit the pain I can do this all night
I no longer want to endure the pain, and I am willing to persist until it subsides

I just wanna get back to my regular life
I simply desire to return to my normal, everyday routine

Showers falling then the darkness coming
As the rain falls, the feeling of sadness and darkness intensifies

yeah the keeps pain on runnin
The pain and suffering persist and continue to affect me

I was in my home man I felt alone
I was at home, feeling isolated and lonely

got weed and pills to numb it
To cope with my emotions, I use marijuana and medication to numb the pain

Take it everyday just to feel okay while my heart keeps on thumpin
I rely on substances daily to temporarily feel better, even though my heart still beats heavily with unease

Week by week
With the passing of time

I havent slept in a minute
I have not slept for a long time

I'm pushin myself just to eat
I have to force myself to eat due to my mental state

Life it aint sweet
Life is not pleasant or enjoyable

I am my enemy
I am the one causing harm to myself

But I'm still askin how I can I defeat myself
Despite this awareness, I still question how I can overcome my self-destructive tendencies

They say I need time to heal my health
Others advise me to take time and improve my well-being

I'm runnin around thinkin bout my wealth
I am constantly preoccupied with thoughts of financial success and prosperity

How do I do it
How can I achieve my goals

They tell me to talk but I'm just writin music
While others suggest seeking therapy or talking about my issues, I find solace in expressing myself through writing music

It's somethin I do man it feel therapeutic
Creating music is something I find therapeutic and healing

They hate on me now and theyll hate when I'm through it
Regardless of my current struggles or future success, there will always be people who dislike or criticize me

Look
Listen closely

I just want time and listen
I desire the opportunity to have someone's undivided attention

It aint gettin better but I'm on a mission
Even though things are not improving, I remain focused and determined on my personal journey

Need the addition
I require an added element or support

My own addiction
I have become addicted to my own habits or patterns

The perfect prescription
The ideal solution or remedy

Where is it at
Where can I find it

I am a mess and theres no goin back
I am currently in a state of disarray, and there is no return to how things were before

Only good feelin I might be on track
The only positive sensation I experience is the possibility of being on the right path

To bein that king when I'm just a jack
I aspire to achieve a high level of success and importance, even though I currently consider myself insignificant

And to fight through my mental when I cannot lack
I have to battle against my own mental struggles even when I cannot afford any shortcomings

Lets take it back circa 2019
Let's revisit the time around 2019

That boy in love
That young man deeply in love

Started pickin up weed
Started using marijuana

He sit at home mind stuck in a dream
He would sit at home, lost in his thoughts and fantasies

I pin year one cause love was the theme
I highlight the first year because it was characterized by love

Was the pain really worth it
Was the suffering and heartache truly justified

I still think bout you when I'm hurtin
I still think about you when I am in pain

I still gotta do a lot of learnin
I still have a lot to learn and grow from

Pause think I lost my focus
I pause and reflect, realizing that I have lost my sense of direction or purpose

Need get back fore you notice
I need to regain myself before you become aware of my struggles

When I lost u I felt hopeless
When I lost you, I felt a deep sense of despair and hopelessness

Baby you soulless
You, my former lover, are devoid of compassion or empathy

What do I do?
I am unsure of what actions to take

I look at the sky and its lost its blue
When I gaze at the sky, it no longer carries its usual vibrant blue color

I think its from all of the drugs that I do
I believe this change is a result of the excessive drug use

Or maybe the pain that you put me through cause
Alternatively, it could be the emotional pain you caused me