James Han, also known as J. Han, was born and raised in Silve… Read Full Bio ↴J. Han
James Han, also known as J. Han, was born and raised in Silver Spring, Maryland. As a child growing up in an immigrant household, with parents struggling to make a living as blue collar workers, James struggled to find his identity and purpose in this world. For most of his childhood, he desperately tried to discover it in his academic performance, but that pursuit ultimately failed him.
However things changed in middle school; that was the first time James was introduced to the culture of hip-hop. The instant camaraderie he experienced amongst fellow “hip-hop heads” was euphoric. The empowerment and confidence he received from listening to the music was captivating — he couldn’t get enough of it. James even starting writing his own rhymes, but kept it all to himself and close friends. Eventually, he began to idolize hip-hop, only to let it consume his thought life and pervert his worldview. “I wanted James Han to be defined by hip-hop,“ he recalls.
In 9th grade, after his friend invited him out to a youth group service, James started attending church regularly. He decided to go since he was fairly familiar with church, thanks to sunday services he attended with his parents as a kid, and he saw it as a good thing to do.
James was given a wake-up call in 2007 after having an encounter with the Holy Spirit, on his way to a friend’s house. He was convicted of his idolatry and felt the weight of his sinfulness. God revealed to him that all the things his heart was yearning for (identity, purpose, belonging) was wonderfully found in Jesus Christ. God changed his life that day, and he was never the same again
In 2012, he graduated from the University of Maryland, College Park with a Bachelors in Communication. Freshman year was a pivotal year for James because that was when he met his fellow label-mates, Sam Ock and CL, and committed to serve God by making music that glorifies Him.
He aspires to be faithful to his calling as a son and musician and encourage the generations after him to do greater things for the kingdom. James currently serves as a small group leader for New Covenant Fellowship Church, and resides in Germantown, MD.
(Taken from AMP Movement Bio)
Mirror
J.Han Lyrics
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Trust me, them days is over
Can't understand how I
Let you sit on my shoulders
Them times when you messed up
I made escuses for
And I always knew it, that I should have headed for the door
But I stayed and you played the right way in your place
But the me was you, and your
Pain was mine, and the
Same situation playing over in my mind
It seems
Ain't tryna hear you
Just tryna hear me
Don't wanna hear nothing, baby it's selfishly
I blaming you for the hurt in me, but it's not your fault that
I'm so incomplete
You see everytime I do it do it
I seem to ruin
Got this funny way of falling in love
And it's effecting how I'm breathing
Effecting how I'm eating
Seems like I'm all up on drugs
So beg you my pardon
Loving you deep in my heart
And I can't take no more
I'm looking for the problem
Standing over the seek
One thing I found, I had to take a look in mirror
See I can't leave you, until I learn to leave me
What was I thinking
That you could talk to me like that
You was holding me down, but I was holding me back
Looking inside myself, and has to see who I am, cause this is my trial, affecting my smile
I'm gotta walk (?), this is gonna be a while
You see everytime I do it do it
I seem to ruin
Got this funny way of falling in love
And it's effecting how I'm brething
Effecting how I'm eating
Seems like I'm all up on drugs
So beg you my pardon
Loving you deep in my heart
And I can't take no more
I'm looking for the problem
Standing over the seek
One thing I found, I had to take a look in mirror
See I can't leave you, until I learn to leave me
Everything I thought I knew
All them times I ran away
You see, really I was running for me
I know constantly we're trying, we was living in a lie
Finally looked into mirror to see
Probably would have left you sooner, but I was being scared, that ain't how I ever should be
Yeah I was searching for a while for the sores of the problem
One thing I found, I had to take a look in the mirror
The lyrics to J.Han's song Mirror touch upon themes of self-reflection and personal responsibility. The singer acknowledges that they used to give too much power to someone else, allowing them to sit on their shoulders and manipulate them. They admit to making excuses for this person's behavior, even though they knew they should have left, all while hoping the other person would see the singer's worth in their absence. However, the singer eventually comes to the realization that the root of their problems lies within, and they cannot leave their partner until they learn to leave themselves.
The chorus further emphasizes this sentiment, as the singer acknowledges their own role in their destructive patterns of behavior. They recognize that they have a funny way of falling in love, one that affects their breathing and eating and makes it seem like they're on drugs. They apologize to their partner for blaming them for the hurt they feel, admitting that it's not their fault but rather their own incompleteness.
The second verse delves deeper into the singer's journey of self-discovery. They confess that they were holding themselves back all along, and that they needed to look within themselves to truly understand who they are. They know that they were living in a lie, and that their constant attempts to escape were actually attempts to run away from themselves. They finally confront their own fear and take a long hard look in the mirror, recognizing that they should have left their partner sooner but were scared of facing their own issues.
Overall, J.Han's Mirror is a powerful song about the importance of self-reflection and personal responsibility in relationships. By acknowledging their own flaws and patterns of behavior, the singer is able to take control of their life and move towards a healthier, happier future.
Line by Line Meaning
I used to give you too much power
I used to let you control me too much
Trust me, them days is over
I don't trust you anymore and won't let you control me like before
Can't understand how I
I don't understand why I
Let you sit on my shoulders
Let you put too much weight on me and control me
Them times when you messed up
The times when you made mistakes
I made excuses for
I made excuses for your mistakes
And I always knew it, that I should have headed for the door
I always knew that I should have left you sooner
But I stayed and you played the right way in your place
But I stayed and let you play your role in our relationship
And I prayed every time you was away you'd see my face
And I prayed that when you were away, you would miss me
But the me was you, and your
But my problem was you and your
Pain was mine, and the
Pain became my own
Same situation playing over in my mind
The same situation kept replaying in my head
Ain't tryna hear you
I'm not trying to hear you
Just tryna hear me
I'm trying to focus on myself
Don't wanna hear nothing, baby it's selfishly
I don't want to listen to anything, it's selfish of me
I blaming you for the hurt in me, but it's not your fault that
I'm blaming you for my pain, but it's not entirely your fault
I'm so incomplete
I feel so incomplete
You see every time I do it do it
Every time I fall in love
I seem to ruin
It never seems to work out
Got this funny way of falling in love
I have a strange way of falling in love
And it's effecting how I'm breathing
It's affecting my breathing
Effecting how I'm eating
It's affecting my eating habits
Seems like I'm all up on drugs
It feels like I'm on drugs
So beg you my pardon
I apologize for my actions
Loving you deep in my heart
I still love you deeply
And I can't take no more
But I can't handle it anymore
I'm looking for the problem
I'm trying to find the root of the issue
Standing over the seek
I'm looking for the solution
One thing I found, I had to take a look in mirror
I realized that I had to look at myself in the mirror
See I can't leave you, until I learn to leave me
I can't leave you until I learn to leave behind my own problems and insecurities
What was I thinking
What was I thinking when I
That you could talk to me like that
Thought that you had the right to speak to me that way
You was holding me down, but I was holding me back
You weighed me down, but I was actually the one holding myself back
Looking inside myself, and has to see who I am, cause this is my trial, affecting my smile
Looking inside myself and realizing who I am because this is my test that is affecting my happiness
I'm gotta walk (?), this is gonna be a while
I have to keep moving forward, this will take some time
Everything I thought I knew
Everything that I believed was true
All them times I ran away
All the times I tried to leave
You see, really I was running for me
But really, I was running away from my own problems
I know constantly we're trying, we was living in a lie
I know we were trying constantly, but in reality, we were living in a lie
Finally looked into mirror to see
Finally, I looked in the mirror and saw
Probably would have left you sooner, but I was being scared, that ain't how I ever should be
I probably would have left you sooner if I wasn't so scared, but I shouldn't be that way
Yeah I was searching for a while for the sores of the problem
I was searching for the source of the problem for a while
One thing I found, I had to take a look in the mirror
But what I found was that I needed to look in the mirror for the answer
Lyrics © Peermusic Publishing, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc., Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: CHRISTOPHER STEWART, EVE JEFFERS, MARY J. BLIGE, TERIUS NASH
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Nahrin Ashraf
What an angelic voice!!! Endless love for u, my Idol... ❤❤❤
thiri khinhtet
Been over 15 years that he'd been my idol 💜
Could u please translate his new album 'Born gene' remaining songs especially
"I want to ask you"? I like this song a lot 😻
Please 😍😍😍
DreamyCassie
Hey, I'll definitely make video for the other songs on the Born Gene album at some point in time but since I just uploaded two Jaejoong songs, I'd like to make videos for songs of the other TVXQ/JYJ members first before I come back to Jaejoong.
But you can find the translation for the other songs online anyway. Check @stevieolivie on twttr (had to write it like this or else YT might delete this comment). She's translated all Born Gene songs and I also use her translations for my videos as well. I don't translate the songs myself.
Seraphina Htun
that's my favorite song in this album
drinkingwater
back than man had been telling us he's searching for freedom. now he's telling us how to deal with returning ex
Caeser Zeppeli
Aaaaaa sooo good!
DreamyCassie
Ikr? The raw emotions in Jaejoong's voice just hit you like a truck 😭❤️
Diana Solis Sotelo
I'm always wanted know who's did hurt Jaejoong on this way. Since my 12 years old when i started to heared his music, he looked so hurt :( someone has a theory?
Knee Socks
Probably SM
Kim MJ Enki
Yeah, I am convinced that it was SM, that company had no mercy </3