Because of You
J.O. Lyrics

Will not make The same mistakes that you did
I won't repeat the same errors you made

I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery
I won't allow myself to inflict emotional pain

I will not break The way you did, you fell so hard
I won't be as fragile and vulnerable as you were

I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far
I had to experience some difficulties to understand that I need to set boundaries

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
I'm cautious and always stay in safe environments because of your influence

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
I learned to avoid taking risks to prevent being vulnerable to harm

Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Your actions impacted my ability to trust myself and others

Because of you I am afraid
Your actions made me fearful

I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out
Whenever I get lost, you're quick to criticize me

I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm not allowed to express vulnerability or emotions because you view it as a weakness

I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
I have to pretend to be happy all the time to avoid disappointing you

My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
I never had a chance to live my life to its fullest before you affected me

I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I witnessed your struggles and suffering

I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me
I was too immature to handle the weight of your issues, and you should have found a better outlet for support

You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain
You were selfish in your actions and only focused on remedying your own pain

And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing
I now experience the same struggles you went through

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
To avoid the pain that you caused, I try my hardest to forget everything

Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
I struggle to trust people and let them get close to me because of the trauma you inflicted

Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
I have a sense of emptiness in my life because of your actions

Because of you I am afraid
Your actions have instilled fear in me