I Am
J. Michelle Lyrics

I never knew a pain like when you hurt me
The emotional pain inflicted by your actions was something I had never experienced before.

So I refused to let you have of what's left
After feeling so much pain, I decided to hold onto what little love I have left for you.

I know you had a mission just to do me dirty
You had a plan to hurt me intentionally all along.

But that's when you thought there there could be someone else
You tried to hurt me when you thought I was with someone else.

You broke the throne and cut my hair
You destroyed everything I held dear and made me feel powerless.

So deep within your eyes I stared
When I looked into your eyes, I saw that you still had feelings for me.

I saw you want me with your whole heart
You still have strong feelings for me.

Now I gotta wonder if I'm going crazy
Your mixed signals have left me feeling confused and unsure of myself.

My chest inside feels so heavy
My heart feels heavy with the pain of loving someone who hurts me.

Has she earned all my mercy from the start?
I question whether you deserve forgiveness for everything you've done to me.

Could this be love?
I'm questioning whether my complicated feelings for you are love or something else.

What is this thing I'm feeling?
I'm struggling to understand the intensity of my feelings for you.

You got my heart revealing all
You have a way of making me vulnerable and exposing my true feelings.

Ooo girl, you gotta be a demon
Your hold on me is so strong that it feels supernatural, like you must be a demon.

'Cuz somehow you're all I wanna hold
Despite everything, I still want to hold you and be close to you.

Remember that time you said you hate me?
Your words hurt, and it's hard for me to forget the pain they caused.

Well, it's really hard for me to hear something else, no
It's difficult for me to believe you when you say you don't hate me now.

You never had to do much to persuade me
I've always been easy for you to win over and forgive.

I can't invalidate the things always felt
My feelings for you, despite everything, are still valid and real.

You're the answer to my life's question
You are the missing piece to the puzzle of my life.

My mourning and my rising sin
You are there for me in times of sorrow and joy, my constant.

Without you, I don't wanna even try
Without you, I feel lost and unsure of how to move forward in life.

Uh, I ain't never felt like this before you
You have brought something new and intense into my life that I've never experienced before.

Something bout you just makes me adore you
There is something special about you that makes me love and admire you.

I ain't really sure what it is, but
I can't quite put my finger on why I feel this way about you.

You could be my wife and we could have kids
I see a future with you and picture us building a life together.

Sorry if that's jumpin too far ahead
I hope I'm not coming on too strong or scaring you away.

I'm just writin' down the thoughts that's goin' through my head
I'm just being honest and putting my thoughts out there.

Yeah, but let me slow down
But I realize I need to take a step back and slow down my feelings.

I'm just sayin' that I hate it when you not around
I miss you when you're not with me.

You make me feel like I ain't never felt
You bring out a side of me that I never knew existed.

So I wanna show you things that you never seen
I want to share new experiences with you and create special memories together.

Girl, yo' love a drug and I'm feelin' like a fiend
Your love is addicting and I can't get enough of it.

These feelings really got me questioning, yeah
My feelings for you are so strong that it makes me question everything.

Are you an angel or a demon? I don't know, yeah
You have such a strong hold on me that I can't decide if you're good or bad for me.

I just know that you the one I wanna hold, yeah
Despite everything, you're the one I still want to be close to and hold.

Let me hold you tight
I want to hold you close and be with you.

Could this be love?
I'm still questioning if what I feel for you is truly love.

You got my heart revealing all
Your presence and love for me bring out my true feelings and emotions.

Ooo girl, you gotta be a demon
Your hold on me is so strong that it feels supernatural, like you must be a demon.

'Cuz somehow you're all I wanna hold
Despite everything, I still want to hold you and be close to you.