Me Myself and I
JB and Spice Lyrics

I've got these voices battling back-and-forth inside of me
I am struggling with conflicting thoughts and emotions

Making me question my self belief and who I'm meant to be
These internal battles are causing me to doubt myself and my identity

It can be hard to know what's real and what's trying to scheme
It is difficult to discern what is genuine and what is deceptive in my thoughts

I know what I want but am I ignoring the things I need
I am aware of my desires, but I may be disregarding my true needs

When I don't like the vibe I disappear from the scene
When my environment makes me uncomfortable, I tend to isolate myself

I cut myself enough with my own word I don't need you to make me bleed
I am critical enough of myself that I do not need others to add to my pain

Self doubt always overwhelms to the point I cannot breathe
My self-doubt can become so intense that it hinders my ability to function

Then I sit there in pity and compare myself to all those around me
I tend to wallow in self-pity and compare myself to others, which only worsens my mental state

See I have always felt outcasted but I still wanna feel accepted
I have always felt like an outsider, but I still crave acceptance from others

These dark ideas I'm filled with and I think they're fantastic
I have negative thoughts and ideas that I believe are intriguing or worthwhile

Not even my family supports it or maybe I'm overthinking it
Even my family may not understand or approve of my desires or thoughts, or I may simply be overthinking their reactions

I know what it's like to be different and I feel so tired of hiding it
I understand what it's like to be unique, and I am weary of concealing my true self

My true self is emerging but I don't wanna accept him
I am beginning to embrace my authentic self, but I am hesitant to fully accept this new identity

As I have been growin up my personality is switchin
As I mature, my personality is evolving and changing

I'm always anxious I just really do not like to mention
I experience anxiety, but I do not feel comfortable discussing it with others

I am learning to accept how God has made me and who I am
I am coming to terms with how God has created me and learning to embrace my true self

I wrote this while wanting to be intoxicated
I wrote these lyrics while desiring to be under the influence of alcohol or drugs

Not sayin to promote but to be real with the life Ive made
I am not advocating for substance abuse, but I am being honest about my struggles

I'm fighting with my mind on a daily basis
I am constantly battling my own thoughts and emotions

The poison helps me sleep at night I wanna be wasted
Alcohol or drugs help me to sleep and escape from my problems, and I wish to be in a state of intoxication

I put away the nicotine but replaced it with the liquor
I may have quit smoking, but I have substituted alcohol as a coping mechanism

Studied it so much I memorized what makes you sicker
I have researched alcohol extensively and know what its negative effects are

Not drinking in the day but I want the night to come quicker
I do not consume alcohol during the day, but I eagerly await the time when I can

So I can be on my own pour up the drink I don't wanna be bitter
I drink alone to escape my negative emotions and to avoid feeling bitter

I hope you hear this song as honest self exposure
I want this song to showcase my candid self-reflection

Not an alcoholic but I won't decline the mixture
I do not consider myself an alcoholic, but I am not opposed to drinking

I'll probably go some days without saying cheers
There may be days where I do not drink

But I'll hit it harder when the weekend gets here
However, I tend to drink more heavily on the weekends

I'd tell this to my parents but I know what they'll say
I hesitate to share this with my parents because I anticipate their reaction

'Son are you really doin ok talk to us sit and stay
My parents may express concern and urge me to speak with them at length

You know you can fight it just have faith and don't stray
They may encourage me to resist these temptations and have faith in God

I'm tryna do so many things God please don't let this be the end for me
I am striving to achieve many goals and I pray that I will not succumb to my struggles and fail

I'm tryna be better, I'm tryna produce, I'm tryna write letters, I'm tryna tell truth
I am attempting to improve myself, create meaningful content, communicate authentically, and pursue truth

I'm tryna have faith, I'm tryna stay calm, I'm tryna make way, Im tryna be numb
I am trying to have strong beliefs, remain composed, clear obstacles, and avoid negative emotions

I'm tryna grow up, I'm tryna have fun, I'm tryna stay up, I'm tryna be love
I am endeavoring to mature, enjoy myself, stay awake, and embody love

I'm tryna make money, I'm tryna win, I'm tryna be funny, I'm tryna not sin
I am trying to earn money, achieve success, maintain a sense of humor, and avoid wrongdoing

I'm tryna be patient, I'm tryna understand, I'm tryna listen, I'm tryna comprehend
I am striving to develop qualities such as patience, understanding, and attentiveness

I'm tryna be perfect, I'm tryna not be tired, I'm tryna surface, I'm tryna stay hired
I aim to be flawless, energetic, visible, and employed

I'm tryna rest, I'm tryna find, I'm tryna have peace, I'm tryna climb
I am attempting to rest, discover new opportunities, find inner peace, and progress

Save me from myself
I am asking God to rescue me from my own troubles