Pills
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Another sleepless attempt to be insomniac
I'm a trapped, miserable, drug fiend with a mean manic that attacks
Seconds away from feeling cardiac
I seemed to desecrate my heart with my feelings 'till it was out of wack
Started with Ziprasidone like I'll just try a dose of that
Hours later, I end up snapping like an maniac
Embarrassing my life 'knowing that it's already full of crap
Looking to overdose but instead I write depressing raps
It's like I need a break from life in order to relax
But Ziprasidone is killing me with side effects
Head twitching like I just snapped on my damn self
Too independent and cocky to understand help
Too much dosage, my body hates my existence
Impatient, waiting for me to die cause it's sick of me tripping
Somebody stop J from taking pills cause he's addicted
Next thing you know, he'll cut his brain out to see if it's twisted
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills
Maybe just one more pill, what the heck
It could take away the stress and just maybe I'll get some rest
But depression still picks with me 'till I don't feel nothing left
Hey J, "keep taking pills and come follow me to death"
Or maybe 'if I drink instead, I'll be more sane than insane
But ain't no telling what I'll feel from the pain
With this B-disorder, I'll be the next devil king
To make more people suffer in my brain, filled with swings that would swing on out
Of control when you least expect
Zapras in full effect, It's what I would take next
At nights when I couldn't sleep from doses 'I took at dawn
I'm so full of energy that I set a date with insomnia
I'm so dizzy, I forgot to refill my prescription
I'll get it tomorrow 'if I don't end up feeling drowsy again




I hear my demons screaming at me all at once 'till I sin
Just take another pill J, "It's only quarter to 10"
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills
So, as I force another pill down, my body shook up like ahh
Seconds pass and my brain wants to flat out explode
It's no secret that I'm an loner with an lab in my skull
Inventing skills with some lyrics that are sad when I flow
I need some help cause my status is on "FML"
Too much stress from taking pills but I need 'em to heal
But still I feel like a waste with an skeleton face to look at
How sad reality is, It made me look back
To my past that I'm still in, nothing's changed but pills
Stuck in conditions where it's hard to get my brain to chill
Nothing to do but pour my whole entire life down the drain
Feel like a zombie, hypnotized by demons calling my name
Until I'm weak or fall into a deep sleep once again
For them to tell each other that they want to put me to end
That's if they ever have the guts to destroy me for good
For me to wake up next to pills in the devil's neighborhood
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of jj's song "Pills" vividly narrate a struggle with mental health and substance abuse, encapsulating the artist's feelings of despair and entrapment. The opening lines set a tone of sleeplessness, emphasizing a state of insomnia that the singer seems to have accepted as part of their existence. This condition unfolds further as they describe themselves not just as insomniac, but also as a "trapped, miserable, drug fiend," signifying a deep entanglement with drugs as a means of coping. The mention of physical symptoms like "cardiac" feelings and heart desecration underlines a visceral experience of anguish. This metaphorical desecration highlights an internal conflict, suggesting that the pursuit of numbness through drugs ultimately leads to further emotional disarray.


As the narrative progresses, the artist reveals their experience with medication—specifically Ziprasidone, an antipsychotic often used to treat mental disorders. The lyrics draw attention to the paradox of seeking relief through pharmaceuticals while simultaneously experiencing debilitating side effects. There is an underlying acknowledgment that the medications intended to bring stability are instead exacerbating turmoil, manifesting as physical and mental disruptions: “head twitching” and a sense of being “impatient” paint a compelling picture of the chaos that accompanies their reliance on these substances. The line about being “too independent and cocky to understand help” is a poignant reflection of the pride and denial that can often accompany addiction, revealing a barrier to seeking the assistance they desperately need.


In the chorus, the repetition of needing "pills, pills, pills" serves as a mantra underscoring the dependence that has taken hold of the singer's life. The insistence on the necessity of pills juxtaposed with the darkness of suicidal thoughts—“Hey J, ‘keep taking pills and come follow me to death’”—offers a haunting commentary on how addiction can cloud one's perspective and lead to a bleak outlook on life. The artist's contemplation of substituting substances like alcohol for pills further illustrates the endless cycle of searching for something to alleviate pain, often leading to further grief rather than resolution. This cyclical nature of addiction and the attempt to alleviate suffering with more suffering paints a desperate situation where the singer feels hopelessly trapped.


Ultimately, jj’s lyrics resonate as a profound exploration of isolation and overwhelming darkness. The conditions from the past that are presumably still affecting the singer serve to reinforce a sense of stagnation, cleverly captured in the line “nothing’s changed but pills.” The introspection, combined with the haunting imagery of feeling like a "zombie, hypnotized by demons," reveals an acute awareness of mental health struggles intertwined with addiction, imparting a strong sense of urgency and despair. As the song progresses, it becomes clear that the pills, while seemingly offering healing, ultimately contribute to a self-destructive cycle—a chilling representation of how mental health issues can manifest through substance abuse, leading to a tragic dependency that hinders true healing and connection.


Line by Line Meaning

Another sleepless attempt to be insomniac
Once again, I'm trying hard to navigate through my sleepless nights, resonating with the identity of an insomniac.


I'm a trapped, miserable, drug fiend with a mean manic that attacks
I feel confined in my own misery as a desperate addict, grappling with overwhelming manic episodes that strike aggressively.


Seconds away from feeling cardiac
I am on the brink of experiencing a heart attack due to the intense emotional and physical strain I'm under.


I seemed to desecrate my heart with my feelings 'till it was out of wack
I've spiritually tarnished my heart by drowning in my overwhelming emotions, leading it to become unbalanced and unhealthy.


Started with Ziprasidone like I'll just try a dose of that
I began my journey with Ziprasidone, initially thinking that a single dose might lead to relief.


Hours later, I end up snapping like an maniac
What follows is a severe breakdown, where I lose control in a fit of manic frustration.


Embarrassing my life 'knowing that it's already full of crap
I find myself making a fool of my existence, acutely aware of how already problematic my life is.


Looking to overdose but instead I write depressing raps
Though I toy with the idea of overdosing, I channel my pain into crafting somber lyrics instead.


It's like I need a break from life in order to relax
I feel as if only a complete withdrawal from my reality could bring me the peace I desperately seek.


But Ziprasidone is killing me with side effects
However, the medication intended to help me is causing devastating side effects that worsen my condition.


Head twitching like I just snapped on my damn self
I experience involuntary movements as if my mental state has spiraled so far that my body cannot keep up.


Too independent and cocky to understand help
I'm too proud and self-sufficient to recognize that what I truly need is assistance.


Too much dosage, my body hates my existence
The excessive intake of medication causes my body to rebel against me, making me feel unwelcome in my own skin.


Impatient, waiting for me to die cause it's sick of me tripping
I'm plagued with impatience as if my body is urging for an end to the turmoil caused by my struggles.


Somebody stop J from taking pills cause he's addicted
I wish someone would intervene and prevent me from my destructive dependency on these medications.


Next thing you know, he'll cut his brain out to see if it's twisted
If left unchecked, I might consider extreme measures just to figure out how deeply my mental turmoil runs.


I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I find myself caught in an incessant craving for medication that seems to be my only reliable escape.


I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Again, I express my overwhelming need for pills as a misguided solution to my suffering.


Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
I feel utterly dependent on these pills for survival, as if I cannot face life without them.


Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills
I plead for anyone around me to not hesitate, but rather provide me with more pills as a quick fix.


Maybe just one more pill, what the heck
I reason with myself about the possibility of one additional pill to alleviate any encroaching stress.


It could take away the stress and just maybe I'll get some rest
I hold onto hope that perhaps this pill can ease my anxiety and finally grant me the sleep I crave.


But depression still picks with me 'till I don't feel nothing left
Yet, my persistent depression continues to taunt me, draining away any feelings of contentment I might have.


Hey J, 'keep taking pills and come follow me to death'
A sinister voice suggests that my reliance on these pills could lead me down a path towards oblivion.


Or maybe 'if I drink instead, I'll be more sane than insane
I contemplate whether succumbing to alcohol might feel less chaotic compared to my current mental state.


But ain't no telling what I'll feel from the pain
However, there's no guarantee that drowning my sorrows won’t come with its own complications and suffering.


With this B-disorder, I'll be the next devil king
Battling my bipolar disorder leaves me feeling like I could become a source of suffering for many, like a tyrant.


To make more people suffer in my brain, filled with swings that would swing on out
My erratic mood swings dominate my mind, creating chaos that doesn't just affect me but could also extend to others.


Of control when you least expect
These mood shifts often arise unexpectedly, making my struggle even more unbearable.


Zapras in full effect, It's what I would take next
I contemplate taking more Ziprasidone, despite its damaging effects, believing it could help me more than it harms.


At nights when I couldn't sleep from doses 'I took at dawn
During sleepless nights, I reflect on the medication I consumed earlier in the day.


I'm so full of energy that I set a date with insomnia
Excess energy and anxiety uniquely tie me to insomnia, as if I'm in a relationship with sleeplessness.


I'm so dizzy, I forgot to refill my prescription
I feel overwhelmed to the point of forgetfulness, missing crucial moments like refilling my medication.


I'll get it tomorrow 'if I don't end up feeling drowsy again
I optimistically plan to address my needs later, assuming I won't succumb to exhaustion once more.


I hear my demons screaming at me all at once 'till I sin
My internal struggles manifest as overwhelming negativity, urging me towards actions I later regret.


Just take another pill J, 'It's only quarter to 10'
A voice inside insists I indulge in more pills, downplaying the time and implications of my choices.


I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I echo my desperate need for pills, recognizing it as a crutch in my turbulent life.


I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I repeat my plea, emphasizing an overwhelming dependency that overshadows my well-being.


Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
I express a tragic reality—my life feels meaningless without the reliance on my pills.


Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills
I urge those around me to act swiftly and provide the medication I crave, without hesitation.


So, as I force another pill down, my body shook up like ahh
As I consume yet another pill, I feel my body reacting violently, exacerbating my physical and emotional turmoil.


Seconds pass and my brain wants to flat out explode
In mere moments, I feel an overwhelming mental pressure that makes me feel like I might completely shatter.


It's no secret that I'm a loner with a lab in my skull
I openly acknowledge my solitude, portraying my mind as a chaotic laboratory filled with unstable thoughts.


Inventing skills with some lyrics that are sad when I flow
In this mental turmoil, I find myself crafting poignant lyrics that reflect my deep sadness.


I need some help cause my status is on 'FML'
I reach out for support because my life feels overwhelmingly negative, as if I'm stuck in a dire situation.


Too much stress from taking pills but I need 'em to heal
Though the medication adds to my stress, I feel it's the only way to mend my fragmented mental health.


But still I feel like a waste with a skeleton face to look at
Despite my efforts to heal, I see a hollow version of myself reflected back, burdened by my emotional struggles.


How sad reality is, It made me look back
The harshness of my present circumstances compels me to reflect on my past decisions and their impacts.


To my past that I'm still in, nothing's changed but pills
I find myself trapped in a perpetual loop, where the only constant shift in my life revolves around taking pills.


Stuck in conditions where it's hard to get my brain to chill
I'm entrenched in scenarios that prevent my mind from ever finding peace or calm respite.


Nothing to do but pour my whole entire life down the drain
I feel hopeless, resigning myself to the idea that I'm throwing away my entire existence.


Feel like a zombie, hypnotized by demons calling my name
I resemble a mindless zombie, entranced by inner demons that taunt and beckon me towards despair.


Until I'm weak or fall into a deep sleep once again
Ultimately, I find myself collapsing, either from exhaustion or succumbing to an escape through sleep.


For them to tell each other that they want to put me to end
Within my fractured psyche, my demons conspire, expressing a desire to end my suffering permanently.


That's if they ever have the guts to destroy me for good
Though they may plot my downfall, it remains to be seen if they possess the strength to bring about my demise.


For me to wake up next to pills in the devil's neighborhood
I dread the possibility of awakening in a morbid reality where medications symbolically signify my surrender to destruction.


I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
This repetitive call for pills reflects my unrelenting dependence on them as my only grasp on life.


I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Again pleading for pills echoes my deep-seated and seemingly inescapable addiction.


Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
The essence of my existence seems tied to these medications, indicating a deep-rooted dependence.


Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills
I implore others to simply hand me the pills without second thoughts, as if they are a necessary lifeline.




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Written by: Jordan Reynolds

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