Tenni met Jessicka while attending Piper High School in Sunrise, Florida. They had begun writing songs, but had not yet formed a band when Moulder and Inhell joined them to create the band that would become Jack Off Jill. Jack Off Jill's first show was opening for fellow Floridian and long time friend Marilyn Manson and his shock-rock outfit, Marilyn Manson and the Spooky Kids, at a Davie, Florida night club called The Plus Five Lounge. The female foursome quickly became one of the most exciting and controversial underground bands during their heyday. Surname-free singer, Jessicka delivered gut-wrenching lyrics in an angelic to banshee-like voice and performed shocking on-stage antics that included stripping young men on stage while the band and crowd taunted the exposed fans, as well as covering the audience with spit and real blood and candy. Jessicka even spent a night in jail when she and Manson were arrested after a 1994 concert in Jacksonville, Florida, after being accused by the town's Christian Coalition for breaking the town's adult entertainment codes. [4] Though the members of Jack Off Jill never claimed to be shock rockers, they were often labeled as such. In fact, Jack Off Jill had more in common musically with riot grrrl acts such as Bikini Kill and Babes in Toyland than they did with Marilyn Manson and the Spooky Kids, with whom Jack Off Jill would later be constantly compared. It did not help that after a four year relationship, then boyfriend Twiggy Ramirez, began to mimic Jessicka's dress and appearance, making critics' comparisons draw even closer.[5]
Jack Off Jill released several independent records: "Children 5 and Up", "The Boygrinder Sessions", "Cannibal Song Book", (produced by JOJ and Manson) "Cockroach Waltz", and several 7" singles. It was not until, April 8, 1994, when JOJ played a benefit show for Rock Against Domestic Violence with Babes in Toyland and 7 Year Bitch, the same day lead-singer of American grunge rock band Nirvana, Kurt Cobain, was found dead in his Seattle home, that Jack Off Jill caught the eye of record labels. Drummer Lori Barbero from Babes wanted to sign them to her now defunct Minneapolis label Spanish Fly, but it was not to be. Jack Off Jill then caught the eyes and ears of Los Angeles based Risk Records, who signed them in January 1997. They replaced both Ah Cha Cha and Inhell with new members because the two were not ready to leave Florida. The band released their first national 7" "Girl Scout"/"American Made" in March of 1997. On September 9 1997, their first full-length Sexless Demons And Scars (produced by Gumball's leader Don Fleming, who produced Hole's Pretty on the Inside) was released..
After moderate underground success, touring with Lords of Acid, and playing to sold-out crowds in 1997, Jack Off Jill headed to Los Angeles in order to complete 1998's Covetous Creature, a remix EP of songs from Sexless Demons and Scars with the help of SMP (Scott Putesky), a founding member of Marilyn Manson and new drummer Claudia Rossi.[6] The new manifestation of Jack Off Jill hit the road on a national tour with Psychotica, joined along the way by Switchblade Symphony.
The band road-tested new songs in March of 1999 when JOJ were asked to take the opening slot on the Marilyn Manson / Monster Magnet / Hole tour after Hole departed.[3] With Putesky no longer in the guitar position, JOJ enlisted the help of Jessicka's then-boyfriend guitarist Clint Walsh, original JOJ guitarist Michelle Inhell (Oliver), and drummer Norm Block (formerly of Plexi) for the tour. On July 17, 2000, JOJ released their second full-length CD, Clear Hearts Grey Flowers on Risk Records, that featured a cover by artist Mark Ryden and was produced by Chris Vrenna of Tweaker and Nine Inch Nails. The new album was different from the first having a more Gothic rock sound and a cover of the Cure's "Lovesong" was added as a hidden track. Due to pressure, poor publicity for C.H.G.F, several line up changes, tension between founding members Jessicka and Robin, and management problems, Jack Off Jill played its last show at The Troubadour in Los Angeles in April of 2000. They were joined onstage by guitarist Helen Storer of the UK all-girl band Fluffy (and later of Thee Heavenly Music Association) and producer Chris Vrenna on drums. [7] JOJ officially called it quits in late 2000.
Years after their break-up, Jack Off Jill still manage to have a growing online cult following. Reviews for Jessicka's current band Scarling. begin with critics touting JOJ as "riot-goth legends" [8] and refer to Jack Off Jill's final album as," excellent, yet under- appreciated". [9]
In 2015, they reunited for some shows. One was in Ashville, North Carolina on July 18, 2015. They performed their last show was on October 23, 2015 (Jessicka's birthday) in London.
Original Line-up
* Jessicka (Jessicka Fodera) vocals
* Tenni Ah-Cha-Cha (Tenni Arslynian) drums
* Agent Moulder (Robin Moulder) bass, piano
* Michelle Inhell (Michelle Oliver) guitar
Former members
* Lauracet Simpson (Laura Simpson) – drums 1996-1997
* Ho Ho Spade (Jeff Tucci) – guitar 1996-1997
* SMP (Daisy Berkowitz / Scott Putesky) – guitar 1997-1998
* Claudia (Claudia Rossi) – drums 1997-1999
* Clint Walsh – guitar 1999-2000
* Norm Block – live drums 1999-2000
* Hellen Storer (Helen Storer) – live guitar 2000
* Chris Vrenna – live drums 2000
Jessicka is now singing with Scarling
Robin is now writing, recording and creating with TCR
The current musical status of the other members can be found by going to www.jackoffjill.com
Horrible
Jack Off Jill Lyrics
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I hate everyone, don't know what to do
Ingesting flesh and bone
Makes me a cannibal
Or am I criminal?
I feel so horrible
Horrible!
Sucking on colorforms, becoming see-through
Still hating everyone, as I detest you
I do not feel wrong
This makes me durable
Or am I criminal?
I'm so damn horrible
Horrible!
Now everything's horrible, horrible
Fade into yesterday, searching for my youth,
Try to digest it all, searching for the truth
Self-centered devil-spawn
This makes me durable
Or am I criminal?
I'm fucking horrible
Horrible!
Now everything's horrible, horrible
Horrible, now everything's horrible, horrible
Ah!
The lyrics to "Horrible" by Jack Off Jill convey a sense of anguish, self-loathing and pent up anger. The singer expresses an intense desire to destroy someone or something, to the extent that they cannot exist until the object of their hatred is destroyed. The lyrics "I hate everyone, don't know what to do" indicate a deep sense of helplessness and frustration. These emotions are further amplified by the lines "Ingesting flesh and bone, Makes me a cannibal, Or am I criminal?" which suggest that the singer is contemplating acts of extreme violence.
The lyrics then proceed to describe the singer's self-destructive tendencies, as they engage in behaviors that are harmful to themselves like "Sucking on colorforms, becoming see-through." The use of the word "durable" highlights the singer's resilience in the face of the chaos and destruction that they have caused or are planning to cause. The phrase "Self-centered devil-spawn" brings forth a sense of self-hatred, perhaps indicating that the singer is fully aware of the negative impact of their actions.
Overall, the lyrics of "Horrible" paint a portrait of a deeply disturbed individual who is grappling with a range of dark emotions. The song has been interpreted in various ways, with some suggesting that it is a commentary on society's obsession with violence and gore.
Line by Line Meaning
I can't exist any more, till I destroy you
The singer is so consumed by hatred towards someone that they feel they cannot continue living until that person is destroyed.
I hate everyone, don't know what to do
The singer is overwhelmed by hatred for everyone, yet doesn't know how to deal with these emotions.
Ingesting flesh and bone
The singer is expressing a desire to consume another person, to literally take a part of them inside themselves.
Makes me a cannibal
By having this desire to consume another person, the singer feels that they are becoming less human, and more like an animal.
Or am I criminal?
The singer is questioning whether or not their actions and desires are criminal in nature.
I feel so horrible
The singer is expressing how terrible they feel about themselves, their thoughts, and their desires.
Horrible!
The singer repeats the word 'horrible' to emphasize how truly bad they feel, as if the word itself is not enough.
Now everything's horrible, horrible
The singer feels that the world around them is just as bad as how they feel inside.
Sucking on colorforms, becoming see-through
The singer is using the imagery of consuming plastic toys to express how they feel they are becoming translucent, invisible, and unable to be seen for who they truly are.
Still hating everyone, as I detest you
The singer still feels hatred towards everyone, but this person is the main focus of their emotions.
I do not feel wrong
Despite society's norms and values, the singer does not feel guilty or remorseful for their thoughts and desires.
This makes me durable
The singer perceives their ability to detach themselves emotionally from others as a strength, something that makes them stronger.
I'm so damn horrible
The singer is becoming even more upset and emotional about how they feel, using stronger language to express themselves.
Fade into yesterday, searching for my youth
The singer wishes they could go back to a time in their life when they weren't burdened by these emotions and desires.
Try to digest it all, searching for the truth
The singer is desperately trying to understand why they feel this way, what the root of these emotions and desires is.
Self-centered devil-spawn
The singer is damning themselves for their thoughts and desires, seeing themselves as inherently evil.
Ah!
The singer makes one last, desperate cry to express their frustration and pain.
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