Tenni met Jessicka while attending Piper High School in Sunrise, Florida. They had begun writing songs, but had not yet formed a band when Moulder and Inhell joined them to create the band that would become Jack Off Jill. Jack Off Jill's first show was opening for fellow Floridian and long time friend Marilyn Manson and his shock-rock outfit, Marilyn Manson and the Spooky Kids, at a Davie, Florida night club called The Plus Five Lounge. The female foursome quickly became one of the most exciting and controversial underground bands during their heyday. Surname-free singer, Jessicka delivered gut-wrenching lyrics in an angelic to banshee-like voice and performed shocking on-stage antics that included stripping young men on stage while the band and crowd taunted the exposed fans, as well as covering the audience with spit and real blood and candy. Jessicka even spent a night in jail when she and Manson were arrested after a 1994 concert in Jacksonville, Florida, after being accused by the town's Christian Coalition for breaking the town's adult entertainment codes. [4] Though the members of Jack Off Jill never claimed to be shock rockers, they were often labeled as such. In fact, Jack Off Jill had more in common musically with riot grrrl acts such as Bikini Kill and Babes in Toyland than they did with Marilyn Manson and the Spooky Kids, with whom Jack Off Jill would later be constantly compared. It did not help that after a four year relationship, then boyfriend Twiggy Ramirez, began to mimic Jessicka's dress and appearance, making critics' comparisons draw even closer.[5]
Jack Off Jill released several independent records: "Children 5 and Up", "The Boygrinder Sessions", "Cannibal Song Book", (produced by JOJ and Manson) "Cockroach Waltz", and several 7" singles. It was not until, April 8, 1994, when JOJ played a benefit show for Rock Against Domestic Violence with Babes in Toyland and 7 Year Bitch, the same day lead-singer of American grunge rock band Nirvana, Kurt Cobain, was found dead in his Seattle home, that Jack Off Jill caught the eye of record labels. Drummer Lori Barbero from Babes wanted to sign them to her now defunct Minneapolis label Spanish Fly, but it was not to be. Jack Off Jill then caught the eyes and ears of Los Angeles based Risk Records, who signed them in January 1997. They replaced both Ah Cha Cha and Inhell with new members because the two were not ready to leave Florida. The band released their first national 7" "Girl Scout"/"American Made" in March of 1997. On September 9 1997, their first full-length Sexless Demons And Scars (produced by Gumball's leader Don Fleming, who produced Hole's Pretty on the Inside) was released..
After moderate underground success, touring with Lords of Acid, and playing to sold-out crowds in 1997, Jack Off Jill headed to Los Angeles in order to complete 1998's Covetous Creature, a remix EP of songs from Sexless Demons and Scars with the help of SMP (Scott Putesky), a founding member of Marilyn Manson and new drummer Claudia Rossi.[6] The new manifestation of Jack Off Jill hit the road on a national tour with Psychotica, joined along the way by Switchblade Symphony.
The band road-tested new songs in March of 1999 when JOJ were asked to take the opening slot on the Marilyn Manson / Monster Magnet / Hole tour after Hole departed.[3] With Putesky no longer in the guitar position, JOJ enlisted the help of Jessicka's then-boyfriend guitarist Clint Walsh, original JOJ guitarist Michelle Inhell (Oliver), and drummer Norm Block (formerly of Plexi) for the tour. On July 17, 2000, JOJ released their second full-length CD, Clear Hearts Grey Flowers on Risk Records, that featured a cover by artist Mark Ryden and was produced by Chris Vrenna of Tweaker and Nine Inch Nails. The new album was different from the first having a more Gothic rock sound and a cover of the Cure's "Lovesong" was added as a hidden track. Due to pressure, poor publicity for C.H.G.F, several line up changes, tension between founding members Jessicka and Robin, and management problems, Jack Off Jill played its last show at The Troubadour in Los Angeles in April of 2000. They were joined onstage by guitarist Helen Storer of the UK all-girl band Fluffy (and later of Thee Heavenly Music Association) and producer Chris Vrenna on drums. [7] JOJ officially called it quits in late 2000.
Years after their break-up, Jack Off Jill still manage to have a growing online cult following. Reviews for Jessicka's current band Scarling. begin with critics touting JOJ as "riot-goth legends" [8] and refer to Jack Off Jill's final album as," excellent, yet under- appreciated". [9]
In 2015, they reunited for some shows. One was in Ashville, North Carolina on July 18, 2015. They performed their last show was on October 23, 2015 (Jessicka's birthday) in London.
Original Line-up
* Jessicka (Jessicka Fodera) vocals
* Tenni Ah-Cha-Cha (Tenni Arslynian) drums
* Agent Moulder (Robin Moulder) bass, piano
* Michelle Inhell (Michelle Oliver) guitar
Former members
* Lauracet Simpson (Laura Simpson) – drums 1996-1997
* Ho Ho Spade (Jeff Tucci) – guitar 1996-1997
* SMP (Daisy Berkowitz / Scott Putesky) – guitar 1997-1998
* Claudia (Claudia Rossi) – drums 1997-1999
* Clint Walsh – guitar 1999-2000
* Norm Block – live drums 1999-2000
* Hellen Storer (Helen Storer) – live guitar 2000
* Chris Vrenna – live drums 2000
Jessicka is now singing with Scarling
Robin is now writing, recording and creating with TCR
The current musical status of the other members can be found by going to www.jackoffjill.com
When I Am Queen
Jack Off Jill Lyrics
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When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
that everything you once held dear is taken away from you
When I am queen sweet girl scout's face and not a one will fall from grace
If all their hearts I could replace, but until then I'll have to.
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown
When I am queen on royal throne made out of parts of broken bones
of all the devils I have known that suck the angels dry
When I am queen I'll have my way I'll make it drowning dollie day
and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown
Hush baby hush baby
Hush baby go to sleep
Hush baby hush baby
Hush baby I'll make it be
When I am queen I will not wait my body type will still be great
I will not leave it up to fate because I hate you too
When I am queen they all will see the patron saint of self-injury
the glitter sores will heal themselves I'll play the part of someone else
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown drown drown myself
Drown
The lyrics of Jack Off Jill's song "When I Am Queen" are dark and disturbing, yet insightful and thought-provoking. The song is a melancholy reflection on the desire for power and control, expressed through the persona of the "queen." The lyrics vividly showcase the queen's resentment towards those who have wronged her or taken away what she once held dear. She asserts her dominance and superiority by insisting on "perfect scars" on her wrists, representing her struggles with self-harm.
The song's repeated phrase "Drown drown drown myself" speaks to the queen's feelings of suffocation and desperation as she tries to cope with her pain and loneliness. The lyrics also highlight the queen's twisted fascination with death and destruction, as she describes a "royal throne made out of parts of broken bones" and her desire to be the "patron saint of self-injury." She sees herself as a savior for those who also struggle with pain, and the "glitter sores" represent the same struggles she faces.
Overall, "When I Am Queen" is a powerful statement about the human condition and our desire for control and power in the face of pain and suffering. The song is an intense and raw expression of the darkest corners of the human psyche.
Line by Line Meaning
When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
I will demand respect and attention with the scars on my wrists that I have intentionally inflicted upon myself.
that everything you once held dear is taken away from you
I want to take away your happiness, your possessions, and everything you once valued in life.
When I am queen sweet girl scout's face and not a one will fall from grace
As a queen, I'll have a sweet and innocent appearance, and no one will dare to defy my authority or face my wrath.
If all their hearts I could replace, but until then I'll have to.
I wish I could replace your heart, but for now, I'll have to settle for your downfall.
When I am queen on royal throne made out of parts of broken bones
As a queen, my throne would be made of the fragments of broken and shattered bones.
of all the devils I have known that suck the angels dry
It will be a reminder of all the evil individuals who feed off the goodness of others.
When I am queen I'll have my way I'll make it drowning dollie day
I'll enforce my will and make everyone feel helpless and subservient like dolls submerged underwater.
and all the tears that we have cried will suck back in our eyes
All the tears we've shed will be drawn back into our eyes, leaving us numb and emotionless.
Hush baby hush baby Hush baby go to sleep Hush baby hush baby Hush baby I'll make it be
I'll make sure I silence and control you in every aspect of your life so that you can no longer oppose me.
When I am queen I will not wait my body type will still be great
Despite being a queen, I will still maintain my physical beauty without waiting for others' approval.
I will not leave it up to fate because I hate you too
I don't want to leave anything to chance because I despise you deeply.
When I am queen they all will see the patron saint of self-injury
As a queen, I'll be an icon for people who intentionally harm themselves.
the glitter sores will heal themselves I'll play the part of someone else
My glittering wounds will heal themselves, and I'll pretend I'm someone else to escape my troubles.
Drown drown drown myself Drown drown drown myself Drown drown drown myself Drown
I'll keep drowning myself in my pain and hatred, and possibly suicide.
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